Episode 1 - How it all began

Transcript

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Welcome to the guardrail podcast where I don't know anything about anything, but God is definitely doing something and we're here to talk.

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About it, I'm.

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Rachel and I'm fa.

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Alright, let's start from the beginning.

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OK.

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What's been happening to us?

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Alright, well.

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Let's just say, well first.

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Off, I mean last year.

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We went to the billing company. Well, you didn't go? I went. I went to the billing company by myself. And this was in 21.

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2021.

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Right.

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Yeah, yeah.

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It's not this year.

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OK, so last.

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Year last year I went there and the place is crazy.

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I mean, clearly God is doing something, you know, and.

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Let's just say before I went there, I had absolutely no expectation and I didn't like expect.

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Anything good from and I?

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Was like, well, I'm going.

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Because I'm hungry enough to, like, give it a try, but just complacent enough and then different to, like, not expect anything from it at all.

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And that whole conference, like, completely blew up my spirituality.

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Yeah, just, every, every sermon.

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Everything they said.

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Just completely like it had something in it that challenged me and woke me up out of my spiritual.

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Summer like.

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Prior to that, I don't know.

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I don't know when.

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I went to sleep.

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Spiritually, but at some point I went to sleep spiritually, and it wasn't until that conference that God got my attention and I woke up and and it really was a matter of indifference that I've had so anyway.

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Right, yeah.

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That whole year after that conference, I have, I was different like I had not been.

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The same but.

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Not to the caliber that I would.

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Say I am now.

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So whole year, like even just reading my Bible every day like that wasn't something I did prior, like very sporadically.

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Read my Bible and prayed daily before that conference, and then since that conference I have read my Bible and.

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Prayed every single.

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Day since I woke up.

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Which is like whatever.

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But it's more or less just.

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The fact that I.

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Wasn't in a slumber, spiritually.

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So anyway, Fast forward to this year's conference. I was like everyone, I need to know everyone I know needs to go to this conference.

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I told you you're going without a question. Like my whole family's going. Our kids need to go. You need to go. I invited my our friends.

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And you know.

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And I should like mention their names.

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I don't know.

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I don't.

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Well, whatever. Two friends came. Yeah, 22 friends came. The person that I went with last year brought two other of his family members.

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Maybe we'll we'll name names.

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Like we, we got a hold of something there and so we brought everybody and you know once again like.

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This conference God's doing something and UM like just again.

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Like I don't even.

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Know I don't know what.

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I think that not only.

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The conference did something, I think, at least for us, for both of us.

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At the same time you're down there, God was talking to me here, and I wasn't.

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The first conference you mean?

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Right.

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Yeah, I wasn't looking for it.

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I wasn't doing anything.

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It's something that.

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Was totally from God.

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He like initiated talking to me.

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Because you came.

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Back different and I felt like I was different too.

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Yeah, I was like, OK.

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Here comes like a new season in our lives.

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That's what I felt like happened and that weakened for.

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You and me.

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Maybe I don't know.

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Maybe your brain for me down there.

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I don't know.

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Yeah, I probably was I.

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Don't even remember now.

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Honestly, so many things happened like, you know, people praying over me in so many words spoken over me.

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And just like just encounter after encounter with God.

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So like so many that that whole weekend was packed of like revelation.

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Encounter and whatever.

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UM that I can't. I don't even remember everything that happened, just I just know that I came home different and I came home and you were different and.

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Our house was different.

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Yeah, and we had not been the same.

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And I haven't been the same since.

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But you know leading up.

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To this year's conference, like there was some aspects of my spiritual life that.

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Maybe were a little.

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Like I don't know.

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Let's let's just say like, alright like.

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I think if that time is.

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Like from a year ago to now, there was a spiritual cleanse going on for us.

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And a physical cleanse till there are things that we got.

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Rid of.

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In our lives.

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Well from like.

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Media social media.

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That's when you stop social media completely.

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Like maybe before that look.

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No before that, but.

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And I stopped social me a long time ago that had nothing to do with spirituality.

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Just being, like, annoyed with people.

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Yeah, I started realizing that.

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We were well that I that I was just.

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Constantly on the phone and watching stuff. And I was like, oh, 50% of my time just goes.

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And that wasn't good.

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You know one thing.

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Before we went to the conference is like we had that BBQ, you know?

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And I I have like, I mean, whatever drinking and being like drinking alcohol is, you know, every individualized persons like journey or whatever that doesn't make sense.

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But everybody has their own.

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You know, convictions about it and that's how it's supposed to be.

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Like, Bible says, like, you know, whatever.

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That's so true, yeah.

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Like, that's your own conviction.

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You work it out with.

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God and so it.

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Had not been.

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My conviction per se that it was.

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Wrong to drink alcohol.

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And like, maybe there was definitely times where I drink too much alcohol and it was like not appropriate.

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Not like I was inappropriate or you would.

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Even be able to tell like it was like.

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A little tipsy, but it's.

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Like I knew that wasn't right, you know.

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But it was like.

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It's kind of like teetering the line.

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More or less.

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With drinking and then like, not even just that.

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Like you know, we have.

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Like a big barbecue and like, 30 people came to our.

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House and like there was alcohol like.

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Do I want my kids around that?

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Like I don't want them seeing Mom and dad like drink like that and like their friends drink?

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And like that's.

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Not like a good.

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It just didn't feel right to.

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Me and you know.

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I don't know.

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I remember like going.

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To church and being like?

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Nah, I kind of.

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Weird that.

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I've been night before is like no one got drunk and no one was.

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Inappropriate, but it just.

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Was like.

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Why did I even?

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Do that like.

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Yeah, cause I've been to.

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Well, growing up, my parents, would that part my my father would have parties and like people are drinking.

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And that was like drinking, drinking and be like.

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Yeah, yeah.

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And it's not like we were like having a beer or truly or whatever.

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Like we were, it was like.

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They were drunk.

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Yeah, they were drunk.

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We weren't like that.

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When the whole crowd was like, you know.

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It wasn't like that here.

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We'll just have, uh, let's have a drink here and be like.

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Yeah. Ohh.

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Have a truly yeah.

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It's gonna have that, but we have.

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A drink like.

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But like why?

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Like what was the?

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It wasn't necessary, but we did it right.

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But I don't know.

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And it's like I.

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Said the point I'm making is like that night, like even in the middle of that, I was.

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Like this is there's a point where I like brought out some whiskey and I was like, let's do.

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Some shots you know, with my friends.

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And I'm kind.

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That was last year.

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Of no.

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This was this year.

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OK, this year, like in the summer when?

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We had no.

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OK, great. That makes sense.

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Cardiac and I was like, even while I was doing this, I was like getting a check in my spirit.

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I'm like, why am I doing this?

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You know like.

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I don't.

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I'm not gonna get drunk because that's not.

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I know I'm not supposed to, and it's we're gonna be drunk.

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So and like you.

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Know this just looks bad.

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This just looks like.

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A kind of like a bad witness.

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In a way.

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You know, I don't know.

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I just didn't feel good about it.

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But I did it.

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And then, like, I remember going to church the next to me and like, well, what's the?

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Point of that is that really what I want my kids.

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To remember of Mom and Dad and their friends like is that.

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What I want to have my house and like and.

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Like, not even just that.

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Like you know what happens?

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When our kids are teenagers and like there's alcohol in the house, like I'm gonna have to be like locking up our liquor because you know how kids are, you know, like, I don't even want that, you know, but it's like you still do.

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Yeah, 100%.

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It and I still.

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Had we still had true lies, we still had, like, whatever, even though I kind of started to feel like maybe God was trying to tell me something here with this, like maybe it's not.

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The best thing for me?

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But I still went along.

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With it and whatever.

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So we.

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Went to this conference and like immediately at the.

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Conference was like I've got.

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I can't be doing this anymore.

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I can't have like 1 foot in the door.

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And one foot like you.

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Know like 1 foot in the world.

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And one foot, like when holiness or sanctification or whatever like this is.

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It just wasn't right for me.

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I don't know if that makes sense.

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What I'm trying to say, but.

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It makes sense.

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Anyway, so at this conference.

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I don't know.

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There's just so much you can't really break it all down.

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It's like when you.

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When you step into God's presence, you're not.

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The same and.

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There is so much of God's presence.

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That like you're.

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Not it's impossible to not be changed by his presence, and that's exactly what happened, at least to me, it's.

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Like so many things.

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I was thinking about that today too, when I was driving to get tacos.

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I was like what was about the belonging company that changed it so much because we were down there in.

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UM, I've been to other conferences where people Minister to you a lot. It wasn't like that there you were. Just in.

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And the amazing presence of God, and you could tell that the people that were leading.

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Were like putting down some crazy sacrifice.

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You know what I mean?

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Whether they pray a lot, they fast a.

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Lot or you know they.

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Just set their lives aside for God.

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And I know that God honors honors that.

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So his presence was there.

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Like, I haven't felt before or since, because, you know.

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It's just.

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I'm not at that level, you know, I mean, like when I worship like God's doesn't show up like that.

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But, you know, I like.

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I still feel his presence strongly after that.

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And I know that just by being there.

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We were convicted of a lot of things.

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Then then you taste it right and you taste it.

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And for me, it was like, oh, wow, I felt this before.

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And I mean like.

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I was, I felt like.

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This before but my problem was.

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I didn't know that that had stopped.

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You hear me like.

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But if of course, if I had thought about it, I didn't feel the same as I did, like maybe 1215 years ago, you know what I mean?

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But I didn't and it took me being back in a place like that to realize.

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That like like I'm so far off.

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I might as well not be Christian you.

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Know I.

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Mean like because the way I measure that is like you're either in God's presence and.

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You give 100% or you don't because 99% is the same as like zero. Yeah, to me. You know me. Like you need to just give everything.

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You need to just chase his presence and stuff.

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So that's crazy.

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All right, after the conference, what happened?

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When we came home.

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I don't know.

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So it's like you're living off like.

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A like a holy.

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Spirit high or something.

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At least I was like for a good.

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Week or so.

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That was a good two weeks for me.

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Yeah, it's yeah, right? Yeah.

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Like I'm just so wrapped.

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Or you're just like, you're really listening to all.

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The sermons and whatever.

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You know, trying to get as much of that conference as.

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You can, but I don't even know.

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And this is the thing like we came home.

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And we like.

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Took out that night when we got back to the house, we like gathered up all.

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Of our booze.

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And all the trollies I did it, whatever.

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You did that.

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But I was like I this.

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Is I'm making a point.

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Here, like God's.

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Telling me it's time to clean it up.

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You know, and like this is the thing like what?

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I went away from.

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That conference was like I want my home to be a home not only to us.

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But the Holy Spirit.

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Yeah, I want our home to be a home for God's presence. And so like, whatever doesn't line up with God's word and God's spirit. I'm getting rid of in this house, like, right now. So like.

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Gathered up all the booze and like I had a lot.

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And it's weird because, like, we're not like that.

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Much, I mean, not ********.

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Well, the thing about alcohol is like we bought.

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We weren't ******** drinkers.

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The House not too long ago.

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And then?

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Friend of mine brought booze like how?

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Here's a bottle of whiskey in this.

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And the bottles are huge, so we're not going to drink all of it.

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Right.

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But then you're tired of whiskey, cause you know there's, like, too much of.

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It and you buy something different and then all of a sudden there's a.

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Yeah, you're going to try, like, different kinds?

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And then all of a sudden there's a whole bottle there.

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And then another one.

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Another one and.

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Don't drink like you do.

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OK.

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I don't drink anymore at all.

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At all at all.

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But thank you.

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But you know, you would like certain flavors or certain alcohol.

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For me, it was like, ohh.

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Maybe just give me a vodka or the Brazilian.

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Rum or whatever.

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And like, not even beer.

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I like beer, but it's like I'll I'll like a truly, but you know, it can't be too flavored or because it's like, I don't know, I have some sort of aversion to trying different things.

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You have an aversion to things that taste good.

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It's just like the coffee cause it's funny because when we're at the conference, there's people making coffee and.

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Because I'm just used to like Dunkin Iced coffee, it was like, oh, we're going to order some coffee here, but I never got to order.

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But I always know that you order like the best.

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Whatever we're at like at a new place or you always order the better dish or the better drink or whatever.

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So there's just, like, just get me where you're getting.

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And I remember you got the toasted coconut right.

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So I drank that and I'm like toasted coconut.

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It's freaking amazing.

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Yeah. So the.

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Next day, you're like, I want to try something different and I'm like, no, I want the toasted coconut.

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And that's how I am like, yeah, yeah.

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I'm introduced to something new, and I like it and.

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Then I don't.

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I just want that all the time.

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Yeah, I know.

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So you like you like changing your?

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I like change I like.

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Flavor and for mix.

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Yeah, I want to taste all the flavors.

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I just want I don't know the.

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White, one that burns your mouth.

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Boring. Yeah, no.

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Maybe the Mint one, but I don't know.

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Yeah, well.

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So we came home and we got.

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Rid of all of that.

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Yeah, like I.

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Dumped it all out and like I felt God's.

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Presence. I was doing that.

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Yeah, it like, OK, this is right.

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We're doing the right thing here.

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Yeah, I knew you were doing something good.

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Yeah, I was like, this is good.

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And not just that, like, so I got rid of UM, you were mentioning about like, wasting your time on social media and whatever.

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But like I had the YouTube, I didn't have Tik.

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T.O.K, but you know it's like the same.

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You might as well right?

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It's like, yeah, the YouTube shorts or whatever, I would just scroll.

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Through those things.

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Like on a daily, every moment I could basis.

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Like you know, just the time waster and The thing is with that is like you know.

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OK. Like it's not wrong.

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To look at that crap.

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But like I you don't have control over what you're seeing.

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It's not.

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So like you scroll on something inappropriate comes up or something that you should know about or something that, like, you know, disturbs your spirit or something, you know, control of what shows up.

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And so, and it doesn't matter because it wasn't like I wanted to devote all of my time.

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And energy to.

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Getting to know God like I just like.

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This is the thing you come.

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Out of this conference, and then for me.

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I'm afraid that I'm just going to fall back into complacency again, or let me fall back into my slumber again.

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I just like actively, like constantly obeying God almost, but like, please don't let me go back.

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Please don't let me go back to how I was in August, you know, before this, the conference was in September.

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You know what I mean?

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So it's like, whatever I can do.

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That gets rid of anything that might jeopardize like.

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My spiritual like fire or fervor, you know, like, I want to get rid of it.

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Anything that's going to take my my time or my distractions or be a distraction.

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I mean, I want to get rid of it because I could just. I'm in this like I'm I'm 100% in this now, you know and.

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So I think that's.

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The key that kind of starts.

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All of what's happening with us now like that was the key anyway.

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I definitely feel like God did set this up for us, and now we're walking a path of like.

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Cleansing everything spiritually, physically you know.

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The thing about social media for me, was even before the conference.

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I was praying because I, you know, you always wanted more of God.

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It's not like we went to this conference and we discovered how awesome God is over.

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Right, yeah.

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I mean, we both grew up.

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In Christian homes and having counted God on many, many times.

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Yeah, I didn't.

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I I didn't, really.

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God's presence was until I moved to the US when I was like, 17, and I went to like a.

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Really amazing church.

00:18:02 Fa

Uh, but the social media thing for me was I was spraying and.

00:18:09 Fa

I I just remember the Holy Spirit and saying you got to.

00:18:12 Fa

Stop scrolling.

00:18:13 Fa

Like you've got to stop scrolling cause you sit on your phone and you scroll, scroll, scroll, scroll and one of the things too that.

00:18:23 Fa

I wouldn't say lead me to scrolling is like the girls kind of take over the television.

00:18:30 Fa

So what else do you have in your hand like you have your phone, so you go.

00:18:33 Fa

On your phone a lot, you know, because.

00:18:34

Right.

00:18:35 Fa

And then after they go to bed, maybe watch a show or whatever, but I don't know. I think the way social media's design is.

00:18:44 Fa

It's designed to mess with your emotions, whether it's to make you laugh, you know, because the like the like.

00:18:51 Fa

The shorts you're saying.

00:18:53 Fa

They're really quick and they like usually make you laugh.

00:18:57 Fa

Or you are on Facebook and you know just news pop up all the time, like political stuff that just makes you angry.

00:19:05 Fa

So it's always messing with your emotions.

00:19:09 Fa

And I think that is like a huge.

00:19:12 Fa

That's a big deal.

00:19:13 Fa

You know what I mean?

00:19:14 Fa

Like it.

00:19:15 Fa

It could completely ruin your day.

00:19:17 Fa

You could blink.

00:19:19 Fa

Distract you from other things.

00:19:20 Fa

You know what I mean?

00:19:22 Fa

Where to the point.

00:19:23 Fa

You completely focus on, like, bad things all the time, and then you start to become depressed.

00:19:27 Fa

Or whatever, right?

00:19:29 Fa

Not that that was my case, but I think.

00:19:31 Fa

That's how it.

00:19:31 Fa

Works for some people.

00:19:33 Fa

I just didn't like.

00:19:36 Fa

How I felt when I was like on social.

00:19:38 Fa

Media all the time.

00:19:40 Fa

I I still am like, I'm not like I didn't get rid of it.

00:19:43 Fa

Like I watch you.

00:19:45 Fa

Sometimes at work, you know, there's stuff that.

00:19:48 Fa

I follow a lot of stuff is.

00:19:50 Fa

Like sports formal one.

00:19:52 Fa

Whatever you know.

00:19:55 Fa

I definitely just don't go on Instagram and scroll constantly like I.

00:20:01 Fa

Used to before.

00:20:02 Fa

I'm on there to see what my friends are posting, what my family is posting.

00:20:07 Fa

But that's it for me.

00:20:10 Rachel

UM.

00:20:12 Rachel

Yeah, I don't know.

00:20:13 Rachel

I mean it's it's whatever.

00:20:15 Rachel

As far as the social media goes for us, it was out of control.

00:20:18 Rachel

Like it's too.

00:20:20 Fa

But that's the thing though.

00:20:21 Fa

I don't even think.

00:20:22 Fa

That we were one of those people that are.

00:20:24 Fa

Out of control you need to be like.

00:20:26 Fa

Because I see people that are.

00:20:29 Fa

On there and they can't put it down like at church.

00:20:32 Fa

They can't put it.

00:20:32 Fa

Down at school.

00:20:35 Fa

You know, they're at the table.

00:20:36 Fa

They're scrolling like they're just.

00:20:39 Fa

On it all the time and they're posting and they want, you know, to be liked or whatever they want.

00:20:45 Fa

The fuels and stuff it.

00:20:46 Fa

It isn't like that for us, but.

00:20:48 Fa

It definitely was.

00:20:51 Fa

Ohh, you're bored.

00:20:52 Fa

Scroll, you're bored.

00:20:53 Fa

Go on social media.

00:20:54 Fa

That was me all.

00:20:55 Fa

The time you know what I mean.

00:20:57 Rachel

I I think it for me, I say was out of control is because it's a matter of like distraction.

00:21:02 Rachel

My need for distraction was out of control.

00:21:04 Rachel

So you know, why do I need to be distracted for my life?

00:21:06 Rachel

That doesn't make any sense.

00:21:08

It's not how it's.

00:21:09 Rachel

Supposed to be, you know, you're not supposed to.

00:21:10 Rachel

Be absent from your own life, you know, and that's exactly what it does.

00:21:15 Rachel

It makes you absent from whatever is real in front of you now, but I don't know.

00:21:20 Rachel

So I mean, going back to what we were saying, we coming back, I don't even know we're talking about now.

00:21:26 Rachel

Yeah, we're getting rid of like.

00:21:27 Fa

What happened to us? Yeah.

00:21:28 Rachel

So I feel like God was kind of like taking us through a sanctification process.

00:21:32 Rachel

He's still doing that.

00:21:34 Rachel

But UM.

00:21:35 Rachel

Like I can't watch and I have yet to really watch.

00:21:38 Rachel

I mean, I'm not going to watch TV.

00:21:39 Rachel

I don't want to.

00:21:40 Rachel

I have no desire to, like get into anything, you know, on TV I couldn't watch shows like weeks after.

00:21:46 Rachel

I like watch.

00:21:48 Rachel

A movie once with you and I felt like that was.

00:21:50 Rachel

Like why like this is?

00:21:51 Rachel

Horrible like now I'm.

00:21:53 Rachel

Very guarded in what I watch.

00:21:55 Rachel

If I do watch anything.

00:21:57 Rachel

Because I don't want anything in, I don't want to suck anything in that.

00:21:59 Fa

Me too.

00:22:00 Rachel

It's not.

00:22:01 Fa

I can't watch anything new.

00:22:01 Rachel

It's gonna disturb the Holy Spirit.

00:22:03 Fa

I can't.

00:22:04 Fa

I I look at the rating and I'm like, uh, you know.

00:22:07 Rachel

Yeah, I'd be really careful about what I take in because.

00:22:10 Fa

Yeah, even.

00:22:12 Fa

What people send me on private message or whatever and.

00:22:16 Fa

And it's like.

00:22:19 Fa

Something that's going to bother me, you know?

00:22:20 Fa

I mean, I was like, oh, I don't want to see stuff.

00:22:23 Fa

You know what I mean?

00:22:24 Fa

Like, I want to.

00:22:25 Rachel

Yeah, you know, it was crazy what?

00:22:27 Rachel

I was in a patients room.

00:22:29 Rachel

Other day and they had like some movie on.

00:22:32 Rachel

And it was like.

00:22:35 Rachel

I didn't even know what was going on because I just walked in.

00:22:37 Rachel

Was trying to give him medicine.

00:22:38 Fa

It's like Halloween time.

00:22:39 Fa

No, it wasn't.

00:22:40 Rachel

It was like.

00:22:41 Rachel

Some stupid it looked like a stupid Jennifer Lawrence movie.

00:22:45 Rachel

Like Russian, she's supposed to be some Russian chick or whatever.

00:22:48 Rachel

I don't know what it was.

00:22:49 Rachel

I remember seeing previews for it, but I don't know what it's called anyway.

00:22:52 Rachel

She's like in it.

00:22:53 Rachel

And like, you could tell like things are not.

00:22:56 Rachel

Good like things are.

00:22:58 Rachel

Bad things are going to happen soon.

00:23:00 Rachel

You know and.

00:23:01 Rachel

Like she like goes in this guy's hotel room. And it was like.

00:23:06 Rachel

I have like.

00:23:07 Rachel

No control over what this guy's watching in his in his room.

00:23:10 Rachel

Yeah, but like I could tell that like, like something violent and like a.

00:23:15 Rachel

A. What's a? What's a?

00:23:18 Rachel

PG wave.

00:23:20 Rachel

I don't know.

00:23:20 Rachel

I guess like whatever he's going to.

00:23:21 Rachel

You know, take advantage of her in her island in a horrible.

00:23:25 Rachel

And like you knew that was happening and it started to happen.

00:23:27 Rachel

And like I was very tempted to look at it, but I almost like felt scared, like.

00:23:31 Rachel

And normally.

00:23:31 Rachel

That stuff would not have bothered me.

00:23:34 Rachel

But I haven't seen things like on visually on TV like that in a long time now.

00:23:39 Rachel

It's almost like I I remember being like.

00:23:41 Rachel

As a kid.

00:23:43 Rachel

At someone's house.

00:23:44 Rachel

Once and they were watching like some horrible, like gory Halloween movie.

00:23:49 Rachel

And like as a kid, I was pretty sheltered and guarded.

00:23:52 Rachel

I didn't watch that stuff, and I remember, like, the I was a have, like, a sleepover or something.

00:23:57 Rachel

And everyone, it was in the living room watching this.

00:23:59 Rachel

And like, I couldn't go in there because it was like, terrifying.

00:24:02 Rachel

And I remember the feeling.

00:24:03 Rachel

Had was exactly the same.

00:24:06 Rachel

As what I had in this patients room with this scene hat.

00:24:09 Rachel

Yeah, exactly.

00:24:10 Rachel

And I was like, oh, I can't.

00:24:11 Rachel

Don't look at it.

00:24:12 Rachel

You don't want to see it.

00:24:13 Rachel

It's disturbing.

00:24:14 Rachel

It's like the sounds of it disturbed my spirit alone.

00:24:16 Rachel

Like, yeah.

00:24:17 Rachel

And I was.

00:24:17 Rachel

Like, thank God, like something like that.

00:24:20 Rachel

Like 4 months ago.

00:24:21 Rachel

Probably wouldn't have bothered me, and now it's like, oh, that's not.

00:24:24 Rachel

That's not for me to watch.

00:24:25 Rachel

I shouldn't be looking at that.

00:24:26 Rachel

You know, like get in the room.

00:24:27 Rachel

You know, I don't even want to hear it, you know.

00:24:31 Rachel

So anyway, the reason I'm saying that is, like, I don't want to take anything in that isn't going to make.

00:24:38 Rachel

The Holy Spirit, uncomfortable like, are my heart, my mind, the Holy Spirit and habits.

00:24:42 Rachel

Habits is home now, you know, and I don't want to make his home uncomfortable to him.

00:24:46 Rachel

Know what I mean?

00:24:47 Rachel

Yeah, yeah.

00:24:47 Rachel

And so like, that's like part of what's been happening since.

00:24:50 Rachel

We came back is like you.

00:24:52 Rachel

Know God showed me.

00:24:54 Rachel

God showed me the Holy Spirit rearranging the furniture of my heart.

00:24:58 Rachel

Like in the rooms in my heart, like kicking like I had, like skeletons, not skeletons but like uh, like actual like Halloween themed skeleton looking things like I.

00:25:08 Rachel

Saw this vision.

00:25:10

Of these things.

00:25:10 Fa

Wait, was this?

00:25:11 Fa

The first alright, cause what's been happening to you is after you.

00:25:15 Fa

Came back.

00:25:17 Fa

God's been showing you things.

00:25:18 Fa

Yeah, and.

00:25:20 Rachel

Should I like start from the beginning with that and come?

00:25:22 Rachel

Back to this or like.

00:25:23 Fa

Yeah, well, yeah, I'm.

00:25:25 Fa

I'm thinking about that like you.

00:25:28 Fa

Because if, like if, someone's listening and they want to, oh, I want to experience God.

00:25:32 Fa

In that way.

00:25:34 Fa

I'd like.

00:25:34 Rachel

Oh, this is the process veto.

00:25:35 Fa

Yeah, I'd like you to point.

00:25:37 Fa

Out what kind of classes I've got?

00:25:38 Rachel

I see.

00:25:39 Fa

Took you through.

00:25:39 Rachel

OK, alright.

00:25:41 Rachel

So well.

00:25:41 Rachel

Well anyway back.

00:25:42 Rachel

To what we were saying before.

00:25:44 Rachel

What we were just.

00:25:45

Saying one of the things.

00:25:46 Fa

We didn't talk about is like when do you remove all the alcohol?

00:25:50 Fa

Remember when you said Ohh there's so much room in the fridge now and you said there's so much room in our lives now you know, I mean, it was such a.

00:25:53 Rachel

Oh yeah.

00:25:55 Rachel

That's right.

00:25:58 Rachel

The Holy Spirit spoke to me that moment because there was, like, booze and stuff in the fridge, and I took it out and once.

00:26:02 Rachel

I got rid of it and I was like, oh.

00:26:05 Rachel

Look how much room we have now to put good stuff in our fridge, like nutritious stuff.

00:26:09 Rachel

And the Holy Spirit spoke to me.

00:26:10 Rachel

He's like, yeah, exactly.

00:26:12 Rachel

When you remove your idols in your life and you remove the things that don't belong in your life, look.

00:26:18 Rachel

At all the.

00:26:18 Rachel

Room you have now to put put the Holy Spirit in and put the good things from God in.

00:26:22 Fa

And and so and and that's a physical thing, right?

00:26:25 Fa

And social media was a spiritual one because you.

00:26:28 Fa

You might think, oh, I'm just watching this.

00:26:30 Fa

I'm just looking, but that is in your heart that goes.

00:26:34 Fa

To your heart, right?

00:26:35 Fa

And whatever your eyes, see your ears listen to.

00:26:38 Fa

It takes place in your heart.

00:26:40 Fa

It takes up space in there.

00:26:43 Fa

So you need to like the clutter.

00:26:46 Rachel

Yeah, there's things in our hearts and our minds that are taking up space, and God wants to get rid of them and.

00:26:46 Fa

And I mean.

00:26:53 Fa

I had an ex happened like that before. I remember this one time. This was like maybe 2007 or 8.

00:26:53 Rachel

That's what we're in.

00:27:02 Fa

I remember our old passion, her up.

00:27:06 Fa

He challenged us to go a week without TV and like listening to stuff that's not.

00:27:11

You know.

00:27:12 Fa

And a fine or whatever.

00:27:18 Fa

What was it like?

00:27:19 Fa

I remember that that was on the Sunday night, I think and.

00:27:22 Fa

I think that.

00:27:24 Fa

When I went to.

00:27:26 Fa

I was praying and I was like, you know, the spirit we're going to, you know, God, we're.

00:27:31 Fa

Going to fast this and that.

00:27:33 Fa

And in that moment, I this this was me laying my bed.

00:27:36 Fa

And at that moment I saw an Angel behind my bed which you know.

00:27:42 Fa

Couldn't happen because my bed's up against the wall. But you know, then this vision was an Angel behind my bed and he would put his hands inside my.

00:27:52 Fa

Head inside my mind and pull all the stuff I watched and all the stuff I listened to just out of.

00:27:59 Fa

My head like.

00:27:59 Fa

Yeah, like cleaning my mind, you know.

00:28:02 Fa

What I mean?

00:28:04 Fa

And I was like, wow.

00:28:04 Fa

That's amazing.

00:28:06 Fa

The next day I would.

00:28:10 Fa

Put on worship music.

00:28:11 Fa

In the presence of God would just immediately come down and like.

00:28:17 Fa

He was in the car, like, filled the car or whatever.

00:28:20 Fa

Wherever I was, he was so easy to get into.

00:28:24 Fa

The presence of God.

00:28:24 Fa

It was amazing.

00:28:26 Fa

Like I've never.

00:28:28 Fa

Thought about how many things God has to get through in your head and in your heart in order to get to you because you filled your heart with things and you filled your head with things either to mean.

00:28:39 Rachel

Yeah, yeah.

00:28:41 Fa

When you get rid of those things, it's easier.

00:28:44 Fa

To get to.

00:28:45 Rachel

Yeah, that's true.

00:28:49 Rachel

Yeah, so.

00:28:53 Rachel

With that whole process happening so you know, coming home normally what my nights before the conference, what it would have looked like.

00:29:01 Rachel

So like I I work at night and the nights that.

00:29:05 Rachel

I have to go.

00:29:07 Rachel

That I the night I.

00:29:07 Rachel

Have off before I have to go back to.

00:29:10 Rachel

I stay up really late.

00:29:12 Rachel

So that I can.

00:29:13 Rachel

Just sleep in and then I don't have to take.

00:29:14 Rachel

A nap in the afternoon, I'll.

00:29:15 Rachel

Just go to work and so.

00:29:20 Rachel

Normally would like watch TV or be on my phone or whatever, right, but instead it's like I.

00:29:27 Rachel

Couldn't do that anymore.

00:29:28 Rachel

Now I knit to be in God's.

00:29:29 Rachel

Presence again. Yeah. So like.

00:29:31 Rachel

Worshiping or like praying or whatever.

00:29:33 Rachel

And it's funny because now.

00:29:37 Rachel

It's much more.

00:29:37 Rachel

Comfortable and easy to just spend time with God and it's like I want to.

00:29:41 Rachel

That's what I crave.

00:29:42 Rachel

Like all the.

00:29:43 Rachel

Time now?

00:29:43 Rachel

Yeah, but in the beginning it was uncomfortable.

00:29:46 Rachel

It was almost like, OK, this is a sacrifice for me.

00:29:48 Rachel

I would rather do something else I don't feel.

00:29:49 Rachel

Like I'd rather.

00:29:50 Rachel

Do anything else now, but I did then, and so I remember praying and worshiping.

00:29:57 Rachel

UM.

00:29:59 Fa

I don't know.

00:30:00 Rachel

I feel like there's.

00:30:00 Rachel

So many layers to this, maybe I should go back because at the conference there was a sermon that really challenged me about.

00:30:09 Rachel

It was a sermon about Lazarus at the gate.

00:30:12 Rachel

You know that sermon and stuff.

00:30:13 Rachel

I don't know.

00:30:14 Rachel

Her name was.

00:30:14 Rachel

Stephanie something she preached about.

00:30:18 Rachel

You know the story of.

00:30:19 Rachel

Lazarus the crippled, you know, paralyzed man.

00:30:23 Rachel

That was out the gate of the rich man.

00:30:26 Rachel

I don't know where it.

00:30:27 Rachel

Is it's a?

00:30:27 Rachel

Parable and this rich man would pass by Lazareth at the gate of his home.

00:30:34 Rachel

And just like, ignore him and whatever.

00:30:36 Rachel

And like lazareth.

00:30:36 Rachel

Call for him like you know for anything, you know, like help me crumbs.

00:30:40 Rachel

I just want the crumbs that your dogs like.

00:30:42 Rachel

Don't even want, you know, like, just give me something.

00:30:45 Rachel

And the and the and the rich man didn't like, you know, give him anything.

00:30:49 Rachel

He just kind of ignored him and doesn't say that the rich man was like there was anything wrong with him.

00:30:54 Rachel

Like he was like a bad man or cool but and doesn't say that there was anything wrong with him being rich.

00:31:01 Rachel

He just ignored Lazarus, who was at his.

00:31:04 Rachel

Anyway, so lazareth and the rich man both die and the rich man ends up in hell and he's calling out and he sees Abraham and Lazarus, like across this great gulf, you know.

00:31:17 Rachel

And the like.

00:31:20 Rachel

The rich man was like Lazar, like or Abraham.

00:31:23 Rachel

Like I see Lazarus.

00:31:24 Rachel

Send Lazarus and like dip his finger in water and just.

00:31:26 Rachel

Like the tip.

00:31:27 Rachel

Of the tip of his finger and and you know, so that I can get that.

00:31:29 Rachel

Drop from my tongue.

00:31:30 Rachel

You know, whatever, so dry and Abraham was like, I can't.

00:31:34 Rachel

There's a great.

00:31:34 Rachel

Golf here.

00:31:35 Rachel

It was a great divide, you know.

00:31:37 Rachel

And anyway, her whole sermon was about why did the rich man end up in hell?

00:31:41 Rachel

What was?

00:31:41 Rachel

His great sin.

00:31:42 Rachel

And and it's interesting that lazareth wasn't in hell, you know?

00:31:47 Rachel

So, like, what was the difference here?

00:31:48 Rachel

Like, the Bible doesn't say that the rich man was a terrible person and did horrible things.

00:31:52 Rachel

He probably was a fine, upstanding gentleman in society.

00:31:57 Rachel

Like that, once the synagogue did his prayers, did whatever you know?

00:32:01 Rachel

But his great sin was that he was indifferent to Lazarus.

00:32:06 Rachel

And to him, Wadsworth meant nothing.

00:32:08 Rachel

He was indifferent to him.

00:32:09 Rachel

You know, like, how do you how do you pass by a crippled dude?

00:32:13 Rachel

It says in the Bible that hit like dogs, looked at his swords.

00:32:16 Rachel

You know how how do you walk by someone like that?

00:32:20 Rachel

That like, is outside your house, outside your door and not care?

00:32:24 Rachel

Well, the only way you get to that point is.

00:32:26 Rachel

You're so indifferent.

00:32:27 Rachel

You don't care.

00:32:28 Rachel

You know, you're just indifferent and his great sin was that he was indifferent to Lazarus, who was at his gate.

00:32:35 Rachel

And the whole point of her sermon was is like, you know, the things that we think are really great in this world and the things that matter to God the most sometimes are the things that matter to God.

00:32:44 Rachel

The least the things that we think don't matter at all, and people that don't matter in our lives.

00:32:49 Rachel

God's put there so that we can minister to them and we can make a difference in their lives.

00:32:53 Rachel

Like that's what.

00:32:54 Rachel

Well, that's the great thing that God is.

00:32:56 Rachel

Calling from us the things that we think are the.

00:32:58 Rachel

Least and so that.

00:32:59 Rachel

Sermon shook me because we have.

00:33:04 Rachel

This little girl, who lives across the street and up until this point, she's been a kind of a problem for us because she's, you know, a little bit older than our girls and somewhat of a well we consider a bad influence because, you know, like, we don't.

00:33:19 Rachel

Know what goes.

00:33:20

On in her.

00:33:20 Rachel

Home it's not a Christian home that we understand her.

00:33:23 Rachel

And like she'll say, things are inappropriate and UM, you know, like expose our kids who are not exposed to many things.

00:33:31 Rachel

Yeah, expose them to that and.

00:33:33 Rachel

Like like our daughter, Lily was like, oh, you know, this girl told me she's trans. And this is like my, like, Lily's 8.

00:33:42 Rachel

Like how? How does she know what trans is like? Why does she know and this other girl's like 10?

00:33:46 Rachel

Why does she know?

00:33:47 Rachel

You know?

00:33:48 Rachel

But so, like immediate.

00:33:49 Rachel

We're like, oh, my God.

00:33:50 Rachel

Like we were afraid of this girl like we want.

00:33:52 Rachel

To get her away from us.

00:33:53 Rachel

Like immediately, we're like, OK, we need to limit their time together.

00:33:56 Rachel

Like, if anytime at all, it has to be supervised and she can't come over here.

00:34:01 Rachel

You know, basically we're trying to pull away and make sure that she's like.

00:34:05 Rachel

Not threatening, really terrified of this little girl basically because of what she potentially the harm she could do to our children.

00:34:11 Rachel

Right.

00:34:12 Rachel

Meanwhile, this little girl is clearly lonely.

00:34:16 Rachel

And you know the fact that she even wants to hang out with girls that are much younger than she is, you know, says a lot.

00:34:24 Rachel

And she's like, over.

00:34:25 Rachel

Always over here and like always around and like her mom. Like lets her. It's like one of like, I feel like we're in like the 1950s again where it's like.

00:34:34 Rachel

They just send your kids out and like you don't know where.

00:34:36 Rachel

They are until like nightfall.

00:34:37 Rachel

Like that's kind of how that's the.

00:34:40 Rachel

Parenting vibe I get.

00:34:41 Fa

That's how it rolls, and then verse 90.

00:34:42 Rachel

Yeah, kind of.

00:34:43 Rachel

So anyway, up and.

00:34:45 Rachel

When I heard.

00:34:46 Rachel

The sermon I immediately saw this little girl's face like immediately, and I started like it was like that was hard.

00:34:53 Rachel

Dependence right there, because she's literal.

00:34:56 Rachel

Really, the person at her gate, like quite literally, she's across the street from us, like she's the person at our gate, and it's like God was saying, it's like, goodness, I've I've given you this girl to minister to and you're trying to get rid of her, you know, so there's a lot of repentance going on and a lot of, you know, like we're going to change, like, right away, you know.

00:35:16 Fa

I like how you.

00:35:19 Fa

Because because I saw those things too.

00:35:22 Fa

Like people at our gate and you know.

00:35:25 Fa

How we're just neglecting people, yeah.

00:35:28 Fa

But one thing that I have to give to.

00:35:31 Fa

You is that?

00:35:32 Fa

You took action on everything right away.

00:35:35 Fa

You're like, let's do this.

00:35:38 Fa

Let's do that.

00:35:39 Fa

Yeah, and usually when you when people are like, let's do this and that they put a date and it's like, oh, let's do it in a month or so from now or whatever.

00:35:47 Fa

Or you're like, let's do it.

00:35:48 Fa

Now let's do it.

00:35:49 Fa

Now you're going to be like.

00:35:52 Rachel

Wait, I'm like, legitimate.

00:35:53 Rachel

I was, like, legitimately terrified.

00:35:54 Rachel

And I'm like, oh, my God, if I die tomorrow, I'm going to hell because I.

00:35:57 Rachel

Neglected to do the.

00:35:57 Rachel

Things God told me to.

00:35:58 Rachel

Do you know?

00:36:00 Rachel

It's like I don't have time to.

00:36:01 Rachel

Wait, we don't have time to waste, you know.

00:36:03 Fa

My biggest.

00:36:05 Fa

Even before the.

00:36:07 Fa

It's not a fear anymore, but one of my biggest fears was to.

00:36:12 Fa

Get to heaven and then.

00:36:15 Fa

God is like you didn't do anything.

00:36:16 Fa

I should do.

00:36:17 Rachel

Yeah, yeah.

00:36:17 Fa

You didn't mean you didn't.

00:36:20 Fa

Reach the people that I, you know, put you alive for whatever.

00:36:24 Fa

Because for some reason.

00:36:26 Fa

We always think of like, oh we, God calls us and he wants to do ministry whatever.

00:36:32 Fa

But we think that.

00:36:34 Fa

We're going to leave where we are.

00:36:35 Fa

We're going to meet the strangers and we're going to minister to those people, but it's not that way that wants you to Minister to the people you love and the people that are around you.

00:36:39 Rachel

Yeah, yeah.

00:36:45 Rachel

People that you're with, yeah.

00:36:46 Fa

That's why you're here.

00:36:47 Rachel

Right.

00:36:48 Fa

That's why you're where you are.

00:36:50 Rachel

Yeah, to reach those people, I'm almost convinced that, like.

00:36:54 Rachel

You know, we think of ministry as like.

00:36:56 Rachel

Oh, you're in the church and you ministered to a bunch of people at once, like these big.

00:37:00 Rachel

Churches and like.

00:37:01 Rachel

Oh, you see, these evangelists that are?

00:37:04 Rachel

You know, they have like auditorium full of like people.

00:37:07 Rachel

Basically it's like I'm convinced that's not really ministry at all.

00:37:10 Rachel

Like I don't even know what that is.

00:37:11 Fa

We we made, we made that into a.

00:37:13 Rachel

Job. Yeah, it's.

00:37:15 Fa

Like where people go in and they turn on the Christian thing and they'll preach and they'll, you know, you can do great things because God's not gonna waste that opportunity. He'll still want some people.

00:37:24 Rachel

Right, right.

00:37:26 Fa

But as soon as that is done, they clock out and you know there's no love in anybody else.

00:37:34 Fa

There was never any loving to be, you know, right?

00:37:37 Fa

I don't know.

00:37:38 Fa

I don't know, but I don't.

00:37:39 Fa

I I don't blame anybody because.

00:37:43 Fa

They could be blind like we were blind.

00:37:45 Rachel

Yeah, yeah.

00:37:45 Fa

You know what I mean?

00:37:46 Fa

It's not.

00:37:49 Fa

Yeah, you're not malicious and being like, oh, I'm gonna minister to these church.

00:37:53 Fa

And then once it's done, I'm gonna, you know, right.

00:37:56 Fa

Lock myself in my house.

00:37:57 Fa

And whoever is at my gate.

00:38:00 Fa

Forget about them, you know I.

00:38:01 Fa

Mean like right?

00:38:02 Fa

We're blind.

00:38:03 Fa

Yeah, we are blind.

00:38:04 Rachel

Yeah, well, that leaves into the whole revelation that I had that like I think was the this was the wide open door of like, Oh my God.

00:38:05 Fa

Which is insane to say.

00:38:12 Fa

This is when things start to get.

00:38:15 Fa

Yeah, this is when things started to get.

00:38:18 Fa

Crazy for us and like.

00:38:22 Fa

I don't know go.

00:38:23 Rachel

Ahead. Yeah, so.

00:38:25 Rachel

I didn't trying to.

00:38:25 Rachel

It's funny because.

00:38:26 Rachel

It wasn't that.

00:38:27 Rachel

Long ago, but now it's like, oh, yeah, what happened?

00:38:29 Rachel

First I.

00:38:30 Rachel

So it's probably good that we're.

00:38:32 Rachel

You know, removing these these events but anyway so.

00:38:38

Yeah, alright.

00:38:38

I think the only.

00:38:39 Rachel

Thing happened first it was.

00:38:40 Rachel

All like alright.

00:38:42 Rachel

I immediately was like, OK, things have.

00:38:44 Rachel

Got to change.

00:38:45 Rachel

Like, I can't believe that.

00:38:47 Rachel

You know, I've been so blind to this little.

00:38:49 Rachel

Girl that needs God and like I started seeing.

00:38:51 Rachel

You like? Oh my God.

00:38:52 Fa

I mean, we're blind to everything.

00:38:53

Yeah. Yeah, we'll.

00:38:53 Fa

We're blind to like, yeah.

00:38:54 Rachel

We'll get to that, but like, but before that, I believe this happened before.

00:38:58 Rachel

I am.

00:39:00 Rachel

I was like, OK God, like immediately repenting.

00:39:02 Rachel

And there were two people that I saw that.

00:39:04 Rachel

We had been neglectful of.

00:39:06 Rachel

Basically forever.

00:39:07 Rachel

And mind you, like, it's not like we're bad people, we're just normal people.

00:39:10 Rachel

We have jobs.

00:39:11 Rachel

We focus on our careers.

00:39:14 Rachel

You know we.

00:39:14 Rachel

Bought a house.

00:39:15 Rachel

We have kids like our kids were our ministry and that was my viewpoint is like I need to raise.

00:39:19 Rachel

These kids, right?

00:39:20 Rachel

I need to provide.

00:39:20 Rachel

And then.

00:39:22 Rachel

We're happy.

00:39:22 Rachel

God's blessing us.

00:39:23 Rachel

We're just.

00:39:24 Rachel

Like there wasn't anything.

00:39:26 Rachel

Like our marriage?

00:39:26 Rachel

Is good like whatever.

00:39:28 Rachel

Right.

00:39:28 Rachel

So, you know, looking at it from like, you know.

00:39:32 Fa

It's funny you say that cause I did see.

00:39:35 Fa

The past 10 years of our life.

00:39:38 Fa

Of our lives as like.

00:39:40 Fa

This was our, you know.

00:39:44 Fa

Our family ministry time, you know, I mean, like, I'm building my marriage.

00:39:49 Fa

Yeah, I'm raising my kids.

00:39:51 Fa

I'm building my home.

00:39:52 Fa

This is my ministry right now.

00:39:54 Fa

I thought about it like that way.

00:39:55 Rachel

Yeah, we were building that's for.

00:39:57 Rachel

You know, but anyway, so.

00:40:00 Rachel

This little girl, right?

00:40:02 Rachel

I'm praying like OK God.

00:40:04 Rachel

Like what do you give me the blueprints?

00:40:06 Rachel

You know, what do I need?

00:40:07 Rachel

To do to reach this girl.

00:40:08 Rachel

Like what? What happened?

00:40:10 Fa

Talk about how you were praying before and then God gave you the vision.

00:40:13 Rachel

I think this was.

00:40:13 Rachel

After that.

00:40:15 Fa

OK.

00:40:16 Rachel

I'm pretty sure.

00:40:19 Fa

OK, I don't know, but it doesn't.

00:40:20 Rachel

Really matter.

00:40:21 Rachel

Anyway, it doesn't matter.

00:40:21 Fa

It's they're they're the same thing.

00:40:23 Rachel

But anyway I'm like.

00:40:24 Rachel

Asking God for the blueprints of, like, how do I minister to this?

00:40:27 Rachel

Well, and I felt like God was like, oh, give her a Bible, go give her a Bible and then, uh, yeah.

00:40:33 Rachel

So this was before, so like.

00:40:35 Rachel

She had taken care of my my chickens.

00:40:37 Rachel

While we were gone, so I was like.

00:40:39 Rachel

OK. Well, I'll give her.

00:40:40 Rachel

Bible and I'll pay her for that or whatever.

00:40:43 Rachel

And I was like, I knew this even going in the conference, like after I was like, I know that got.

00:40:47 Rachel

Something to give this girl a Bible.

00:40:49 Rachel

Like a little kids Bible.

00:40:50 Rachel

So I went and bought one.

00:40:52 Rachel

Then I was like, you know, I really need to make sure it's OK with her mom.

00:40:55 Rachel

Like, I don't just give.

00:40:56 Rachel

Her a Bible and we have.

00:40:57 Rachel

The mom like you.

00:40:58 Rachel

Know to be respectful.

00:41:00 Rachel

So I'm texting the mom and.

00:41:04 Rachel

Even the way I phrase it because I was like, oh, I don't know how to phrase this to her because it's uncomfortable, you know.

00:41:10 Rachel

But I had bought.

00:41:12 Rachel

The Bible first intentionally so that way I could say in the phrasing of my text.

00:41:15 Rachel

But like, hey, I have this extra Bible.

00:41:17 Rachel

You think I'm like, would want it would be OK if I give it to her.

00:41:20 Rachel

And I and.

00:41:20 Rachel

I said that to her and she.

00:41:22 Rachel

Was like, of course.

00:41:24 Rachel

So that would be amazing.

00:41:25 Rachel

Like, that'd be great, you know, like.

00:41:27 Rachel

Receptive and I kind of like was like, oh, OK, I don't know what.

00:41:30 Rachel

I was envisioning like some kind of.

00:41:31 Rachel

Like no, don't try to indoctrinate my kid.

00:41:33 Rachel

You know, something like that.

00:41:35 Rachel

But she was like.

00:41:36 Rachel

Yeah, absolutely.

00:41:36 Rachel

You know, she was like.

00:41:37 Rachel

I used to.

00:41:38 Rachel

Teach religions or something, I don't know.

00:41:40 Rachel

She said like some kind of she used to do something.

00:41:42 Rachel

So she's very open.

00:41:43 Rachel

It sounded like, yeah, so.

00:41:45 Rachel

That was a Friday, right?

00:41:46 Rachel

I give her the book.

00:41:47 Rachel

The Bible and I gave her.

00:41:48 Rachel

Something else too, but it was like.

00:41:50 Rachel

A little Bible.

00:41:54 Rachel

Comic book type of things.

00:41:55 Rachel

So I was.

00:41:55 Rachel

Like, well, give her.

00:41:56 Rachel

Both anyway, so the next day I wake up and I'm like I'm in my prayer time.

00:42:01 Rachel

And like you know, reading the Bible and I immediately felt God saying like, OK, invite to the church tomorrow.

00:42:08 Rachel

And I was like.

00:42:09 Rachel

Ah, well, God, it's a little.

00:42:10 Rachel

Too soon and I just gave her the Bible.

00:42:12 Rachel

Yesterday, like this is going.

00:42:14 Rachel

To seem like a lot.

00:42:16 Rachel

I was like, let's give.

00:42:16

It a week, let's.

00:42:17 Rachel

Give it some time, you.

00:42:19 Rachel

Know spread it out.

00:42:21 Rachel

And I was like.

00:42:22 Rachel

Now invited to church.

00:42:22 Rachel

So I was like, OK, so like.

00:42:24 Rachel

Again, I'm like.

00:42:24 Rachel

I gotta text him, mom and so.

00:42:26 Rachel

I was like.

00:42:26 Rachel

Hey, you know.

00:42:29 Rachel

The girls would love it.

00:42:30 Rachel

Uh, you know, you know, most of face can come to.

00:42:35 Rachel

Church with us tomorrow.

00:42:36 Rachel

Like would that be OK?

00:42:37 Rachel

With you and again, the mom was like of.

00:42:39 Rachel

Course anytime that'd be great.

00:42:41 Rachel

She'd love it.

00:42:42 Rachel

But I was like.

00:42:43 Rachel

OK.

00:42:44 Rachel

And I was like expecting a fight or something, but it was so easy and so easy.

00:42:48 Rachel

And she came and she's come.

00:42:50 Rachel

Every Sunday with.

00:42:51 Rachel

Us so since then this was how.

00:42:53 Rachel

Long ago was.

00:42:53 Rachel

That now.

00:42:54 Rachel

I don't know.

00:42:55 Rachel

I don't even know, but anyway.

00:42:57 Fa

At six weeks at least.

00:43:01 Rachel

If not more, I think, but anyway.

00:43:05 Fa

You know how the Bible says the harvest is ready, the harvest is ready, right?

00:43:10 Fa

You know, if you're the harvest.

00:43:13 Fa

You don't get to choose when you're harvest.

00:43:16 Fa

You mean you're ready?

00:43:16 Rachel

Yeah, right. You're right, yeah.

00:43:17 Fa

You're ready?

00:43:18 Fa

So what's going to come in?

00:43:20 Fa

Cut you up and put you in store houses or whatever.

00:43:23 Rachel

They deal with the harvest, yeah.

00:43:24 Fa

Well, so it's it's been amazingly easy to invite people to come over to our home and like, so we could.

00:43:32 Rachel

Well, yeah.

00:43:33 Rachel

What we're finding is it's easy when we're, like, if we're obedient and we're listening.

00:43:37 Rachel

That, like God's saying to do this for a reason so it's easier.

00:43:40 Rachel

Like instead of working against the grain like we're.

00:43:43 Rachel

Working with God.

00:43:44 Rachel

So it's just easier, you know?

00:43:46 Rachel

Instead of doing our own strength, basically.

00:43:48 Rachel

But anyway to say all that at some point shortly after what God was speaking to me, then I started.

00:43:59 Rachel

Like bringing different things.

00:44:02 Rachel

But anyway, I'll just jump to the like the major vision that, like jump started everything else cause there was like minor things that.

00:44:07 Fa

But the the ice thing, yeah.

00:44:07 Rachel

Got chosen like, yeah, the.

00:44:09 Rachel

Ice thing so alright, so.

00:44:13 Rachel

I was worshiping and you know like getting.

00:44:16 Rachel

Into worship it was.

00:44:18 Rachel

And I started to see my face and my eyes with, like blind eyes, like my eyeballs were like.

00:44:24 Rachel

All jacked up like.

00:44:26 Fa

Like white.

00:44:26 Rachel

Look, no.

00:44:27 Rachel

They were white. They were.

00:44:28 Rachel

Like cross eyed.

00:44:29 Rachel

And like ohh like I don't know.

00:44:31 Rachel

Some people who are buying, unfortunately.

00:44:33 Rachel

Have eyeballs that like are cross eyed and like funky like their muscles like they don't.

00:44:37 Rachel

I don't know they can.

00:44:38 Rachel

C They can't focus.

00:44:39 Fa

Like when people have seizures, their eyes go up there.

00:44:41 Rachel

No, I mean like sorta, but.

00:44:43 Rachel

Like one eyes.

00:44:43 Rachel

Looking, you know, to the left and the upper left.

00:44:46 Rachel

The other the.

00:44:46 Rachel

The left eyes looking to the right upper.

00:44:49 Fa

Right, yes.

00:44:49

You know, they're all cross.

00:44:50 Rachel

And funky like you just can't.

00:44:51 Rachel

You don't.

00:44:52 Rachel

There's nothing you can't focus, you know, like blind eyes and.

00:44:57 Rachel

And at first I saw that image.

00:44:58 Rachel

And I like what the.

00:44:59 Rachel

Crime like get out of my head.

00:45:01 Rachel

You know that's weird.

00:45:03 Rachel

And then I started singing it again.

00:45:06 Rachel

I let myself see it, for one thing.

00:45:08 Rachel

And I was like, OK.

00:45:10 Rachel

And he saw myself blind eyes and worshipping.

00:45:13 Rachel

And I keep seeing this.

00:45:14 Rachel

And then I kind of like the the picture of it, the vision of it scrolls out a bit.

00:45:18 Rachel

And I see you.

00:45:20 Rachel

You're with blind eyes, and we're standing in a line.

00:45:22 Rachel

You, me, and then Lily and Andy are girls.

00:45:27 Rachel

All of us had blind eyes and were standing in a line.

00:45:30 Rachel

In a row.

00:45:31 Rachel

And there's like nothing around this or whatever.

00:45:33 Rachel

It was just kind.

00:45:34 Rachel

Of like.

00:45:35 Rachel

Nothing around us.

00:45:38 Rachel

Like a blank canvas type of deal, but we're just standing in line and then so.

00:45:40 Fa

Right.

00:45:41 Fa

This is exactly what I pictured.

00:45:45 Rachel

And I was like, what is this guy you know?

00:45:48 Rachel

And then I saw Jesus, he came up to my eyes and he started touching my eyes like my touching my forehead and my eyes and like, touching them.

00:45:56 Rachel

And then like I could see. And then he went to you and touch your eyes. And then he went to lilys eyes and she could see. And then Andy's eyes. And then we could all see.

00:46:03 Rachel

And then he was like, you know, come here, like, gesturing to us.

00:46:06 Rachel

So we're following you as he's walking and as he's walking, he's coming up.

00:46:11 Rachel

Like, I start seeing, like.

00:46:15 Rachel

These wide field like really.

00:46:18 Rachel

Pretty fields like like a harvest field.

00:46:20 Rachel

You know type of thing in a village, like a big people were in this village and like that really didn't have anything to do.

00:46:25 Rachel

With the vision so much as he brought us.

00:46:28 Rachel

Up to this cabinet, like, you know, like a storage cabinet base.

00:46:34 Rachel

Like one of those long ones that.

00:46:36 Rachel

You put in your.

00:46:36 Rachel

Gardening tools.

00:46:37 Rachel

He opened those up and it had a hose in it.

00:46:39 Rachel

Ah, oh, I mean.

00:46:40 Rachel

And it had a shovel and a rake and the.

00:46:42 Rachel

Gardening stuff like stuff.

00:46:44 Rachel

To till soil with you know.

00:46:46 Rachel

And so he took each thing out and he handed each of us a gardening tool.

00:46:51 Rachel

And he said, hey, the harvest is great.

00:46:53 Rachel

Look, look at the harvest.

00:46:55 Rachel

He was like, look.

00:46:56 Rachel

See, see.

00:46:57 Rachel

The harvest now look at.

00:46:58 Rachel

It and then we saw all these these fields and like villages.

00:47:02 Rachel

Like a village, it was like Africa, almost looking like it was just villages, you know?

00:47:06 Rachel

And I was like, oh, OK, so I, like, almost expected us to, like, go into the village or something and go into those fields that I see.

00:47:12 Rachel

We didn't.

00:47:13 Rachel

Instead what we did was we turned around our whole family.

00:47:17 Rachel

We turned around and we looked behind us, and when we looked behind us, we saw like thousands of people standing just the way we were moments ago with blind eyes.

00:47:27 Rachel

Everyone had blind eyes and they were just standing still idly.

00:47:29 Rachel

They just all had blind eyes.

00:47:32 Rachel

And so when we saw this, we were.

00:47:33 Rachel

Like, Oh my God.

00:47:34 Rachel

Like the harvest is great, we we have to have.

00:47:37 Rachel

So all of us, everyone, including even our littlest one who's five, we all start running up to these people with blind eyes and we start touching their eyes so that they could see.

00:47:46 Rachel

And then once they saw we had a tool for them and we shoved.

00:47:48 Rachel

It in their.

00:47:49 Rachel

Hands and we.

00:47:49 Rachel

Said go get the harvest.

00:47:50 Rachel

Go go.

00:47:51 Rachel

And it was like a hurried thing, like we were like it.

00:47:54 Rachel

Was an urgent thing, so we had, like we were running.

00:47:57 Rachel

To everyone we could like trying to touch as many blind eyes as we possibly could and God just saying kept saying he's like, look at the harvest, right.

00:48:06 Rachel

And so.

00:48:06 Rachel

It was like alright.

00:48:08 Rachel

So I started to see.

00:48:11 Rachel

Well, I started to ask God I'm.

00:48:12 Rachel

Like, OK, I actually no, I.

00:48:14 Rachel

Didn't even ask God.

00:48:14 Rachel

I was like, where is that from the Bible?

00:48:16 Rachel

And there's like a couple places it talks about the harvest and I think now I don't remember, but once in.

00:48:24 Rachel

I don't know the parables like I think it's Matthew Matthew 9.

00:48:28 Rachel

I think talks about like hey, the harvest is great, but the workers are few.

00:48:32 Rachel

Pray that pray for the.

00:48:34 Rachel

Workers pray that the same workers and I.

00:48:35 Rachel

Was like, OK, you know, we've all heard.

00:48:37 Fa

It's funny because most people pray for the harvest.

00:48:39 Rachel

Right, yeah.

00:48:40 Rachel

Pray for the workers.

00:48:41 Rachel

Pray that.

00:48:41 Rachel

They send workers is what that?

00:48:42 Rachel

Verse was about but that one didn't.

00:48:44 Rachel

Really resonate with me as much.

00:48:45 Rachel

I'm like, I know they talk about.

00:48:46 Rachel

Harvest so I.

00:48:46 Rachel

Like in my little like behind the Bible where.

00:48:48 Rachel

All like the keywords are and you're like where other time?

00:48:51 Rachel

What other times are they mentioned?

00:48:53 Rachel

So then in John four it mentions harvest and actually that just so happens to be.

00:48:57 Rachel

Like one of my favorite.

00:48:59 Rachel

Stories of the Bible.

00:49:00 Rachel

It's not even a parable.

00:49:01 Rachel

It's like a thing that happened.

00:49:03 Rachel

And John, four is the story of the Samaritan woman at the well.

00:49:08 Rachel

I love that story and.

00:49:12 Rachel

I I love that story because Jesus in that story, he goes out of his way to go through Samaria.

00:49:17 Rachel

He didn't even have to cross there to get to where he was going.

00:49:20 Rachel

He actually went the long way around.

00:49:22 Rachel

So and like the the Jews, like hated this meridians because like they just they basically regarded them.

00:49:27 Rachel

As like Dirty River rides, basically, or whatever, you know, I mean, like they were nothing to them garbage people, they just they disagreed with, you know, where was the holy place to worship with?

00:49:37 Rachel

Where would where you know where is the really.

00:49:39 Fa

Right, right, right.

00:49:40 Rachel

The was the one where amusing the temple.

00:49:42 Rachel

Yeah, they disagreed about.

00:49:45 Rachel

You know where the temple should be and where the place of worship.

00:49:47 Rachel

Have been like that was their argument or whatever, something like that.

00:49:49 Fa

Well, yeah, because if you think.

00:49:50 Fa

About it.

00:49:53 Fa

Moses was told by God to build the temple wherever.

00:49:58 Fa

And then.

00:49:59 Fa

That's where God's presence will come. So did your people like you gotta worship God at the temple. Yeah, because that's where his presence is. Or whatever.

00:50:09 Rachel

Well, I think it was.

00:50:10 Rachel

Like geographically, they were like it should have been.

00:50:12 Rachel

Over here on the side of the road.

00:50:13 Fa

So yeah.

00:50:14 Fa

But The thing is like we, we read the stories today and we think, why can't you just worship God anywhere but back then they were bound by the law.

00:50:23 Fa

It's like, oh, no, this is where you worship.

00:50:25 Fa

Otherwise your.

00:50:27 Fa

Right.

00:50:27 Fa

Wasting your time or whatever, yeah.

00:50:30 Rachel

And the Samaritans actually like had.

00:50:34 Rachel

They believe the same thing that Jewish.

00:50:35 Rachel

People did except.

00:50:36 Rachel

For that and they, they also interjected their own own like beliefs here and.

00:50:40 Fa

Yeah, well, so did the Jews.

00:50:40 Rachel

There and and stuff.

00:50:42 Rachel

No, no.

00:50:43 Rachel

I mean, it's like the Torah, like.

00:50:45 Rachel

Yeah, they believe the.

00:50:46 Rachel

Same thing like the Pentateuch.

00:50:47 Rachel

They had that, like, you know what I mean.

00:50:48 Rachel

But they also just added their own stuff.

00:50:50 Rachel

To it as well.

00:50:50 Rachel

So like, that's why I was a little.

00:50:51 Rachel

Different plus the the place of worship, but whatever.

00:50:53 Rachel

Anyway, Jews and the Samaritans.

00:50:55 Rachel

Knocking along didn't like each other.

00:50:56 Rachel

Yeah, Jews would have like.

00:50:58 Rachel

You know, kept a wide girth, but here's Jesus going straight through Samaritan for no reason.

00:51:03 Rachel

Doesn't have to.

00:51:04 Rachel

Like, that's a long way, yeah.

00:51:06 Rachel

He goes there, it's at noon and the Samaritan woman is there at the well at noon, which is also something just weird.

00:51:13 Rachel

Like, these things didn't happen then because it was hot at freaking noon.

00:51:16 Rachel

Like they're not going.

00:51:17 Rachel

To be over there in the well.

00:51:18 Rachel

You know, in the blazing sun, that's when they took their naps.

00:51:21 Rachel

And stuff like, yeah, that's too hot to be doing.

00:51:23 Rachel

And stuff.

00:51:24 Rachel

But this, like Samaritan woman, she did this purposely because she was ostracized by the.

00:51:28 Rachel

Samaritans like they didn't like her.

00:51:30 Rachel

And like at the well is where all like the town gossip went down, all the women would gather and that's where they had their social time.

00:51:37 Rachel

Like the women.

00:51:38 Rachel

It's also apparently a place where the men and women would flirt like.

00:51:43 Rachel

So you pick up your.

00:51:44 Rachel

Your girl like back then, like Jacob and.

00:51:48 Rachel

Rebecca, right.

00:51:49 Rachel

The well, like, whatever.

00:51:50 Rachel

Right.

00:51:50 Rachel

So Needless to say, she's at the well.

00:51:53 Rachel

Of Jacob and.

00:51:55 Rachel

Trying to avoid people like she's trying well.

00:51:56 Fa

Is that the same?

00:51:59 Rachel

Jacob's at Jacob's well.

00:52:02 Fa

Is that the same where we're at Jacob's?

00:52:05 Fa

What's the word I'm looking for?

00:52:07 Rachel

Picked up.

00:52:08 Fa

His employees.

00:52:09 Fa

Ohh picked up.

00:52:11 Fa

The the woman for picked up Rebecca.

00:52:11 Rachel

Yeah, I don't know, probably.

00:52:14 Fa

Don't know.

00:52:15 Fa

I don't know.

00:52:15 Rachel

Much about it.

00:52:16 Rachel

Right. Whatever. So, you know, she's there on purpose at noon to avoid people she knows. No one's going to be around at this time of day.

00:52:24 Rachel

But except for Jesus, Jesus is there.

00:52:25 Rachel

Why is he there?

00:52:26 Rachel

Like, that's not an accident either, right?

00:52:28 Rachel

Like so Jesus wouldn't have been there.

00:52:30 Rachel

No one should have been there.

00:52:31 Rachel

UM, so she's gathering up water and he goes over to her and starts talking to her. And which was weird too, because she just really as a rabbi, should have been talking in that time to anybody.

00:52:44 Rachel

Uh woman?

00:52:45 Rachel

I mean, any female that wasn't like you got to look good like holy can be looking at women and talking to them.

00:52:52 Rachel

You might, people might think you're have bad intentions.

00:52:55 Rachel

As a rabbi.

00:52:55 Fa

I mean, women weren't even allowed to follow you.

00:52:57 Fa

If you're a rabbi, like, you're not even allowed.

00:52:59 Fa

To have women in.

00:53:01 Rachel

Like, yeah, right.

00:53:03 Rachel

Like it just wasn't something you did socially.

00:53:04 Rachel

And especially as a rabbi, like, even even like men, even like, rabbis, wives, they didn't even talk to their wives in public.

00:53:11 Rachel

Like that's how ******** they were.

00:53:12 Rachel

So the fact that Jesus was doing that as a rabbi, the.

00:53:15 Rachel

Disciples were like 1 going on, you know.

00:53:18 Rachel

So anyway, he's talking to her.

00:53:21 Rachel

And he's like ohh.

00:53:22 Rachel

And I should note too.

00:53:24 Rachel

That, you know, people think that.

00:53:26 Rachel

She was a prostitute.

00:53:27 Rachel

And that's not.

00:53:29 Rachel

That may not be the actual case.

00:53:31 Rachel

Like people always, I don't like it because, like, I want to stick up for this married woman.

00:53:34 Rachel

She's like my.

00:53:35 Rachel

Gal, you know.

00:53:36 Rachel

Like, no, I don't think she she scholars don't agree that they she's a prostitute just because.

00:53:41 Rachel

She's just like, oh.

00:53:43 Rachel

You know, are you?

00:53:45 Rachel

Do you?

00:53:45 Rachel

Are you married or whatever?

00:53:46 Rachel

He says to her like you have your husband.

00:53:47 Rachel

Or with your husband or whatever.

00:53:50 Rachel

And she's like, no, like, she's not living with her husband.

00:53:53 Rachel

And he was talking about how she, like five other husbands.

00:53:56 Rachel

Well, it's likely that she was not a prostitute who just had five men.

00:53:59 Rachel

That she.

00:53:59 Rachel

Was with it, she.

00:54:00 Rachel

Really did have 5 husbands.

00:54:02 Fa

Yeah, she's been divorced.

00:54:04 Fa

And the guy she's with now, she's cheating on with somebody.

00:54:08 Rachel

Else I don't know.

00:54:10 Fa

That's from the chosen.

00:54:12 Rachel

Yeah, I don't know.

00:54:12 Rachel

That's true, but whatever.

00:54:15 Fa

Yeah, because people go straight to.

00:54:16 Fa

She was like, no, it could have been that she just has bad relationships.

00:54:18

She's uh.

00:54:21 Rachel

And no, I think what it was I was listening to some scholar talk about it once is like likely what was the problem is, is.

00:54:27 Rachel

That she was probably Baron.

00:54:29 Rachel

And she couldn't have children.

00:54:31 Rachel

And the Samaritans, like the Jewish people, could divorce based off of certain things.

00:54:36 Rachel

And if you know one was that evil woman can't give you babies.

00:54:40 Rachel

Like, get rid of her.

00:54:41 Rachel

And that's what happened.

00:54:42 Rachel

To her, she probably.

00:54:42 Rachel

Was very beautiful and very people wanted men wanted her, you know, and she probably thought Jesus was flirting with her.

00:54:49 Rachel

Because like I said, you know that's what they did at the well.

00:54:53 Rachel

Like man came up to her.

00:54:54 Rachel

And we're like, oh, so when he asked, where's her husband?

00:54:57 Rachel

You know what?

00:54:57 Rachel

I mean, she's probably like, oh, I don't have.

00:54:59 Rachel

One you know, are you?

00:55:01 Rachel

King and but he shut that down right away, but.

00:55:06 Rachel

So it's likely that she was divorced because she was Baron.

00:55:09 Rachel

And then Samaritans knew there was something wrong with her, like everyone kept divorcing her, so they ostracized her, you know, and they wouldn't anything to do with that, you know.

00:55:19 Rachel

Baron, which woman?

00:55:20 Rachel

Who knows.

00:55:21 Rachel

But anyway, so to say all that Jesus talking to her, he witnesses to her, he he calls it out and and she gets like radically like I you're the Messiah.

00:55:31 Rachel

I am like your.

00:55:34 Rachel

Follow her now you know.

00:55:36 Rachel

And she gets all crazy excited like she's been set free.

00:55:39 Rachel

She runs back to the village and she freaking.

00:55:43 Rachel

Shares the news.

00:55:44 Rachel

Of God with the village and.

00:55:45 Rachel

The whole village is saved because of this woman.

00:55:47 Rachel

This woman's.

00:55:47 Rachel

Testimony and the disciples.

00:55:49 Rachel

Are like Messiah, like, what's going on guy like.

00:55:54 Rachel

This is weird.

00:55:54 Rachel

What's happening, you know.

00:55:55 Rachel

And he was like he literally.

00:55:57 Rachel

Says to them, look at the harvest.

00:56:00 Rachel

Look at the harvest.

00:56:01 Rachel

He's like the.

00:56:03 Rachel

You're gonna reap this harvest that you didn't even sew into.

00:56:06 Rachel

He's like I sewed into it and she sewed into it.

00:56:09 Rachel

You didn't, but you're gonna reap it.

00:56:10 Rachel

In eternity, you know.

00:56:11 Rachel

What I mean and so like the fact that it says even.

00:56:14 Rachel

There is like just.

00:56:15 Rachel

Look, look and see the harvest so you can reap it, you know.

00:56:20 Rachel

So that resonated with me.

00:56:22 Rachel

I was telling us, like, open your eyes and look at the harvest.

00:56:26 Rachel

You know, there is a lot around us, but we're all blind.

00:56:30 Rachel

We can't see it.

00:56:31 Rachel

We can't read what we don't see.

00:56:33 Rachel

And so from.

00:56:34 Fa

That typos are blind.

00:56:35

OK.

00:56:35 Rachel

To it.

00:56:36 Rachel

Yeah, exactly.

00:56:38 Rachel

And it's like, you know, you could say that the woman at the well would be like a person at the gate.

00:56:43 Rachel

It's like they would have wanted nothing to do with her, but look like if you.

00:56:47 Rachel

See her and you actually see.

00:56:49 Rachel

Then people, then the harvest is actually being reaped like then people are getting saved.

00:56:54 Rachel

Then we're doing what we're called to do on this earth.

00:56:56 Rachel

Yeah, but we have to.

00:56:57 Rachel

Not be blind anymore and so that.

00:57:00 Rachel

Was the point where we were like, where our lives changed?

00:57:02 Rachel

Like we are not blind, we're not blind anymore.

00:57:05 Rachel

You know, we were blind.

00:57:08 Rachel

We're not anymore and I'm.

00:57:09 Rachel

Gonna tell you something. We.

00:57:10 Rachel

See a lot of stuff.

00:57:13 Fa

That's for the next episode.

00:57:14 Rachel

That's for the next one.

00:57:16 Rachel

That's too much.

00:57:19 Fa

Yeah. We want to tell.

00:57:20 Fa

What's been happening, even if it's just for our own purposes, because.

00:57:26 Fa

It's just so.

00:57:27 Fa

Much on a daily basis that's happening to us.

00:57:29 Fa

That's crazy.

00:57:31 Fa

Too good to forget because I've had stuff happened to me before.

00:57:35 Fa

But you don't.

00:57:36 Fa

Write it down and you forget.

00:57:37 Fa

You know what I mean.

00:57:38 Fa

Like you don't.

00:57:40 Fa

Keep track of it, but we'll see.

00:57:41

How this goes, yea