Episode 1 - How it all began
Transcript
00:00:05 Rachel
Welcome to the guardrail podcast where I don't know anything about anything, but God is definitely doing something and we're here to talk.
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About it, I'm.
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Rachel and I'm fa.
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Alright, let's start from the beginning.
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OK.
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What's been happening to us?
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Alright, well.
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Let's just say, well first.
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Off, I mean last year.
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We went to the billing company. Well, you didn't go? I went. I went to the billing company by myself. And this was in 21.
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2021.
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Right.
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Yeah, yeah.
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It's not this year.
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OK, so last.
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Year last year I went there and the place is crazy.
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I mean, clearly God is doing something, you know, and.
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Let's just say before I went there, I had absolutely no expectation and I didn't like expect.
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Anything good from and I?
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Was like, well, I'm going.
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Because I'm hungry enough to, like, give it a try, but just complacent enough and then different to, like, not expect anything from it at all.
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And that whole conference, like, completely blew up my spirituality.
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Yeah, just, every, every sermon.
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Everything they said.
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Just completely like it had something in it that challenged me and woke me up out of my spiritual.
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Summer like.
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Prior to that, I don't know.
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I don't know when.
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I went to sleep.
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Spiritually, but at some point I went to sleep spiritually, and it wasn't until that conference that God got my attention and I woke up and and it really was a matter of indifference that I've had so anyway.
00:01:49 Fa
Right, yeah.
00:01:55 Rachel
That whole year after that conference, I have, I was different like I had not been.
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The same but.
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Not to the caliber that I would.
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Say I am now.
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So whole year, like even just reading my Bible every day like that wasn't something I did prior, like very sporadically.
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Read my Bible and prayed daily before that conference, and then since that conference I have read my Bible and.
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Prayed every single.
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Day since I woke up.
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Which is like whatever.
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But it's more or less just.
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The fact that I.
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Wasn't in a slumber, spiritually.
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So anyway, Fast forward to this year's conference. I was like everyone, I need to know everyone I know needs to go to this conference.
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I told you you're going without a question. Like my whole family's going. Our kids need to go. You need to go. I invited my our friends.
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And you know.
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And I should like mention their names.
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I don't know.
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I don't.
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Well, whatever. Two friends came. Yeah, 22 friends came. The person that I went with last year brought two other of his family members.
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Maybe we'll we'll name names.
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Like we, we got a hold of something there and so we brought everybody and you know once again like.
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This conference God's doing something and UM like just again.
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Like I don't even.
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Know I don't know what.
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I think that not only.
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The conference did something, I think, at least for us, for both of us.
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At the same time you're down there, God was talking to me here, and I wasn't.
00:03:36 Rachel
The first conference you mean?
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Right.
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Yeah, I wasn't looking for it.
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I wasn't doing anything.
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It's something that.
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Was totally from God.
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He like initiated talking to me.
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Because you came.
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Back different and I felt like I was different too.
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Yeah, I was like, OK.
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Here comes like a new season in our lives.
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That's what I felt like happened and that weakened for.
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You and me.
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Maybe I don't know.
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Maybe your brain for me down there.
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I don't know.
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Yeah, I probably was I.
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Don't even remember now.
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Honestly, so many things happened like, you know, people praying over me in so many words spoken over me.
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And just like just encounter after encounter with God.
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So like so many that that whole weekend was packed of like revelation.
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Encounter and whatever.
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UM that I can't. I don't even remember everything that happened, just I just know that I came home different and I came home and you were different and.
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Our house was different.
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Yeah, and we had not been the same.
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And I haven't been the same since.
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But you know leading up.
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To this year's conference, like there was some aspects of my spiritual life that.
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Maybe were a little.
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Like I don't know.
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Let's let's just say like, alright like.
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I think if that time is.
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Like from a year ago to now, there was a spiritual cleanse going on for us.
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And a physical cleanse till there are things that we got.
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Rid of.
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In our lives.
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Well from like.
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Media social media.
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That's when you stop social media completely.
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Like maybe before that look.
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No before that, but.
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And I stopped social me a long time ago that had nothing to do with spirituality.
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Just being, like, annoyed with people.
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Yeah, I started realizing that.
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We were well that I that I was just.
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Constantly on the phone and watching stuff. And I was like, oh, 50% of my time just goes.
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And that wasn't good.
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You know one thing.
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Before we went to the conference is like we had that BBQ, you know?
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And I I have like, I mean, whatever drinking and being like drinking alcohol is, you know, every individualized persons like journey or whatever that doesn't make sense.
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But everybody has their own.
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You know, convictions about it and that's how it's supposed to be.
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Like, Bible says, like, you know, whatever.
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That's so true, yeah.
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Like, that's your own conviction.
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You work it out with.
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God and so it.
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Had not been.
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My conviction per se that it was.
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Wrong to drink alcohol.
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And like, maybe there was definitely times where I drink too much alcohol and it was like not appropriate.
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Not like I was inappropriate or you would.
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Even be able to tell like it was like.
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A little tipsy, but it's.
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Like I knew that wasn't right, you know.
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But it was like.
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It's kind of like teetering the line.
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More or less.
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With drinking and then like, not even just that.
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Like you know, we have.
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Like a big barbecue and like, 30 people came to our.
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House and like there was alcohol like.
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Do I want my kids around that?
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Like I don't want them seeing Mom and dad like drink like that and like their friends drink?
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And like that's.
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Not like a good.
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It just didn't feel right to.
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Me and you know.
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I don't know.
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I remember like going.
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To church and being like?
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Nah, I kind of.
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Weird that.
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I've been night before is like no one got drunk and no one was.
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Inappropriate, but it just.
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Was like.
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Why did I even?
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Do that like.
00:07:06 Fa
Yeah, cause I've been to.
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Well, growing up, my parents, would that part my my father would have parties and like people are drinking.
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And that was like drinking, drinking and be like.
00:07:18 Rachel
Yeah, yeah.
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And it's not like we were like having a beer or truly or whatever.
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Like we were, it was like.
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They were drunk.
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Yeah, they were drunk.
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We weren't like that.
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When the whole crowd was like, you know.
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It wasn't like that here.
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We'll just have, uh, let's have a drink here and be like.
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Yeah. Ohh.
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Have a truly yeah.
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It's gonna have that, but we have.
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A drink like.
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But like why?
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Like what was the?
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It wasn't necessary, but we did it right.
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But I don't know.
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And it's like I.
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Said the point I'm making is like that night, like even in the middle of that, I was.
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Like this is there's a point where I like brought out some whiskey and I was like, let's do.
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Some shots you know, with my friends.
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And I'm kind.
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That was last year.
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Of no.
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This was this year.
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OK, this year, like in the summer when?
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We had no.
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OK, great. That makes sense.
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Cardiac and I was like, even while I was doing this, I was like getting a check in my spirit.
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I'm like, why am I doing this?
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You know like.
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I don't.
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I'm not gonna get drunk because that's not.
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I know I'm not supposed to, and it's we're gonna be drunk.
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So and like you.
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Know this just looks bad.
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This just looks like.
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A kind of like a bad witness.
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In a way.
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You know, I don't know.
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I just didn't feel good about it.
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But I did it.
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And then, like, I remember going to church the next to me and like, well, what's the?
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Point of that is that really what I want my kids.
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To remember of Mom and Dad and their friends like is that.
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What I want to have my house and like and.
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Like, not even just that.
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Like you know what happens?
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When our kids are teenagers and like there's alcohol in the house, like I'm gonna have to be like locking up our liquor because you know how kids are, you know, like, I don't even want that, you know, but it's like you still do.
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Yeah, 100%.
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It and I still.
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Had we still had true lies, we still had, like, whatever, even though I kind of started to feel like maybe God was trying to tell me something here with this, like maybe it's not.
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The best thing for me?
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But I still went along.
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With it and whatever.
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So we.
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Went to this conference and like immediately at the.
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Conference was like I've got.
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I can't be doing this anymore.
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I can't have like 1 foot in the door.
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And one foot like you.
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Know like 1 foot in the world.
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And one foot, like when holiness or sanctification or whatever like this is.
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It just wasn't right for me.
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I don't know if that makes sense.
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What I'm trying to say, but.
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It makes sense.
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Anyway, so at this conference.
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I don't know.
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There's just so much you can't really break it all down.
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It's like when you.
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When you step into God's presence, you're not.
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The same and.
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There is so much of God's presence.
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That like you're.
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Not it's impossible to not be changed by his presence, and that's exactly what happened, at least to me, it's.
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Like so many things.
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I was thinking about that today too, when I was driving to get tacos.
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I was like what was about the belonging company that changed it so much because we were down there in.
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UM, I've been to other conferences where people Minister to you a lot. It wasn't like that there you were. Just in.
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And the amazing presence of God, and you could tell that the people that were leading.
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Were like putting down some crazy sacrifice.
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You know what I mean?
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Whether they pray a lot, they fast a.
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Lot or you know they.
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Just set their lives aside for God.
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And I know that God honors honors that.
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So his presence was there.
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Like, I haven't felt before or since, because, you know.
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It's just.
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I'm not at that level, you know, I mean, like when I worship like God's doesn't show up like that.
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But, you know, I like.
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I still feel his presence strongly after that.
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And I know that just by being there.
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We were convicted of a lot of things.
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Then then you taste it right and you taste it.
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And for me, it was like, oh, wow, I felt this before.
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And I mean like.
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I was, I felt like.
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This before but my problem was.
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I didn't know that that had stopped.
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You hear me like.
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But if of course, if I had thought about it, I didn't feel the same as I did, like maybe 1215 years ago, you know what I mean?
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But I didn't and it took me being back in a place like that to realize.
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That like like I'm so far off.
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I might as well not be Christian you.
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Know I.
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Mean like because the way I measure that is like you're either in God's presence and.
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You give 100% or you don't because 99% is the same as like zero. Yeah, to me. You know me. Like you need to just give everything.
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You need to just chase his presence and stuff.
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So that's crazy.
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All right, after the conference, what happened?
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When we came home.
00:12:10 Rachel
I don't know.
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So it's like you're living off like.
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A like a holy.
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Spirit high or something.
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At least I was like for a good.
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Week or so.
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That was a good two weeks for me.
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Yeah, it's yeah, right? Yeah.
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Like I'm just so wrapped.
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Or you're just like, you're really listening to all.
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The sermons and whatever.
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You know, trying to get as much of that conference as.
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You can, but I don't even know.
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And this is the thing like we came home.
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And we like.
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Took out that night when we got back to the house, we like gathered up all.
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Of our booze.
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And all the trollies I did it, whatever.
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You did that.
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But I was like I this.
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Is I'm making a point.
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Here, like God's.
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Telling me it's time to clean it up.
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You know, and like this is the thing like what?
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I went away from.
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That conference was like I want my home to be a home not only to us.
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But the Holy Spirit.
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Yeah, I want our home to be a home for God's presence. And so like, whatever doesn't line up with God's word and God's spirit. I'm getting rid of in this house, like, right now. So like.
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Gathered up all the booze and like I had a lot.
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And it's weird because, like, we're not like that.
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Much, I mean, not ********.
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Well, the thing about alcohol is like we bought.
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We weren't ******** drinkers.
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The House not too long ago.
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And then?
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Friend of mine brought booze like how?
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Here's a bottle of whiskey in this.
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And the bottles are huge, so we're not going to drink all of it.
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Right.
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But then you're tired of whiskey, cause you know there's, like, too much of.
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It and you buy something different and then all of a sudden there's a.
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Yeah, you're going to try, like, different kinds?
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And then all of a sudden there's a whole bottle there.
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And then another one.
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Another one and.
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Don't drink like you do.
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OK.
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I don't drink anymore at all.
00:13:48 Fa
At all at all.
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But thank you.
00:13:50 Fa
But you know, you would like certain flavors or certain alcohol.
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For me, it was like, ohh.
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Maybe just give me a vodka or the Brazilian.
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Rum or whatever.
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And like, not even beer.
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I like beer, but it's like I'll I'll like a truly, but you know, it can't be too flavored or because it's like, I don't know, I have some sort of aversion to trying different things.
00:14:11 Rachel
You have an aversion to things that taste good.
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It's just like the coffee cause it's funny because when we're at the conference, there's people making coffee and.
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Because I'm just used to like Dunkin Iced coffee, it was like, oh, we're going to order some coffee here, but I never got to order.
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But I always know that you order like the best.
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Whatever we're at like at a new place or you always order the better dish or the better drink or whatever.
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So there's just, like, just get me where you're getting.
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And I remember you got the toasted coconut right.
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So I drank that and I'm like toasted coconut.
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It's freaking amazing.
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Yeah. So the.
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Next day, you're like, I want to try something different and I'm like, no, I want the toasted coconut.
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And that's how I am like, yeah, yeah.
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I'm introduced to something new, and I like it and.
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Then I don't.
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I just want that all the time.
00:15:03 Rachel
Yeah, I know.
00:15:04 Fa
So you like you like changing your?
00:15:04 Rachel
I like change I like.
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Flavor and for mix.
00:15:10 Rachel
Yeah, I want to taste all the flavors.
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I just want I don't know the.
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White, one that burns your mouth.
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Boring. Yeah, no.
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Maybe the Mint one, but I don't know.
00:15:21 Rachel
Yeah, well.
00:15:22 Fa
So we came home and we got.
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Rid of all of that.
00:15:24 Fa
Yeah, like I.
00:15:24 Rachel
Dumped it all out and like I felt God's.
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Presence. I was doing that.
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Yeah, it like, OK, this is right.
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We're doing the right thing here.
00:15:32 Fa
Yeah, I knew you were doing something good.
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Yeah, I was like, this is good.
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And not just that, like, so I got rid of UM, you were mentioning about like, wasting your time on social media and whatever.
00:15:45 Rachel
But like I had the YouTube, I didn't have Tik.
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T.O.K, but you know it's like the same.
00:15:50 Fa
You might as well right?
00:15:50 Rachel
It's like, yeah, the YouTube shorts or whatever, I would just scroll.
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Through those things.
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Like on a daily, every moment I could basis.
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Like you know, just the time waster and The thing is with that is like you know.
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OK. Like it's not wrong.
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To look at that crap.
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But like I you don't have control over what you're seeing.
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It's not.
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So like you scroll on something inappropriate comes up or something that you should know about or something that, like, you know, disturbs your spirit or something, you know, control of what shows up.
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And so, and it doesn't matter because it wasn't like I wanted to devote all of my time.
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And energy to.
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Getting to know God like I just like.
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This is the thing you come.
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Out of this conference, and then for me.
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I'm afraid that I'm just going to fall back into complacency again, or let me fall back into my slumber again.
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I just like actively, like constantly obeying God almost, but like, please don't let me go back.
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Please don't let me go back to how I was in August, you know, before this, the conference was in September.
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You know what I mean?
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So it's like, whatever I can do.
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That gets rid of anything that might jeopardize like.
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My spiritual like fire or fervor, you know, like, I want to get rid of it.
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Anything that's going to take my my time or my distractions or be a distraction.
00:17:02 Rachel
I mean, I want to get rid of it because I could just. I'm in this like I'm I'm 100% in this now, you know and.
00:17:08 Rachel
So I think that's.
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The key that kind of starts.
00:17:13 Rachel
All of what's happening with us now like that was the key anyway.
00:17:17 Fa
I definitely feel like God did set this up for us, and now we're walking a path of like.
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Cleansing everything spiritually, physically you know.
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The thing about social media for me, was even before the conference.
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I was praying because I, you know, you always wanted more of God.
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It's not like we went to this conference and we discovered how awesome God is over.
00:17:47 Rachel
Right, yeah.
00:17:48 Fa
I mean, we both grew up.
00:17:49 Rachel
In Christian homes and having counted God on many, many times.
00:17:51 Fa
Yeah, I didn't.
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I I didn't, really.
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God's presence was until I moved to the US when I was like, 17, and I went to like a.
00:18:00 Fa
Really amazing church.
00:18:02 Fa
Uh, but the social media thing for me was I was spraying and.
00:18:09 Fa
I I just remember the Holy Spirit and saying you got to.
00:18:12 Fa
Stop scrolling.
00:18:13 Fa
Like you've got to stop scrolling cause you sit on your phone and you scroll, scroll, scroll, scroll and one of the things too that.
00:18:23 Fa
I wouldn't say lead me to scrolling is like the girls kind of take over the television.
00:18:30 Fa
So what else do you have in your hand like you have your phone, so you go.
00:18:33 Fa
On your phone a lot, you know, because.
00:18:34
Right.
00:18:35 Fa
And then after they go to bed, maybe watch a show or whatever, but I don't know. I think the way social media's design is.
00:18:44 Fa
It's designed to mess with your emotions, whether it's to make you laugh, you know, because the like the like.
00:18:51 Fa
The shorts you're saying.
00:18:53 Fa
They're really quick and they like usually make you laugh.
00:18:57 Fa
Or you are on Facebook and you know just news pop up all the time, like political stuff that just makes you angry.
00:19:05 Fa
So it's always messing with your emotions.
00:19:09 Fa
And I think that is like a huge.
00:19:12 Fa
That's a big deal.
00:19:13 Fa
You know what I mean?
00:19:14 Fa
Like it.
00:19:15 Fa
It could completely ruin your day.
00:19:17 Fa
You could blink.
00:19:19 Fa
Distract you from other things.
00:19:20 Fa
You know what I mean?
00:19:22 Fa
Where to the point.
00:19:23 Fa
You completely focus on, like, bad things all the time, and then you start to become depressed.
00:19:27 Fa
Or whatever, right?
00:19:29 Fa
Not that that was my case, but I think.
00:19:31 Fa
That's how it.
00:19:31 Fa
Works for some people.
00:19:33 Fa
I just didn't like.
00:19:36 Fa
How I felt when I was like on social.
00:19:38 Fa
Media all the time.
00:19:40 Fa
I I still am like, I'm not like I didn't get rid of it.
00:19:43 Fa
Like I watch you.
00:19:45 Fa
Sometimes at work, you know, there's stuff that.
00:19:48 Fa
I follow a lot of stuff is.
00:19:50 Fa
Like sports formal one.
00:19:52 Fa
Whatever you know.
00:19:55 Fa
I definitely just don't go on Instagram and scroll constantly like I.
00:20:01 Fa
Used to before.
00:20:02 Fa
I'm on there to see what my friends are posting, what my family is posting.
00:20:07 Fa
But that's it for me.
00:20:10 Rachel
UM.
00:20:12 Rachel
Yeah, I don't know.
00:20:13 Rachel
I mean it's it's whatever.
00:20:15 Rachel
As far as the social media goes for us, it was out of control.
00:20:18 Rachel
Like it's too.
00:20:20 Fa
But that's the thing though.
00:20:21 Fa
I don't even think.
00:20:22 Fa
That we were one of those people that are.
00:20:24 Fa
Out of control you need to be like.
00:20:26 Fa
Because I see people that are.
00:20:29 Fa
On there and they can't put it down like at church.
00:20:32 Fa
They can't put it.
00:20:32 Fa
Down at school.
00:20:35 Fa
You know, they're at the table.
00:20:36 Fa
They're scrolling like they're just.
00:20:39 Fa
On it all the time and they're posting and they want, you know, to be liked or whatever they want.
00:20:45 Fa
The fuels and stuff it.
00:20:46 Fa
It isn't like that for us, but.
00:20:48 Fa
It definitely was.
00:20:51 Fa
Ohh, you're bored.
00:20:52 Fa
Scroll, you're bored.
00:20:53 Fa
Go on social media.
00:20:54 Fa
That was me all.
00:20:55 Fa
The time you know what I mean.
00:20:57 Rachel
I I think it for me, I say was out of control is because it's a matter of like distraction.
00:21:02 Rachel
My need for distraction was out of control.
00:21:04 Rachel
So you know, why do I need to be distracted for my life?
00:21:06 Rachel
That doesn't make any sense.
00:21:08
It's not how it's.
00:21:09 Rachel
Supposed to be, you know, you're not supposed to.
00:21:10 Rachel
Be absent from your own life, you know, and that's exactly what it does.
00:21:15 Rachel
It makes you absent from whatever is real in front of you now, but I don't know.
00:21:20 Rachel
So I mean, going back to what we were saying, we coming back, I don't even know we're talking about now.
00:21:26 Rachel
Yeah, we're getting rid of like.
00:21:27 Fa
What happened to us? Yeah.
00:21:28 Rachel
So I feel like God was kind of like taking us through a sanctification process.
00:21:32 Rachel
He's still doing that.
00:21:34 Rachel
But UM.
00:21:35 Rachel
Like I can't watch and I have yet to really watch.
00:21:38 Rachel
I mean, I'm not going to watch TV.
00:21:39 Rachel
I don't want to.
00:21:40 Rachel
I have no desire to, like get into anything, you know, on TV I couldn't watch shows like weeks after.
00:21:46 Rachel
I like watch.
00:21:48 Rachel
A movie once with you and I felt like that was.
00:21:50 Rachel
Like why like this is?
00:21:51 Rachel
Horrible like now I'm.
00:21:53 Rachel
Very guarded in what I watch.
00:21:55 Rachel
If I do watch anything.
00:21:57 Rachel
Because I don't want anything in, I don't want to suck anything in that.
00:21:59 Fa
Me too.
00:22:00 Rachel
It's not.
00:22:01 Fa
I can't watch anything new.
00:22:01 Rachel
It's gonna disturb the Holy Spirit.
00:22:03 Fa
I can't.
00:22:04 Fa
I I look at the rating and I'm like, uh, you know.
00:22:07 Rachel
Yeah, I'd be really careful about what I take in because.
00:22:10 Fa
Yeah, even.
00:22:12 Fa
What people send me on private message or whatever and.
00:22:16 Fa
And it's like.
00:22:19 Fa
Something that's going to bother me, you know?
00:22:20 Fa
I mean, I was like, oh, I don't want to see stuff.
00:22:23 Fa
You know what I mean?
00:22:24 Fa
Like, I want to.
00:22:25 Rachel
Yeah, you know, it was crazy what?
00:22:27 Rachel
I was in a patients room.
00:22:29 Rachel
Other day and they had like some movie on.
00:22:32 Rachel
And it was like.
00:22:35 Rachel
I didn't even know what was going on because I just walked in.
00:22:37 Rachel
Was trying to give him medicine.
00:22:38 Fa
It's like Halloween time.
00:22:39 Fa
No, it wasn't.
00:22:40 Rachel
It was like.
00:22:41 Rachel
Some stupid it looked like a stupid Jennifer Lawrence movie.
00:22:45 Rachel
Like Russian, she's supposed to be some Russian chick or whatever.
00:22:48 Rachel
I don't know what it was.
00:22:49 Rachel
I remember seeing previews for it, but I don't know what it's called anyway.
00:22:52 Rachel
She's like in it.
00:22:53 Rachel
And like, you could tell like things are not.
00:22:56 Rachel
Good like things are.
00:22:58 Rachel
Bad things are going to happen soon.
00:23:00 Rachel
You know and.
00:23:01 Rachel
Like she like goes in this guy's hotel room. And it was like.
00:23:06 Rachel
I have like.
00:23:07 Rachel
No control over what this guy's watching in his in his room.
00:23:10 Rachel
Yeah, but like I could tell that like, like something violent and like a.
00:23:15 Rachel
A. What's a? What's a?
00:23:18 Rachel
PG wave.
00:23:20 Rachel
I don't know.
00:23:20 Rachel
I guess like whatever he's going to.
00:23:21 Rachel
You know, take advantage of her in her island in a horrible.
00:23:25 Rachel
And like you knew that was happening and it started to happen.
00:23:27 Rachel
And like I was very tempted to look at it, but I almost like felt scared, like.
00:23:31 Rachel
And normally.
00:23:31 Rachel
That stuff would not have bothered me.
00:23:34 Rachel
But I haven't seen things like on visually on TV like that in a long time now.
00:23:39 Rachel
It's almost like I I remember being like.
00:23:41 Rachel
As a kid.
00:23:43 Rachel
At someone's house.
00:23:44 Rachel
Once and they were watching like some horrible, like gory Halloween movie.
00:23:49 Rachel
And like as a kid, I was pretty sheltered and guarded.
00:23:52 Rachel
I didn't watch that stuff, and I remember, like, the I was a have, like, a sleepover or something.
00:23:57 Rachel
And everyone, it was in the living room watching this.
00:23:59 Rachel
And like, I couldn't go in there because it was like, terrifying.
00:24:02 Rachel
And I remember the feeling.
00:24:03 Rachel
Had was exactly the same.
00:24:06 Rachel
As what I had in this patients room with this scene hat.
00:24:09 Rachel
Yeah, exactly.
00:24:10 Rachel
And I was like, oh, I can't.
00:24:11 Rachel
Don't look at it.
00:24:12 Rachel
You don't want to see it.
00:24:13 Rachel
It's disturbing.
00:24:14 Rachel
It's like the sounds of it disturbed my spirit alone.
00:24:16 Rachel
Like, yeah.
00:24:17 Rachel
And I was.
00:24:17 Rachel
Like, thank God, like something like that.
00:24:20 Rachel
Like 4 months ago.
00:24:21 Rachel
Probably wouldn't have bothered me, and now it's like, oh, that's not.
00:24:24 Rachel
That's not for me to watch.
00:24:25 Rachel
I shouldn't be looking at that.
00:24:26 Rachel
You know, like get in the room.
00:24:27 Rachel
You know, I don't even want to hear it, you know.
00:24:31 Rachel
So anyway, the reason I'm saying that is, like, I don't want to take anything in that isn't going to make.
00:24:38 Rachel
The Holy Spirit, uncomfortable like, are my heart, my mind, the Holy Spirit and habits.
00:24:42 Rachel
Habits is home now, you know, and I don't want to make his home uncomfortable to him.
00:24:46 Rachel
Know what I mean?
00:24:47 Rachel
Yeah, yeah.
00:24:47 Rachel
And so like, that's like part of what's been happening since.
00:24:50 Rachel
We came back is like you.
00:24:52 Rachel
Know God showed me.
00:24:54 Rachel
God showed me the Holy Spirit rearranging the furniture of my heart.
00:24:58 Rachel
Like in the rooms in my heart, like kicking like I had, like skeletons, not skeletons but like uh, like actual like Halloween themed skeleton looking things like I.
00:25:08 Rachel
Saw this vision.
00:25:10
Of these things.
00:25:10 Fa
Wait, was this?
00:25:11 Fa
The first alright, cause what's been happening to you is after you.
00:25:15 Fa
Came back.
00:25:17 Fa
God's been showing you things.
00:25:18 Fa
Yeah, and.
00:25:20 Rachel
Should I like start from the beginning with that and come?
00:25:22 Rachel
Back to this or like.
00:25:23 Fa
Yeah, well, yeah, I'm.
00:25:25 Fa
I'm thinking about that like you.
00:25:28 Fa
Because if, like if, someone's listening and they want to, oh, I want to experience God.
00:25:32 Fa
In that way.
00:25:34 Fa
I'd like.
00:25:34 Rachel
Oh, this is the process veto.
00:25:35 Fa
Yeah, I'd like you to point.
00:25:37 Fa
Out what kind of classes I've got?
00:25:38 Rachel
I see.
00:25:39 Fa
Took you through.
00:25:39 Rachel
OK, alright.
00:25:41 Rachel
So well.
00:25:41 Rachel
Well anyway back.
00:25:42 Rachel
To what we were saying before.
00:25:44 Rachel
What we were just.
00:25:45
Saying one of the things.
00:25:46 Fa
We didn't talk about is like when do you remove all the alcohol?
00:25:50 Fa
Remember when you said Ohh there's so much room in the fridge now and you said there's so much room in our lives now you know, I mean, it was such a.
00:25:53 Rachel
Oh yeah.
00:25:55 Rachel
That's right.
00:25:58 Rachel
The Holy Spirit spoke to me that moment because there was, like, booze and stuff in the fridge, and I took it out and once.
00:26:02 Rachel
I got rid of it and I was like, oh.
00:26:05 Rachel
Look how much room we have now to put good stuff in our fridge, like nutritious stuff.
00:26:09 Rachel
And the Holy Spirit spoke to me.
00:26:10 Rachel
He's like, yeah, exactly.
00:26:12 Rachel
When you remove your idols in your life and you remove the things that don't belong in your life, look.
00:26:18 Rachel
At all the.
00:26:18 Rachel
Room you have now to put put the Holy Spirit in and put the good things from God in.
00:26:22 Fa
And and so and and that's a physical thing, right?
00:26:25 Fa
And social media was a spiritual one because you.
00:26:28 Fa
You might think, oh, I'm just watching this.
00:26:30 Fa
I'm just looking, but that is in your heart that goes.
00:26:34 Fa
To your heart, right?
00:26:35 Fa
And whatever your eyes, see your ears listen to.
00:26:38 Fa
It takes place in your heart.
00:26:40 Fa
It takes up space in there.
00:26:43 Fa
So you need to like the clutter.
00:26:46 Rachel
Yeah, there's things in our hearts and our minds that are taking up space, and God wants to get rid of them and.
00:26:46 Fa
And I mean.
00:26:53 Fa
I had an ex happened like that before. I remember this one time. This was like maybe 2007 or 8.
00:26:53 Rachel
That's what we're in.
00:27:02 Fa
I remember our old passion, her up.
00:27:06 Fa
He challenged us to go a week without TV and like listening to stuff that's not.
00:27:11
You know.
00:27:12 Fa
And a fine or whatever.
00:27:18 Fa
What was it like?
00:27:19 Fa
I remember that that was on the Sunday night, I think and.
00:27:22 Fa
I think that.
00:27:24 Fa
When I went to.
00:27:26 Fa
I was praying and I was like, you know, the spirit we're going to, you know, God, we're.
00:27:31 Fa
Going to fast this and that.
00:27:33 Fa
And in that moment, I this this was me laying my bed.
00:27:36 Fa
And at that moment I saw an Angel behind my bed which you know.
00:27:42 Fa
Couldn't happen because my bed's up against the wall. But you know, then this vision was an Angel behind my bed and he would put his hands inside my.
00:27:52 Fa
Head inside my mind and pull all the stuff I watched and all the stuff I listened to just out of.
00:27:59 Fa
My head like.
00:27:59 Fa
Yeah, like cleaning my mind, you know.
00:28:02 Fa
What I mean?
00:28:04 Fa
And I was like, wow.
00:28:04 Fa
That's amazing.
00:28:06 Fa
The next day I would.
00:28:10 Fa
Put on worship music.
00:28:11 Fa
In the presence of God would just immediately come down and like.
00:28:17 Fa
He was in the car, like, filled the car or whatever.
00:28:20 Fa
Wherever I was, he was so easy to get into.
00:28:24 Fa
The presence of God.
00:28:24 Fa
It was amazing.
00:28:26 Fa
Like I've never.
00:28:28 Fa
Thought about how many things God has to get through in your head and in your heart in order to get to you because you filled your heart with things and you filled your head with things either to mean.
00:28:39 Rachel
Yeah, yeah.
00:28:41 Fa
When you get rid of those things, it's easier.
00:28:44 Fa
To get to.
00:28:45 Rachel
Yeah, that's true.
00:28:49 Rachel
Yeah, so.
00:28:53 Rachel
With that whole process happening so you know, coming home normally what my nights before the conference, what it would have looked like.
00:29:01 Rachel
So like I I work at night and the nights that.
00:29:05 Rachel
I have to go.
00:29:07 Rachel
That I the night I.
00:29:07 Rachel
Have off before I have to go back to.
00:29:10 Rachel
I stay up really late.
00:29:12 Rachel
So that I can.
00:29:13 Rachel
Just sleep in and then I don't have to take.
00:29:14 Rachel
A nap in the afternoon, I'll.
00:29:15 Rachel
Just go to work and so.
00:29:20 Rachel
Normally would like watch TV or be on my phone or whatever, right, but instead it's like I.
00:29:27 Rachel
Couldn't do that anymore.
00:29:28 Rachel
Now I knit to be in God's.
00:29:29 Rachel
Presence again. Yeah. So like.
00:29:31 Rachel
Worshiping or like praying or whatever.
00:29:33 Rachel
And it's funny because now.
00:29:37 Rachel
It's much more.
00:29:37 Rachel
Comfortable and easy to just spend time with God and it's like I want to.
00:29:41 Rachel
That's what I crave.
00:29:42 Rachel
Like all the.
00:29:43 Rachel
Time now?
00:29:43 Rachel
Yeah, but in the beginning it was uncomfortable.
00:29:46 Rachel
It was almost like, OK, this is a sacrifice for me.
00:29:48 Rachel
I would rather do something else I don't feel.
00:29:49 Rachel
Like I'd rather.
00:29:50 Rachel
Do anything else now, but I did then, and so I remember praying and worshiping.
00:29:57 Rachel
UM.
00:29:59 Fa
I don't know.
00:30:00 Rachel
I feel like there's.
00:30:00 Rachel
So many layers to this, maybe I should go back because at the conference there was a sermon that really challenged me about.
00:30:09 Rachel
It was a sermon about Lazarus at the gate.
00:30:12 Rachel
You know that sermon and stuff.
00:30:13 Rachel
I don't know.
00:30:14 Rachel
Her name was.
00:30:14 Rachel
Stephanie something she preached about.
00:30:18 Rachel
You know the story of.
00:30:19 Rachel
Lazarus the crippled, you know, paralyzed man.
00:30:23 Rachel
That was out the gate of the rich man.
00:30:26 Rachel
I don't know where it.
00:30:27 Rachel
Is it's a?
00:30:27 Rachel
Parable and this rich man would pass by Lazareth at the gate of his home.
00:30:34 Rachel
And just like, ignore him and whatever.
00:30:36 Rachel
And like lazareth.
00:30:36 Rachel
Call for him like you know for anything, you know, like help me crumbs.
00:30:40 Rachel
I just want the crumbs that your dogs like.
00:30:42 Rachel
Don't even want, you know, like, just give me something.
00:30:45 Rachel
And the and the and the rich man didn't like, you know, give him anything.
00:30:49 Rachel
He just kind of ignored him and doesn't say that the rich man was like there was anything wrong with him.
00:30:54 Rachel
Like he was like a bad man or cool but and doesn't say that there was anything wrong with him being rich.
00:31:01 Rachel
He just ignored Lazarus, who was at his.
00:31:04 Rachel
Anyway, so lazareth and the rich man both die and the rich man ends up in hell and he's calling out and he sees Abraham and Lazarus, like across this great gulf, you know.
00:31:17 Rachel
And the like.
00:31:20 Rachel
The rich man was like Lazar, like or Abraham.
00:31:23 Rachel
Like I see Lazarus.
00:31:24 Rachel
Send Lazarus and like dip his finger in water and just.
00:31:26 Rachel
Like the tip.
00:31:27 Rachel
Of the tip of his finger and and you know, so that I can get that.
00:31:29 Rachel
Drop from my tongue.
00:31:30 Rachel
You know, whatever, so dry and Abraham was like, I can't.
00:31:34 Rachel
There's a great.
00:31:34 Rachel
Golf here.
00:31:35 Rachel
It was a great divide, you know.
00:31:37 Rachel
And anyway, her whole sermon was about why did the rich man end up in hell?
00:31:41 Rachel
What was?
00:31:41 Rachel
His great sin.
00:31:42 Rachel
And and it's interesting that lazareth wasn't in hell, you know?
00:31:47 Rachel
So, like, what was the difference here?
00:31:48 Rachel
Like, the Bible doesn't say that the rich man was a terrible person and did horrible things.
00:31:52 Rachel
He probably was a fine, upstanding gentleman in society.
00:31:57 Rachel
Like that, once the synagogue did his prayers, did whatever you know?
00:32:01 Rachel
But his great sin was that he was indifferent to Lazarus.
00:32:06 Rachel
And to him, Wadsworth meant nothing.
00:32:08 Rachel
He was indifferent to him.
00:32:09 Rachel
You know, like, how do you how do you pass by a crippled dude?
00:32:13 Rachel
It says in the Bible that hit like dogs, looked at his swords.
00:32:16 Rachel
You know how how do you walk by someone like that?
00:32:20 Rachel
That like, is outside your house, outside your door and not care?
00:32:24 Rachel
Well, the only way you get to that point is.
00:32:26 Rachel
You're so indifferent.
00:32:27 Rachel
You don't care.
00:32:28 Rachel
You know, you're just indifferent and his great sin was that he was indifferent to Lazarus, who was at his gate.
00:32:35 Rachel
And the whole point of her sermon was is like, you know, the things that we think are really great in this world and the things that matter to God the most sometimes are the things that matter to God.
00:32:44 Rachel
The least the things that we think don't matter at all, and people that don't matter in our lives.
00:32:49 Rachel
God's put there so that we can minister to them and we can make a difference in their lives.
00:32:53 Rachel
Like that's what.
00:32:54 Rachel
Well, that's the great thing that God is.
00:32:56 Rachel
Calling from us the things that we think are the.
00:32:58 Rachel
Least and so that.
00:32:59 Rachel
Sermon shook me because we have.
00:33:04 Rachel
This little girl, who lives across the street and up until this point, she's been a kind of a problem for us because she's, you know, a little bit older than our girls and somewhat of a well we consider a bad influence because, you know, like, we don't.
00:33:19 Rachel
Know what goes.
00:33:20
On in her.
00:33:20 Rachel
Home it's not a Christian home that we understand her.
00:33:23 Rachel
And like she'll say, things are inappropriate and UM, you know, like expose our kids who are not exposed to many things.
00:33:31 Rachel
Yeah, expose them to that and.
00:33:33 Rachel
Like like our daughter, Lily was like, oh, you know, this girl told me she's trans. And this is like my, like, Lily's 8.
00:33:42 Rachel
Like how? How does she know what trans is like? Why does she know and this other girl's like 10?
00:33:46 Rachel
Why does she know?
00:33:47 Rachel
You know?
00:33:48 Rachel
But so, like immediate.
00:33:49 Rachel
We're like, oh, my God.
00:33:50 Rachel
Like we were afraid of this girl like we want.
00:33:52 Rachel
To get her away from us.
00:33:53 Rachel
Like immediately, we're like, OK, we need to limit their time together.
00:33:56 Rachel
Like, if anytime at all, it has to be supervised and she can't come over here.
00:34:01 Rachel
You know, basically we're trying to pull away and make sure that she's like.
00:34:05 Rachel
Not threatening, really terrified of this little girl basically because of what she potentially the harm she could do to our children.
00:34:11 Rachel
Right.
00:34:12 Rachel
Meanwhile, this little girl is clearly lonely.
00:34:16 Rachel
And you know the fact that she even wants to hang out with girls that are much younger than she is, you know, says a lot.
00:34:24 Rachel
And she's like, over.
00:34:25 Rachel
Always over here and like always around and like her mom. Like lets her. It's like one of like, I feel like we're in like the 1950s again where it's like.
00:34:34 Rachel
They just send your kids out and like you don't know where.
00:34:36 Rachel
They are until like nightfall.
00:34:37 Rachel
Like that's kind of how that's the.
00:34:40 Rachel
Parenting vibe I get.
00:34:41 Fa
That's how it rolls, and then verse 90.
00:34:42 Rachel
Yeah, kind of.
00:34:43 Rachel
So anyway, up and.
00:34:45 Rachel
When I heard.
00:34:46 Rachel
The sermon I immediately saw this little girl's face like immediately, and I started like it was like that was hard.
00:34:53 Rachel
Dependence right there, because she's literal.
00:34:56 Rachel
Really, the person at her gate, like quite literally, she's across the street from us, like she's the person at our gate, and it's like God was saying, it's like, goodness, I've I've given you this girl to minister to and you're trying to get rid of her, you know, so there's a lot of repentance going on and a lot of, you know, like we're going to change, like, right away, you know.
00:35:16 Fa
I like how you.
00:35:19 Fa
Because because I saw those things too.
00:35:22 Fa
Like people at our gate and you know.
00:35:25 Fa
How we're just neglecting people, yeah.
00:35:28 Fa
But one thing that I have to give to.
00:35:31 Fa
You is that?
00:35:32 Fa
You took action on everything right away.
00:35:35 Fa
You're like, let's do this.
00:35:38 Fa
Let's do that.
00:35:39 Fa
Yeah, and usually when you when people are like, let's do this and that they put a date and it's like, oh, let's do it in a month or so from now or whatever.
00:35:47 Fa
Or you're like, let's do it.
00:35:48 Fa
Now let's do it.
00:35:49 Fa
Now you're going to be like.
00:35:52 Rachel
Wait, I'm like, legitimate.
00:35:53 Rachel
I was, like, legitimately terrified.
00:35:54 Rachel
And I'm like, oh, my God, if I die tomorrow, I'm going to hell because I.
00:35:57 Rachel
Neglected to do the.
00:35:57 Rachel
Things God told me to.
00:35:58 Rachel
Do you know?
00:36:00 Rachel
It's like I don't have time to.
00:36:01 Rachel
Wait, we don't have time to waste, you know.
00:36:03 Fa
My biggest.
00:36:05 Fa
Even before the.
00:36:07 Fa
It's not a fear anymore, but one of my biggest fears was to.
00:36:12 Fa
Get to heaven and then.
00:36:15 Fa
God is like you didn't do anything.
00:36:16 Fa
I should do.
00:36:17 Rachel
Yeah, yeah.
00:36:17 Fa
You didn't mean you didn't.
00:36:20 Fa
Reach the people that I, you know, put you alive for whatever.
00:36:24 Fa
Because for some reason.
00:36:26 Fa
We always think of like, oh we, God calls us and he wants to do ministry whatever.
00:36:32 Fa
But we think that.
00:36:34 Fa
We're going to leave where we are.
00:36:35 Fa
We're going to meet the strangers and we're going to minister to those people, but it's not that way that wants you to Minister to the people you love and the people that are around you.
00:36:39 Rachel
Yeah, yeah.
00:36:45 Rachel
People that you're with, yeah.
00:36:46 Fa
That's why you're here.
00:36:47 Rachel
Right.
00:36:48 Fa
That's why you're where you are.
00:36:50 Rachel
Yeah, to reach those people, I'm almost convinced that, like.
00:36:54 Rachel
You know, we think of ministry as like.
00:36:56 Rachel
Oh, you're in the church and you ministered to a bunch of people at once, like these big.
00:37:00 Rachel
Churches and like.
00:37:01 Rachel
Oh, you see, these evangelists that are?
00:37:04 Rachel
You know, they have like auditorium full of like people.
00:37:07 Rachel
Basically it's like I'm convinced that's not really ministry at all.
00:37:10 Rachel
Like I don't even know what that is.
00:37:11 Fa
We we made, we made that into a.
00:37:13 Rachel
Job. Yeah, it's.
00:37:15 Fa
Like where people go in and they turn on the Christian thing and they'll preach and they'll, you know, you can do great things because God's not gonna waste that opportunity. He'll still want some people.
00:37:24 Rachel
Right, right.
00:37:26 Fa
But as soon as that is done, they clock out and you know there's no love in anybody else.
00:37:34 Fa
There was never any loving to be, you know, right?
00:37:37 Fa
I don't know.
00:37:38 Fa
I don't know, but I don't.
00:37:39 Fa
I I don't blame anybody because.
00:37:43 Fa
They could be blind like we were blind.
00:37:45 Rachel
Yeah, yeah.
00:37:45 Fa
You know what I mean?
00:37:46 Fa
It's not.
00:37:49 Fa
Yeah, you're not malicious and being like, oh, I'm gonna minister to these church.
00:37:53 Fa
And then once it's done, I'm gonna, you know, right.
00:37:56 Fa
Lock myself in my house.
00:37:57 Fa
And whoever is at my gate.
00:38:00 Fa
Forget about them, you know I.
00:38:01 Fa
Mean like right?
00:38:02 Fa
We're blind.
00:38:03 Fa
Yeah, we are blind.
00:38:04 Rachel
Yeah, well, that leaves into the whole revelation that I had that like I think was the this was the wide open door of like, Oh my God.
00:38:05 Fa
Which is insane to say.
00:38:12 Fa
This is when things start to get.
00:38:15 Fa
Yeah, this is when things started to get.
00:38:18 Fa
Crazy for us and like.
00:38:22 Fa
I don't know go.
00:38:23 Rachel
Ahead. Yeah, so.
00:38:25 Rachel
I didn't trying to.
00:38:25 Rachel
It's funny because.
00:38:26 Rachel
It wasn't that.
00:38:27 Rachel
Long ago, but now it's like, oh, yeah, what happened?
00:38:29 Rachel
First I.
00:38:30 Rachel
So it's probably good that we're.
00:38:32 Rachel
You know, removing these these events but anyway so.
00:38:38
Yeah, alright.
00:38:38
I think the only.
00:38:39 Rachel
Thing happened first it was.
00:38:40 Rachel
All like alright.
00:38:42 Rachel
I immediately was like, OK, things have.
00:38:44 Rachel
Got to change.
00:38:45 Rachel
Like, I can't believe that.
00:38:47 Rachel
You know, I've been so blind to this little.
00:38:49 Rachel
Girl that needs God and like I started seeing.
00:38:51 Rachel
You like? Oh my God.
00:38:52 Fa
I mean, we're blind to everything.
00:38:53
Yeah. Yeah, we'll.
00:38:53 Fa
We're blind to like, yeah.
00:38:54 Rachel
We'll get to that, but like, but before that, I believe this happened before.
00:38:58 Rachel
I am.
00:39:00 Rachel
I was like, OK God, like immediately repenting.
00:39:02 Rachel
And there were two people that I saw that.
00:39:04 Rachel
We had been neglectful of.
00:39:06 Rachel
Basically forever.
00:39:07 Rachel
And mind you, like, it's not like we're bad people, we're just normal people.
00:39:10 Rachel
We have jobs.
00:39:11 Rachel
We focus on our careers.
00:39:14 Rachel
You know we.
00:39:14 Rachel
Bought a house.
00:39:15 Rachel
We have kids like our kids were our ministry and that was my viewpoint is like I need to raise.
00:39:19 Rachel
These kids, right?
00:39:20 Rachel
I need to provide.
00:39:20 Rachel
And then.
00:39:22 Rachel
We're happy.
00:39:22 Rachel
God's blessing us.
00:39:23 Rachel
We're just.
00:39:24 Rachel
Like there wasn't anything.
00:39:26 Rachel
Like our marriage?
00:39:26 Rachel
Is good like whatever.
00:39:28 Rachel
Right.
00:39:28 Rachel
So, you know, looking at it from like, you know.
00:39:32 Fa
It's funny you say that cause I did see.
00:39:35 Fa
The past 10 years of our life.
00:39:38 Fa
Of our lives as like.
00:39:40 Fa
This was our, you know.
00:39:44 Fa
Our family ministry time, you know, I mean, like, I'm building my marriage.
00:39:49 Fa
Yeah, I'm raising my kids.
00:39:51 Fa
I'm building my home.
00:39:52 Fa
This is my ministry right now.
00:39:54 Fa
I thought about it like that way.
00:39:55 Rachel
Yeah, we were building that's for.
00:39:57 Rachel
You know, but anyway, so.
00:40:00 Rachel
This little girl, right?
00:40:02 Rachel
I'm praying like OK God.
00:40:04 Rachel
Like what do you give me the blueprints?
00:40:06 Rachel
You know, what do I need?
00:40:07 Rachel
To do to reach this girl.
00:40:08 Rachel
Like what? What happened?
00:40:10 Fa
Talk about how you were praying before and then God gave you the vision.
00:40:13 Rachel
I think this was.
00:40:13 Rachel
After that.
00:40:15 Fa
OK.
00:40:16 Rachel
I'm pretty sure.
00:40:19 Fa
OK, I don't know, but it doesn't.
00:40:20 Rachel
Really matter.
00:40:21 Rachel
Anyway, it doesn't matter.
00:40:21 Fa
It's they're they're the same thing.
00:40:23 Rachel
But anyway I'm like.
00:40:24 Rachel
Asking God for the blueprints of, like, how do I minister to this?
00:40:27 Rachel
Well, and I felt like God was like, oh, give her a Bible, go give her a Bible and then, uh, yeah.
00:40:33 Rachel
So this was before, so like.
00:40:35 Rachel
She had taken care of my my chickens.
00:40:37 Rachel
While we were gone, so I was like.
00:40:39 Rachel
OK. Well, I'll give her.
00:40:40 Rachel
Bible and I'll pay her for that or whatever.
00:40:43 Rachel
And I was like, I knew this even going in the conference, like after I was like, I know that got.
00:40:47 Rachel
Something to give this girl a Bible.
00:40:49 Rachel
Like a little kids Bible.
00:40:50 Rachel
So I went and bought one.
00:40:52 Rachel
Then I was like, you know, I really need to make sure it's OK with her mom.
00:40:55 Rachel
Like, I don't just give.
00:40:56 Rachel
Her a Bible and we have.
00:40:57 Rachel
The mom like you.
00:40:58 Rachel
Know to be respectful.
00:41:00 Rachel
So I'm texting the mom and.
00:41:04 Rachel
Even the way I phrase it because I was like, oh, I don't know how to phrase this to her because it's uncomfortable, you know.
00:41:10 Rachel
But I had bought.
00:41:12 Rachel
The Bible first intentionally so that way I could say in the phrasing of my text.
00:41:15 Rachel
But like, hey, I have this extra Bible.
00:41:17 Rachel
You think I'm like, would want it would be OK if I give it to her.
00:41:20 Rachel
And I and.
00:41:20 Rachel
I said that to her and she.
00:41:22 Rachel
Was like, of course.
00:41:24 Rachel
So that would be amazing.
00:41:25 Rachel
Like, that'd be great, you know, like.
00:41:27 Rachel
Receptive and I kind of like was like, oh, OK, I don't know what.
00:41:30 Rachel
I was envisioning like some kind of.
00:41:31 Rachel
Like no, don't try to indoctrinate my kid.
00:41:33 Rachel
You know, something like that.
00:41:35 Rachel
But she was like.
00:41:36 Rachel
Yeah, absolutely.
00:41:36 Rachel
You know, she was like.
00:41:37 Rachel
I used to.
00:41:38 Rachel
Teach religions or something, I don't know.
00:41:40 Rachel
She said like some kind of she used to do something.
00:41:42 Rachel
So she's very open.
00:41:43 Rachel
It sounded like, yeah, so.
00:41:45 Rachel
That was a Friday, right?
00:41:46 Rachel
I give her the book.
00:41:47 Rachel
The Bible and I gave her.
00:41:48 Rachel
Something else too, but it was like.
00:41:50 Rachel
A little Bible.
00:41:54 Rachel
Comic book type of things.
00:41:55 Rachel
So I was.
00:41:55 Rachel
Like, well, give her.
00:41:56 Rachel
Both anyway, so the next day I wake up and I'm like I'm in my prayer time.
00:42:01 Rachel
And like you know, reading the Bible and I immediately felt God saying like, OK, invite to the church tomorrow.
00:42:08 Rachel
And I was like.
00:42:09 Rachel
Ah, well, God, it's a little.
00:42:10 Rachel
Too soon and I just gave her the Bible.
00:42:12 Rachel
Yesterday, like this is going.
00:42:14 Rachel
To seem like a lot.
00:42:16 Rachel
I was like, let's give.
00:42:16
It a week, let's.
00:42:17 Rachel
Give it some time, you.
00:42:19 Rachel
Know spread it out.
00:42:21 Rachel
And I was like.
00:42:22 Rachel
Now invited to church.
00:42:22 Rachel
So I was like, OK, so like.
00:42:24 Rachel
Again, I'm like.
00:42:24 Rachel
I gotta text him, mom and so.
00:42:26 Rachel
I was like.
00:42:26 Rachel
Hey, you know.
00:42:29 Rachel
The girls would love it.
00:42:30 Rachel
Uh, you know, you know, most of face can come to.
00:42:35 Rachel
Church with us tomorrow.
00:42:36 Rachel
Like would that be OK?
00:42:37 Rachel
With you and again, the mom was like of.
00:42:39 Rachel
Course anytime that'd be great.
00:42:41 Rachel
She'd love it.
00:42:42 Rachel
But I was like.
00:42:43 Rachel
OK.
00:42:44 Rachel
And I was like expecting a fight or something, but it was so easy and so easy.
00:42:48 Rachel
And she came and she's come.
00:42:50 Rachel
Every Sunday with.
00:42:51 Rachel
Us so since then this was how.
00:42:53 Rachel
Long ago was.
00:42:53 Rachel
That now.
00:42:54 Rachel
I don't know.
00:42:55 Rachel
I don't even know, but anyway.
00:42:57 Fa
At six weeks at least.
00:43:01 Rachel
If not more, I think, but anyway.
00:43:05 Fa
You know how the Bible says the harvest is ready, the harvest is ready, right?
00:43:10 Fa
You know, if you're the harvest.
00:43:13 Fa
You don't get to choose when you're harvest.
00:43:16 Fa
You mean you're ready?
00:43:16 Rachel
Yeah, right. You're right, yeah.
00:43:17 Fa
You're ready?
00:43:18 Fa
So what's going to come in?
00:43:20 Fa
Cut you up and put you in store houses or whatever.
00:43:23 Rachel
They deal with the harvest, yeah.
00:43:24 Fa
Well, so it's it's been amazingly easy to invite people to come over to our home and like, so we could.
00:43:32 Rachel
Well, yeah.
00:43:33 Rachel
What we're finding is it's easy when we're, like, if we're obedient and we're listening.
00:43:37 Rachel
That, like God's saying to do this for a reason so it's easier.
00:43:40 Rachel
Like instead of working against the grain like we're.
00:43:43 Rachel
Working with God.
00:43:44 Rachel
So it's just easier, you know?
00:43:46 Rachel
Instead of doing our own strength, basically.
00:43:48 Rachel
But anyway to say all that at some point shortly after what God was speaking to me, then I started.
00:43:59 Rachel
Like bringing different things.
00:44:02 Rachel
But anyway, I'll just jump to the like the major vision that, like jump started everything else cause there was like minor things that.
00:44:07 Fa
But the the ice thing, yeah.
00:44:07 Rachel
Got chosen like, yeah, the.
00:44:09 Rachel
Ice thing so alright, so.
00:44:13 Rachel
I was worshiping and you know like getting.
00:44:16 Rachel
Into worship it was.
00:44:18 Rachel
And I started to see my face and my eyes with, like blind eyes, like my eyeballs were like.
00:44:24 Rachel
All jacked up like.
00:44:26 Fa
Like white.
00:44:26 Rachel
Look, no.
00:44:27 Rachel
They were white. They were.
00:44:28 Rachel
Like cross eyed.
00:44:29 Rachel
And like ohh like I don't know.
00:44:31 Rachel
Some people who are buying, unfortunately.
00:44:33 Rachel
Have eyeballs that like are cross eyed and like funky like their muscles like they don't.
00:44:37 Rachel
I don't know they can.
00:44:38 Rachel
C They can't focus.
00:44:39 Fa
Like when people have seizures, their eyes go up there.
00:44:41 Rachel
No, I mean like sorta, but.
00:44:43 Rachel
Like one eyes.
00:44:43 Rachel
Looking, you know, to the left and the upper left.
00:44:46 Rachel
The other the.
00:44:46 Rachel
The left eyes looking to the right upper.
00:44:49 Fa
Right, yes.
00:44:49
You know, they're all cross.
00:44:50 Rachel
And funky like you just can't.
00:44:51 Rachel
You don't.
00:44:52 Rachel
There's nothing you can't focus, you know, like blind eyes and.
00:44:57 Rachel
And at first I saw that image.
00:44:58 Rachel
And I like what the.
00:44:59 Rachel
Crime like get out of my head.
00:45:01 Rachel
You know that's weird.
00:45:03 Rachel
And then I started singing it again.
00:45:06 Rachel
I let myself see it, for one thing.
00:45:08 Rachel
And I was like, OK.
00:45:10 Rachel
And he saw myself blind eyes and worshipping.
00:45:13 Rachel
And I keep seeing this.
00:45:14 Rachel
And then I kind of like the the picture of it, the vision of it scrolls out a bit.
00:45:18 Rachel
And I see you.
00:45:20 Rachel
You're with blind eyes, and we're standing in a line.
00:45:22 Rachel
You, me, and then Lily and Andy are girls.
00:45:27 Rachel
All of us had blind eyes and were standing in a line.
00:45:30 Rachel
In a row.
00:45:31 Rachel
And there's like nothing around this or whatever.
00:45:33 Rachel
It was just kind.
00:45:34 Rachel
Of like.
00:45:35 Rachel
Nothing around us.
00:45:38 Rachel
Like a blank canvas type of deal, but we're just standing in line and then so.
00:45:40 Fa
Right.
00:45:41 Fa
This is exactly what I pictured.
00:45:45 Rachel
And I was like, what is this guy you know?
00:45:48 Rachel
And then I saw Jesus, he came up to my eyes and he started touching my eyes like my touching my forehead and my eyes and like, touching them.
00:45:56 Rachel
And then like I could see. And then he went to you and touch your eyes. And then he went to lilys eyes and she could see. And then Andy's eyes. And then we could all see.
00:46:03 Rachel
And then he was like, you know, come here, like, gesturing to us.
00:46:06 Rachel
So we're following you as he's walking and as he's walking, he's coming up.
00:46:11 Rachel
Like, I start seeing, like.
00:46:15 Rachel
These wide field like really.
00:46:18 Rachel
Pretty fields like like a harvest field.
00:46:20 Rachel
You know type of thing in a village, like a big people were in this village and like that really didn't have anything to do.
00:46:25 Rachel
With the vision so much as he brought us.
00:46:28 Rachel
Up to this cabinet, like, you know, like a storage cabinet base.
00:46:34 Rachel
Like one of those long ones that.
00:46:36 Rachel
You put in your.
00:46:36 Rachel
Gardening tools.
00:46:37 Rachel
He opened those up and it had a hose in it.
00:46:39 Rachel
Ah, oh, I mean.
00:46:40 Rachel
And it had a shovel and a rake and the.
00:46:42 Rachel
Gardening stuff like stuff.
00:46:44 Rachel
To till soil with you know.
00:46:46 Rachel
And so he took each thing out and he handed each of us a gardening tool.
00:46:51 Rachel
And he said, hey, the harvest is great.
00:46:53 Rachel
Look, look at the harvest.
00:46:55 Rachel
He was like, look.
00:46:56 Rachel
See, see.
00:46:57 Rachel
The harvest now look at.
00:46:58 Rachel
It and then we saw all these these fields and like villages.
00:47:02 Rachel
Like a village, it was like Africa, almost looking like it was just villages, you know?
00:47:06 Rachel
And I was like, oh, OK, so I, like, almost expected us to, like, go into the village or something and go into those fields that I see.
00:47:12 Rachel
We didn't.
00:47:13 Rachel
Instead what we did was we turned around our whole family.
00:47:17 Rachel
We turned around and we looked behind us, and when we looked behind us, we saw like thousands of people standing just the way we were moments ago with blind eyes.
00:47:27 Rachel
Everyone had blind eyes and they were just standing still idly.
00:47:29 Rachel
They just all had blind eyes.
00:47:32 Rachel
And so when we saw this, we were.
00:47:33 Rachel
Like, Oh my God.
00:47:34 Rachel
Like the harvest is great, we we have to have.
00:47:37 Rachel
So all of us, everyone, including even our littlest one who's five, we all start running up to these people with blind eyes and we start touching their eyes so that they could see.
00:47:46 Rachel
And then once they saw we had a tool for them and we shoved.
00:47:48 Rachel
It in their.
00:47:49 Rachel
Hands and we.
00:47:49 Rachel
Said go get the harvest.
00:47:50 Rachel
Go go.
00:47:51 Rachel
And it was like a hurried thing, like we were like it.
00:47:54 Rachel
Was an urgent thing, so we had, like we were running.
00:47:57 Rachel
To everyone we could like trying to touch as many blind eyes as we possibly could and God just saying kept saying he's like, look at the harvest, right.
00:48:06 Rachel
And so.
00:48:06 Rachel
It was like alright.
00:48:08 Rachel
So I started to see.
00:48:11 Rachel
Well, I started to ask God I'm.
00:48:12 Rachel
Like, OK, I actually no, I.
00:48:14 Rachel
Didn't even ask God.
00:48:14 Rachel
I was like, where is that from the Bible?
00:48:16 Rachel
And there's like a couple places it talks about the harvest and I think now I don't remember, but once in.
00:48:24 Rachel
I don't know the parables like I think it's Matthew Matthew 9.
00:48:28 Rachel
I think talks about like hey, the harvest is great, but the workers are few.
00:48:32 Rachel
Pray that pray for the.
00:48:34 Rachel
Workers pray that the same workers and I.
00:48:35 Rachel
Was like, OK, you know, we've all heard.
00:48:37 Fa
It's funny because most people pray for the harvest.
00:48:39 Rachel
Right, yeah.
00:48:40 Rachel
Pray for the workers.
00:48:41 Rachel
Pray that.
00:48:41 Rachel
They send workers is what that?
00:48:42 Rachel
Verse was about but that one didn't.
00:48:44 Rachel
Really resonate with me as much.
00:48:45 Rachel
I'm like, I know they talk about.
00:48:46 Rachel
Harvest so I.
00:48:46 Rachel
Like in my little like behind the Bible where.
00:48:48 Rachel
All like the keywords are and you're like where other time?
00:48:51 Rachel
What other times are they mentioned?
00:48:53 Rachel
So then in John four it mentions harvest and actually that just so happens to be.
00:48:57 Rachel
Like one of my favorite.
00:48:59 Rachel
Stories of the Bible.
00:49:00 Rachel
It's not even a parable.
00:49:01 Rachel
It's like a thing that happened.
00:49:03 Rachel
And John, four is the story of the Samaritan woman at the well.
00:49:08 Rachel
I love that story and.
00:49:12 Rachel
I I love that story because Jesus in that story, he goes out of his way to go through Samaria.
00:49:17 Rachel
He didn't even have to cross there to get to where he was going.
00:49:20 Rachel
He actually went the long way around.
00:49:22 Rachel
So and like the the Jews, like hated this meridians because like they just they basically regarded them.
00:49:27 Rachel
As like Dirty River rides, basically, or whatever, you know, I mean, like they were nothing to them garbage people, they just they disagreed with, you know, where was the holy place to worship with?
00:49:37 Rachel
Where would where you know where is the really.
00:49:39 Fa
Right, right, right.
00:49:40 Rachel
The was the one where amusing the temple.
00:49:42 Rachel
Yeah, they disagreed about.
00:49:45 Rachel
You know where the temple should be and where the place of worship.
00:49:47 Rachel
Have been like that was their argument or whatever, something like that.
00:49:49 Fa
Well, yeah, because if you think.
00:49:50 Fa
About it.
00:49:53 Fa
Moses was told by God to build the temple wherever.
00:49:58 Fa
And then.
00:49:59 Fa
That's where God's presence will come. So did your people like you gotta worship God at the temple. Yeah, because that's where his presence is. Or whatever.
00:50:09 Rachel
Well, I think it was.
00:50:10 Rachel
Like geographically, they were like it should have been.
00:50:12 Rachel
Over here on the side of the road.
00:50:13 Fa
So yeah.
00:50:14 Fa
But The thing is like we, we read the stories today and we think, why can't you just worship God anywhere but back then they were bound by the law.
00:50:23 Fa
It's like, oh, no, this is where you worship.
00:50:25 Fa
Otherwise your.
00:50:27 Fa
Right.
00:50:27 Fa
Wasting your time or whatever, yeah.
00:50:30 Rachel
And the Samaritans actually like had.
00:50:34 Rachel
They believe the same thing that Jewish.
00:50:35 Rachel
People did except.
00:50:36 Rachel
For that and they, they also interjected their own own like beliefs here and.
00:50:40 Fa
Yeah, well, so did the Jews.
00:50:40 Rachel
There and and stuff.
00:50:42 Rachel
No, no.
00:50:43 Rachel
I mean, it's like the Torah, like.
00:50:45 Rachel
Yeah, they believe the.
00:50:46 Rachel
Same thing like the Pentateuch.
00:50:47 Rachel
They had that, like, you know what I mean.
00:50:48 Rachel
But they also just added their own stuff.
00:50:50 Rachel
To it as well.
00:50:50 Rachel
So like, that's why I was a little.
00:50:51 Rachel
Different plus the the place of worship, but whatever.
00:50:53 Rachel
Anyway, Jews and the Samaritans.
00:50:55 Rachel
Knocking along didn't like each other.
00:50:56 Rachel
Yeah, Jews would have like.
00:50:58 Rachel
You know, kept a wide girth, but here's Jesus going straight through Samaritan for no reason.
00:51:03 Rachel
Doesn't have to.
00:51:04 Rachel
Like, that's a long way, yeah.
00:51:06 Rachel
He goes there, it's at noon and the Samaritan woman is there at the well at noon, which is also something just weird.
00:51:13 Rachel
Like, these things didn't happen then because it was hot at freaking noon.
00:51:16 Rachel
Like they're not going.
00:51:17 Rachel
To be over there in the well.
00:51:18 Rachel
You know, in the blazing sun, that's when they took their naps.
00:51:21 Rachel
And stuff like, yeah, that's too hot to be doing.
00:51:23 Rachel
And stuff.
00:51:24 Rachel
But this, like Samaritan woman, she did this purposely because she was ostracized by the.
00:51:28 Rachel
Samaritans like they didn't like her.
00:51:30 Rachel
And like at the well is where all like the town gossip went down, all the women would gather and that's where they had their social time.
00:51:37 Rachel
Like the women.
00:51:38 Rachel
It's also apparently a place where the men and women would flirt like.
00:51:43 Rachel
So you pick up your.
00:51:44 Rachel
Your girl like back then, like Jacob and.
00:51:48 Rachel
Rebecca, right.
00:51:49 Rachel
The well, like, whatever.
00:51:50 Rachel
Right.
00:51:50 Rachel
So Needless to say, she's at the well.
00:51:53 Rachel
Of Jacob and.
00:51:55 Rachel
Trying to avoid people like she's trying well.
00:51:56 Fa
Is that the same?
00:51:59 Rachel
Jacob's at Jacob's well.
00:52:02 Fa
Is that the same where we're at Jacob's?
00:52:05 Fa
What's the word I'm looking for?
00:52:07 Rachel
Picked up.
00:52:08 Fa
His employees.
00:52:09 Fa
Ohh picked up.
00:52:11 Fa
The the woman for picked up Rebecca.
00:52:11 Rachel
Yeah, I don't know, probably.
00:52:14 Fa
Don't know.
00:52:15 Fa
I don't know.
00:52:15 Rachel
Much about it.
00:52:16 Rachel
Right. Whatever. So, you know, she's there on purpose at noon to avoid people she knows. No one's going to be around at this time of day.
00:52:24 Rachel
But except for Jesus, Jesus is there.
00:52:25 Rachel
Why is he there?
00:52:26 Rachel
Like, that's not an accident either, right?
00:52:28 Rachel
Like so Jesus wouldn't have been there.
00:52:30 Rachel
No one should have been there.
00:52:31 Rachel
UM, so she's gathering up water and he goes over to her and starts talking to her. And which was weird too, because she just really as a rabbi, should have been talking in that time to anybody.
00:52:44 Rachel
Uh woman?
00:52:45 Rachel
I mean, any female that wasn't like you got to look good like holy can be looking at women and talking to them.
00:52:52 Rachel
You might, people might think you're have bad intentions.
00:52:55 Rachel
As a rabbi.
00:52:55 Fa
I mean, women weren't even allowed to follow you.
00:52:57 Fa
If you're a rabbi, like, you're not even allowed.
00:52:59 Fa
To have women in.
00:53:01 Rachel
Like, yeah, right.
00:53:03 Rachel
Like it just wasn't something you did socially.
00:53:04 Rachel
And especially as a rabbi, like, even even like men, even like, rabbis, wives, they didn't even talk to their wives in public.
00:53:11 Rachel
Like that's how ******** they were.
00:53:12 Rachel
So the fact that Jesus was doing that as a rabbi, the.
00:53:15 Rachel
Disciples were like 1 going on, you know.
00:53:18 Rachel
So anyway, he's talking to her.
00:53:21 Rachel
And he's like ohh.
00:53:22 Rachel
And I should note too.
00:53:24 Rachel
That, you know, people think that.
00:53:26 Rachel
She was a prostitute.
00:53:27 Rachel
And that's not.
00:53:29 Rachel
That may not be the actual case.
00:53:31 Rachel
Like people always, I don't like it because, like, I want to stick up for this married woman.
00:53:34 Rachel
She's like my.
00:53:35 Rachel
Gal, you know.
00:53:36 Rachel
Like, no, I don't think she she scholars don't agree that they she's a prostitute just because.
00:53:41 Rachel
She's just like, oh.
00:53:43 Rachel
You know, are you?
00:53:45 Rachel
Do you?
00:53:45 Rachel
Are you married or whatever?
00:53:46 Rachel
He says to her like you have your husband.
00:53:47 Rachel
Or with your husband or whatever.
00:53:50 Rachel
And she's like, no, like, she's not living with her husband.
00:53:53 Rachel
And he was talking about how she, like five other husbands.
00:53:56 Rachel
Well, it's likely that she was not a prostitute who just had five men.
00:53:59 Rachel
That she.
00:53:59 Rachel
Was with it, she.
00:54:00 Rachel
Really did have 5 husbands.
00:54:02 Fa
Yeah, she's been divorced.
00:54:04 Fa
And the guy she's with now, she's cheating on with somebody.
00:54:08 Rachel
Else I don't know.
00:54:10 Fa
That's from the chosen.
00:54:12 Rachel
Yeah, I don't know.
00:54:12 Rachel
That's true, but whatever.
00:54:15 Fa
Yeah, because people go straight to.
00:54:16 Fa
She was like, no, it could have been that she just has bad relationships.
00:54:18
She's uh.
00:54:21 Rachel
And no, I think what it was I was listening to some scholar talk about it once is like likely what was the problem is, is.
00:54:27 Rachel
That she was probably Baron.
00:54:29 Rachel
And she couldn't have children.
00:54:31 Rachel
And the Samaritans, like the Jewish people, could divorce based off of certain things.
00:54:36 Rachel
And if you know one was that evil woman can't give you babies.
00:54:40 Rachel
Like, get rid of her.
00:54:41 Rachel
And that's what happened.
00:54:42 Rachel
To her, she probably.
00:54:42 Rachel
Was very beautiful and very people wanted men wanted her, you know, and she probably thought Jesus was flirting with her.
00:54:49 Rachel
Because like I said, you know that's what they did at the well.
00:54:53 Rachel
Like man came up to her.
00:54:54 Rachel
And we're like, oh, so when he asked, where's her husband?
00:54:57 Rachel
You know what?
00:54:57 Rachel
I mean, she's probably like, oh, I don't have.
00:54:59 Rachel
One you know, are you?
00:55:01 Rachel
King and but he shut that down right away, but.
00:55:06 Rachel
So it's likely that she was divorced because she was Baron.
00:55:09 Rachel
And then Samaritans knew there was something wrong with her, like everyone kept divorcing her, so they ostracized her, you know, and they wouldn't anything to do with that, you know.
00:55:19 Rachel
Baron, which woman?
00:55:20 Rachel
Who knows.
00:55:21 Rachel
But anyway, so to say all that Jesus talking to her, he witnesses to her, he he calls it out and and she gets like radically like I you're the Messiah.
00:55:31 Rachel
I am like your.
00:55:34 Rachel
Follow her now you know.
00:55:36 Rachel
And she gets all crazy excited like she's been set free.
00:55:39 Rachel
She runs back to the village and she freaking.
00:55:43 Rachel
Shares the news.
00:55:44 Rachel
Of God with the village and.
00:55:45 Rachel
The whole village is saved because of this woman.
00:55:47 Rachel
This woman's.
00:55:47 Rachel
Testimony and the disciples.
00:55:49 Rachel
Are like Messiah, like, what's going on guy like.
00:55:54 Rachel
This is weird.
00:55:54 Rachel
What's happening, you know.
00:55:55 Rachel
And he was like he literally.
00:55:57 Rachel
Says to them, look at the harvest.
00:56:00 Rachel
Look at the harvest.
00:56:01 Rachel
He's like the.
00:56:03 Rachel
You're gonna reap this harvest that you didn't even sew into.
00:56:06 Rachel
He's like I sewed into it and she sewed into it.
00:56:09 Rachel
You didn't, but you're gonna reap it.
00:56:10 Rachel
In eternity, you know.
00:56:11 Rachel
What I mean and so like the fact that it says even.
00:56:14 Rachel
There is like just.
00:56:15 Rachel
Look, look and see the harvest so you can reap it, you know.
00:56:20 Rachel
So that resonated with me.
00:56:22 Rachel
I was telling us, like, open your eyes and look at the harvest.
00:56:26 Rachel
You know, there is a lot around us, but we're all blind.
00:56:30 Rachel
We can't see it.
00:56:31 Rachel
We can't read what we don't see.
00:56:33 Rachel
And so from.
00:56:34 Fa
That typos are blind.
00:56:35
OK.
00:56:35 Rachel
To it.
00:56:36 Rachel
Yeah, exactly.
00:56:38 Rachel
And it's like, you know, you could say that the woman at the well would be like a person at the gate.
00:56:43 Rachel
It's like they would have wanted nothing to do with her, but look like if you.
00:56:47 Rachel
See her and you actually see.
00:56:49 Rachel
Then people, then the harvest is actually being reaped like then people are getting saved.
00:56:54 Rachel
Then we're doing what we're called to do on this earth.
00:56:56 Rachel
Yeah, but we have to.
00:56:57 Rachel
Not be blind anymore and so that.
00:57:00 Rachel
Was the point where we were like, where our lives changed?
00:57:02 Rachel
Like we are not blind, we're not blind anymore.
00:57:05 Rachel
You know, we were blind.
00:57:08 Rachel
We're not anymore and I'm.
00:57:09 Rachel
Gonna tell you something. We.
00:57:10 Rachel
See a lot of stuff.
00:57:13 Fa
That's for the next episode.
00:57:14 Rachel
That's for the next one.
00:57:16 Rachel
That's too much.
00:57:19 Fa
Yeah. We want to tell.
00:57:20 Fa
What's been happening, even if it's just for our own purposes, because.
00:57:26 Fa
It's just so.
00:57:27 Fa
Much on a daily basis that's happening to us.
00:57:29 Fa
That's crazy.
00:57:31 Fa
Too good to forget because I've had stuff happened to me before.
00:57:35 Fa
But you don't.
00:57:36 Fa
Write it down and you forget.
00:57:37 Fa
You know what I mean.
00:57:38 Fa
Like you don't.
00:57:40 Fa
Keep track of it, but we'll see.
00:57:41
How this goes, yea