In this episode we talk about carrying burdens and how we burden each other instead of giving up our burdens to God. Also, Rachel was involved in a motor vehicle accident.

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00:00:00 Rachel

Welcome to the Guardrail podcast. This is a podcast about what it looks like when you ask God to give you eyes to see and ears to hear. We describe all the many things God has shown us as we pursued A deeper walk with him. I'm Rachel.

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And I'm.

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Talk to any 80 year old, OK.

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And they'll say I'm.

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Young, you know? Yeah. This morning on my way home from work, there's a little bit of an issue.

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A little distraction happened and I I engaged in my first motor vehicle accident.

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Coming off of 12.

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Hours overnights. You know, traffic on the Cape is bad. And what?

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I'm learning is is just.

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Bad all the time.

00:00:46 Fa

Ohh, we're starting to like suck now.

00:00:48 Rachel

Huh. Well, they're doing bridge work.

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And so they have to.

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I don't know. I don't know what to do for the summer. They better get that.

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Crap. Done because.

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It's awful. I may just.

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Need to camp out on the beach and live by the ocean for the whole.

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Summer while I'm.

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There. But anyway, I was at a stop light. No where was I? I don't even know where this is the problem. I'm so tired I don't even know what I was doing. That's why I engaged in a accidental collision.

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Motor vehicle calling.

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It was my.

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Fault as the first time I've ever gotten an accident, but it wasn't really an accident though.

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UM.

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We were in traffic and I didn't see that the car stopped in front of me, but I was going 2 miles an hour, so I bumped the car in.

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Front of me.

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Like I don't I.

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Honestly, wasn't even 100%.

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Sure, I hit her, but well.

00:01:38 Fa

You bend the plate.

00:01:39 Fa

A little bit because I saw that, yeah.

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Did you? Well, anyway, I couldn't even.

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Tell like I slapped on the brakes, obviously. Once I saw the car was moving in front of me.

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But you know what's weird though is.

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Like leading up to that.

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I don't know what what?

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What was causing the? I don't know what I was doing like that. I fell asleep. I don't know.

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What happened but?

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Yeah, I know. I I wasn't even going to tell you, but decided to tell you so bumped the car in front of me and like you know, you send me a break. So I'm like, did I hit the car?

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Or was it just me, like forcefully slamming, you know. But I did hit the car and then she was like, just pull over, you know, cuz we were like in a heavy traffic spot.

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So I pull over her and she gets out and she's.

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Looking at her bumper.

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And she was like I I don't. I don't say I don't see any damage. And she was like, I don't.

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Have time for this explicit word, so just be.

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Careful. And I was like, OK, I'm.

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Sorry, I think I fell asleep. I don't know.

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What happened but anyway?

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All is well. There was no injuries.

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Yeah, I made it out, OK.

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I don't even think I'll have any kind of post traumatic stress because of it. I I think I'm going to be alright and I think the lady in front of me was fine. I think she's just annoyed and I felt bad too.

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Because on her way out.

00:02:57 Fa

Ohh, what kind of car would you drive in? I.

00:02:58 Fa

Never asked you that. I don't know.

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It was green and crap, I don't know.

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Nice piece of.

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OK, I didn't look at her car at.

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All I barely looked up the.

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Road this morning.

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But no, I I felt bad too, because there's, like, a massive pothole, like right in front of her to get on the road. And she like scraped.

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The crap out of the.

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Bottom her car.

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Ohh get out.

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So I'm like jeez.

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This lady is having a bad day like her car is having a bad day already. Yeah, so I kind of felt bad, but I was very grateful that she didn't, like, give me a hard time because there wasn't any damage. I mean, I was like, I don't even see that I hit her car, you know? And I didn't even.

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Notice that my plate was bent. I don't think it is. I think it was like that.

00:03:36 Fa

You wouldn't. You would look at it, not notice, but I notice.

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I think that.

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It was like that you noticed because.

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Have eyes well.

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You care, OK. There's certain things I observe and some things you observe, I guess.

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But all's well, and these are just some fun stories.

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About like Jeff working.

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Little, little, little small talk here.

00:03:57 Fa

Enter is that yeah.

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But anyway, this is a good segue into what we're going to talk about today. Yeah. You know, we're going.

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Hit me with it, yeah.

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To talk about.

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All right, So what we're going to talk.

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About today. All right. So it's kind of.

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Like a back story with this because I feel like all of these visions are like, I'm usually feeling a certain way and I'm talking to God about it and then like.

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I'm like ohh there's.

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Just like God's talking to me, he's telling me why I'm so.

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Distressed or?

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Whatever. I don't know. I'm like God, why? Why is it like this? You know, I equated to be like, you know, as a kid. Like, I feel.

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Or at least is my tendency to be more childlike, and I think it's working with God is like, you know, like kids and toddlers are be like, oh, why why, Dad, why does the sky blue or why is the ground made of dirt, you know? And you're like.

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Right.

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I don't know.

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Just because it is.

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Well, you know, why did you do that? And like, why, why, why, why?

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Everything's a why? Like, I feel like that kid. I feel like that toddler with God. I'm like God.

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Why? Why do?

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Says that.

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I feel like this. Why is this happening? Why is the why this the this guy blue? Why did I hit that Lady today? What?

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Was I doing?

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I don't know.

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So I'm asking God because all right, so here's the situation.

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Prior to what God?

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Showed me.

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I was feeling.

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Horrible and I don't even know a good way to describe it. I was feeling bad and it was because I was having a conversation with a friend and this friend was talking about.

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Like just, I don't know, observations with people we know and and it wasn't even like talking crap. It wasn't even like, ohh. Like, this is just mean, you know, whatever. He's talking about these people we know and like, kind of like analyzing certain behaviors.

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And and I was like, hey, you know, going along and like you kind of agree like I agreed with what was being said because it's like, OK, this is what's happening. It's not even like gossip. It's just blatant. Like, this is they're doing these behaviors.

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You kind of been like again, like, why are they doing that? Like, what's leading them to that, you know, or like, what's happening here? And why are they why are they aligning themselves with these people and this or the outcomes, like, why did this all happen? And we're just talking about it. And again, it wasn't even like we're saying anything bad and.

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You know, I don't have. I I didn't feel like I needed to. Like, repent, like I was gossiping or something. It wasn't like that. It was just like it just made me feel bad. It made me feel like bogged down somehow. And like this person was talking about different things in their life and.

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Which is OK, it just again, it just kind of made me feel like I had too many voices in my head. It was like now I feel like I have the opinion of this person and my own opinion, and I'm trying to hear God and just felt bogged down. I just felt like almost congested and like, like emotionally. Like, I felt like like I needed to be.

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Decompressed kind of. So I don't know.

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If you've ever felt.

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Like that, it's like, you know you.

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Just like almost, like almost stimulated with just.

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Like, you know, things that you have no control over, like other people's behavior or new sad stuff is like you feel bad about certain things. You know, it's like I feel bad that these people are doing this and they don't see that they're doing this. And this is causing XY and Z and they just seem to be blind towards it. And there's nothing I can do to change it and just makes me.

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Feel bad, you know, and so.

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I'm I'm you know, contemplating my life here and like everything else, you know, I'm like God, why?

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Do I feel so?

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Horrible you.

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Know and.

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Like I said, I'm just. I'm praying about this and I'm like, oh, God, I just. I feel like I just need to decompress here. Like, you just need to, like, get all the junk off of me. Like, I feel like I've been vomited on verbally and it was not the intention of the conversation at all. And it's like weird, but you just.

00:07:51 Fa

Right.

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Come away from that.

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Conversation, feeling horrible and like.

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And you don't even know why.

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You know, so that's how I felt and I was asking God about it. And I was just like, oh, man, it's so strange and.

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I started to see.

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This person I was talking to carrying.

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Like stuff with them like, just like ordinance and like, weird nonsense. It was like a pumpkin and it like a little Joker doll and like a bottle of wine. And I saw him like this person come over to my house and like, if he had brought things with him to my house and I saw him come inside and I saw it inside my house, it was like I was.

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Moving there was, like so many boxes inside my house and.

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It was like.

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I'm like packing up stuff and it was just like there was just crap everywhere it was.

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Kind of like.

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You know you're moving. You just things are chaotic and it's just weird. And I saw this person like, talk to me and I was like, talking to them. And then he like this person left.

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All of the the stuff he was carrying at my house. Yeah. And then he left. But he left his this crap at my house like his little Joker doll and the bottle of wine and the pumpkin like thing. I don't want that. And like, why did you leave this, like, almost? You brought a favor over to my house or something like, you know, like your house warming gifts, like, hey, I bought this crap for you. I don't want.

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I'm going to leave it here.

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And so I was like, oh, that's so strange. What am I seeing? You know, I'm praying like, but it's it's weird because I saw and it's almost like I feel like this, like, this is actually, this actually feels like what I and like this I'm seeing this. It feels like what I'm feeling. I don't make sense. What I'm seeing is how I'm feeling. It's like I feel like I have all these boxes in my house and my heart and it's just like.

00:09:28 Fa

Yes it does.

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Stuff, you know I don't want and.

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And I saw Jesus like come over and like he was like helping me pack up boxes.

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And I'm praying about it. And I'm like, oh, God, like, what is going on? What is this crop that he left here and what is going on, you know, and.

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I'm like, you know.

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Talking to Jesus and Jesus in there like he's like, I'm gonna help you move these boxes, Jesus said. And he's like packing stuff up. And I saw, like, weird figurines and ornaments all over, like my counters and.

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Like just stuff from who know.

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Just wear and he's like packing them up in boxes and trying to get rid of them and stuff like we're about to move it all out and declutter my space. And I'm asking God. Yeah, God, please declutter my space like my mind, and my heart feels cluttered right now. Declutter it, you know. And I was like, what is this stuff that he brought here and left here? Like, what does that mean? He was like.

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Right.

00:10:27 Rachel

Don't worry about what?

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It means it's things that he's carrying and he left it with you.

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So things that he's carrying.

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He's leaving behind. He dumped him off at your house. He dumped him off with you. And I was like, oh, that's weird. I'm like, OK, well, I want it, like, get rid of it. You know that little creepy Joker is creepy and I like it here. You know, so even the bottle of wine. I'm like, I don't want that, you know.

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And it seems like that might be a good thing to have, but whatever. So anyway to say that I started to pray into this more and I'm like, why did this happen? What is going on here? What's the dynamic here? And I started to see my house and it was like.

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There was a.

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Porch and I saw there was like a mailman outside and he was carrying boxes and he was like, ringing my doorbell and he was trying to get me to open up the door to deliver these boxes. And Jesus was like, listen, the only boxes that you want come from my hand. Don't open up the door to the mailman. It's like there are people.

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Always try and deliver something to you. Don't open the.

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Rocks and I was like, oh, OK. And I saw, like, outside, I looked outside and there were just freaking boxes everywhere in the yard. Unopened boxes, like cardboard boxes. Like they had something in them. I didn't know what was in them, but there was just, like, boxes falling from the sky like these creatures, like these bird creature demon. Things were like carrying.

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Like delivering like storks. Wow. They were like delivering boxes. They were dumping them all over my yard all over my house. They were like, people were walking on the streets and I saw some lady being squashed by a box. That one dropped on her, just squashed her by this big box.

00:12:04 Fa

Oh yeah.

00:12:07 Rachel

And I saw like somebody I know sitting on a park bench. And like, there were just boxes being delivered to her from everywhere. And this person was just kept opening up these boxes. Inside the boxes were like these little creatures. And they would, like, attack her and, like, scratch her.

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Face and like, get on her hair and like, just just completely mess with her. And. And it was horrible. And like no matter how many boxes she opened with these creatures and she just kept opening boxes, she just kept.

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Gripping open boxes as soon as the boxer comes. You just keep opening it and.

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It all come.

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Out here and I was like, geez God, what is happening? What is going on? Like I said, they.

00:12:44 Fa

Yeah, yeah.

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Were on my roof.

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And and it and it was like I was like, what do these boxes mean?

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And and he was like ohh, these are burdens.

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I was like, they're burdens. He's like, yeah, wow. He's like, the enemy is always trying to burden.

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It's like you're literally getting burdens from every direction, from everywhere you look, you're getting bombarded with burns is like from social media, from the news from each other. You know, just from situations in life. He's like, just don't open the boxes, don't open the boxes and the boxes that were left here.

00:13:11 Fa

Yes, well.

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I'll get rid of them for you. And I was like, oh, OK. And he was like, look, he was, like, picking up this random box in my yard. He was like, look, this one's not even a dress to you. How did.

00:13:35 Fa

Oh yeah.

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You get it.

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Someone left it.

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Here you know.

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Someone left their burden on your doorstep and I saw my my porch had all these burdens, these boxes that I didn't open. I didn't let them side.

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But they're just packing like stock building up on.

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My porch and I was like, geez, what is happening? He was like you guys are always trying to burden each other. You're always taking your burdens to each other when you could just be taking them to.

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Me and he's like, I love getting rid of burdens and he was like, when you let people come in.

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They will leave their burdens with you. He's like, don't take their burdens on the things that they're carrying. They're going to leave with you so that you carry it, he said. But what we're supposed to do is come to me and I will give you rest and ah, my yoke is easy and my burden is light. I'll get rid of your burdens, for you come to me and I'll take care of it.

00:14:27 Rachel

And so I saw him. He's like you. Like you like bonfires, right. And I was like, yeah. So I saw him, like, go in my house and take all these burdens.

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And go over to the fire pit outside and throw them on the fire. And then we're like roasting marshmallows, you know, because I like smores, you know, like any good American, you know, or roasting smores off of these burdens, he's like, man, I'll burn these up any day. He's like, anytime you want me to come and take away your burdens.

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Just come and ask and I saw him like he like changed outfit. He had like this like garbage man outfit on. And he had this huge dump truck where he was just the garbage truck and he was like, I'm going to come and collect all your burdens. He's like I.

00:15:08 Rachel

Love collecting burdens? He's like I will do it any.

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Time and so I saw him come and, like, get all the burdens out of my house and all over my porch and just throw them in the in the, you know, the garbage truck to get rid of.

00:15:19 Rachel

Them. And he was like, let's play baseball.

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And I was like, OK. And he's like here.

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Take a bat.

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And he threw me a box and.

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I just smashed it with the baseball.

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Bat like we're just having fun getting rid of these burdens. He was like man.

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I'm telling you, he's like.

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Everybody is overburdened. He's like you do not have a moment. The the enemy. It's a tactic of the enemy. He's.

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Like, let's bog.

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Everyone down with burdens. Let's make them worry about.

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All of the new.

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World events like hey, you know what's happening now in Saudi Arabia, you freaking 50 years ago, no one knew, really. And but now?

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Everyone knows you know, it's.

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Like you don't need that.

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Jordan, you just don't need it. You don't need to know every fake news nonsense on Facebook and pass it around to each.

00:15:58 Fa

Yeah, yeah.

00:16:05 Rachel

Other like hey.

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Did you hear about like ohh there, the vaccine has.

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Nanobots in it.

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It's going to destroy you and your children. Don't take the vaccine. Let me.

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Forward that to all of my friends, it's like stop burning.

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Each other and just give me your burdens. Take your burdens to me.

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And and that was what was happening. It was like, you know, we were discussing the events of of someone else's life.

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And we just ended up burning ourselves.

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With, with the worry of.

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It and he said just take it to me and I will give you.

00:16:31 Fa

Yeah, well.

00:16:34 Rachel

Rest and.

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And so yeah, I had to repent because of, like, my goodness. Yeah, this makes sense. You know? Like, I feel cluttered. I feel obstructed because I have all these boxes accumulating in my house and they're just things I'm carrying. And I was never meant to be carrying any burdens. Like, I think that's pretty clear about that, you know.

00:16:55 Rachel

Cast all your cares on him, cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you. We don't have to carry this stuff. It's just not something we have to do. And actually I already like. I I want to say this might be like my one of my favorite psalms.

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And it's kind of like a lengthier passage, but it's worth reading, and psalms 55 AM.

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And David's, you know, obviously talking here and says listen to my prayer. Oh God, do not ignore my plea. Hear me. And answer me my thoughts trouble me. And I am distraught because of what my enemy is saying because of the threats of the wicked. For they bring down suffering on me and assail me in their anger. My heart is in anguish within me.

00:17:42 Rachel

The terrors of death have fallen on me. Fear and trembling have beset me. Horror has overwhelmed.

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I said oh, that I would have the wings of a dove. I would fly away and be at rest. I would flee far away and stay in the desert. I would hurry in my place of shelter, far from The Tempest and storm. Lord confuse the wicked, confound their words, for I see violence and strife in the city.

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Day and night, they prowl about on its walls. Malice and abuse are within it. Destructive forces are at work in the city's threats and lies. Never leave its streets.

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If an enemy were insulting me, I could endure it. If a foe were rising against me, I could hide. But it is you. A man like myself, my companion, my close friend, whom with whom I once enjoyed sweet fellowship at the House of God. As we walked about amongst the worshippers. Let death take my enemies by surprise. Let them go down alive in the realm of the dead.

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For evil finds lodging among them. As for me, I call to God.

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And the Lord saves me.

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Evening, morning and noon, I cry out in distress and he hears my voice. He rescues me unharmed from the battle waged against me, even though many oppose me. God, who is enthroned from of old, who does not change. He will hear them and humble them, because they have No Fear of God.

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My companion attacks his friends. He violates his covenant. He his talk is smooth as butter, yet war is in his heart. His words are more soothing than oil, yet they are drawn.

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Lords cast your cares on the Lord and he will sustain you. He will never let the righteous be shaken, but you, God will bring down the wicked into the pit of decay. The bloodthirsty and deceitful will not live half their days.

00:19:34 Rachel

But As for me, I will trust you and like this is the thing like David's having a hard time here. Clearly he's a little burdened.

00:19:42 Fa

Really. Yeah.

00:19:44 Rachel

But he knows what to do, right?

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Cast your cares on the.

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Lord and he will sustain you.

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You will never let the righteous be shaken and that's it. I mean it is. It is simple, but it's hard to do, especially when we are conditioned to carry it. And and we're conditioned to give it to each other.

00:19:59 Fa

Right.

00:20:03 Rachel

And The thing is, is like Galatians talks about, you know, take on each other's burdens, but it's not to keep them.

00:20:03 Fa

Right.

00:20:10 Rachel

Is to help you lift up your burden to God. That's the difference. It's like many hands make light work. So when you're overburdened and you come to me and you say, hey, this is what's going on instead of me harboring it and taking it for you, I'm going to help you lift it up to.

00:20:26 Rachel

God, I'm going to help you. You know, bend at the knees, man. We're going to lift this up together to God and to prayer and. And so like, that's what we're called to do. I think, you know, all the anxiety and the fear and just misery that seems to be plaguing people mentally and emotionally these days, just because we're just constantly bombarded by burdens and it's.

00:20:46 Rachel

They're really smart tactic by the enemy because like who doesn't want to open up a delivery package? You know, like, who doesn't want to open up and see what's inside? Yeah, even if they know what's inside, it's just misery. And so like, anyway, that was what God was showing me about. Like, just, you know, casting my cares on him.

00:21:05 Rachel

You know, I had that conversation with somebody. It was like, OK, I took on that burden, but not to lift it up to God. But just to keep it. And it made me feel miserable and.

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And so now I've learned that. So say if you come to me and you're gonna be like, uh, you know, this is happening.

00:21:21 Rachel

This isn't happening like.

00:21:21 Rachel

OK, no, let's immediately ask God to.

00:21:24

That's right.

00:21:24 Rachel

Take it.

00:21:25 Rachel

Yeah, because I don't want your burden. I don't want your crap. I don't want what you're carrying. I want you to be free of it. That's the goal. I don't want to.

00:21:34 Rachel

Take it on for myself.

00:21:38 Fa

The fact that in your vision.

00:21:41 Fa

Jesus was happy to take your burden says a lot about him. Yeah, he is so good. Yeah, he's just having fun getting rid of your burdens. He's just making you use, like, hit it with a baseball bat, burning it up. And he has a outfit for it and a garbage truck.

00:22:01 Rachel

Yes, just so good. It's kind, it's it's really wild to me because I think you know.

00:22:08 Rachel

Up until this.

00:22:09 Rachel

Point I my you know, you know God is good and you know that he loves.

00:22:13 Rachel

You and these are things you know.

00:22:17 Rachel

Until you really know it, you don't believe it. I mean, you can say you believe it, but your heart doesn't completely comply with. Yeah.

00:22:24 Rachel

What your mind is knowing it's like, well, yeah, I know God's good. And I know he's not, like, disappointed with me, but I don't know that I really.

00:22:31 Rachel

And the more I see, I see Jesus face, the more I see him in these like God shows me him like and. And it's funny because when I say I see Jesus, I do.

00:22:41 Rachel

See him? And he isn't always look the same. Like sometimes he just has different features and I don't know why, but that's just the case for me, but it's like.

00:22:50 Rachel

He is.

00:22:51 Rachel

He is more than happy to be with me.

00:22:54 Rachel

And and even even in his correction. And there's plenty of that. Like, I will, I'm sure I've, I don't even know if I've already. Like. Yeah, I've. I've definitely shared some of, like, the things I'm like, I gotta repent.

00:23:05 Rachel

Even some of the more things that you would think it would be harsher, it feels healthy, it feels good to be corrected by him because it's kind I.

00:23:13 Rachel

Mean the word.

00:23:14 Rachel

Says it's his kindness that brings us to repentance. He's kind, and he's more than happy to take away burdens. It's like easy work for him, you know.

00:23:16 Fa

Exactly, yeah.

00:23:23 Fa

Right.

00:23:24 Rachel

And it's funny because I.

00:23:25 Fa

What's his delight? Yeah, to do things like that for you.

00:23:29 Rachel

Yeah, I mean.

00:23:33 Rachel

Yeah, I mean, he he delights in us. I don't know. It's just kind of wild and you know, like when I'm praying for people.

00:23:41 Rachel

UM.

00:23:43 Rachel

I see his expression for people sometimes, and it's overwhelming to me. Like anyone that has been prayed for me will know, I'll probably start bawling because I'm.

00:23:52 Rachel

Overwhelmed by what?

00:23:54 Rachel

I I think it's what he's feeling. I'm just getting like some small, minute aspect of his emotion for that person and it overwhelms me and I cry like excessively.

00:24:04 Rachel

And and the thing that gets me the most about that is, it is like his he is.

00:24:12 Rachel

I don't know the right way to describe the his expression when he's looking at someone. When I'm praying for him, like for.

00:24:17 Rachel

Instance I was.

00:24:18 Rachel

Friday night or last Friday, I was praying for someone I know and this person.

00:24:25 Rachel

You know, I don't know why I just. I just felt like I had to pray for this person.

00:24:28 Rachel

And so I.

00:24:29 Rachel

Was and the whole the whole scenario.

00:24:33 Rachel

It was like it was like a beautiful love story. It was like this person was sitting and it's actually make me cry now talking about it cause it was just so pure and just full of joy and and and just love. And it was like this person was sitting in a in a field of wildflowers and he was just picking flowers for her.

00:24:53 Rachel

And the way he looked at her.

00:24:55 Rachel

Overwhelms me because it's the way he looks at.

00:24:57 Rachel

Me too. And it was just like adoration in his eyes. It was just wild. And like even in my wildest dreams, I never knew that Jesus.

00:25:05 Rachel

Felt like that.

00:25:06 Rachel

About us, even though the Bible said, and even though we know he went to the cross to die.

00:25:12 Rachel

That makes more sense when I see a glimpse of his face. And when these visions and how he adorns people and how he looks at them. And he's like man, I'll do anything for you. I literally will do anything for you and in the.

00:25:24 Fa

And he has.

00:25:24 Rachel

Point of death.

00:25:25 Rachel

Yeah. Like to death, you know, but.

00:25:30 Rachel

Yeah. So I don't know where I was going with.

00:25:33 Rachel

That initially, but you.

00:25:35 Rachel

Know he's not displeased with us. I feel I always have this, this, this thought that like I'm always wrong. And I always have.

00:25:43 Rachel

To I'm an OG.

00:25:44 Rachel

Would center, you know, like I thought a bad.

00:25:47 Rachel

Thing and I.

00:25:48 Rachel

Said I shouldn't have said that I.

00:25:50 Rachel

Cussed that, you know, like, yeah, most.

00:25:52 Fa

People always think that God's annoyed with them was.

00:25:54 Fa

Like always like.

00:25:56 Fa

It's not, he isn't. He isn't.

00:25:59 Rachel

No, it's wild and like so, yeah, what I was saying is like most of the time when I'm praying for people.

00:26:06 Rachel

It's all about how much he loves that person. It's never like.

00:26:10 Rachel

Oh yeah, you.

00:26:10 Rachel

Got to stop doing this. Don't do that. You, you know, like I said it, that's. I've I've yet to find a like a vision or whatever. When I'm praying for someone that it's like that it's like God says stop doing that. Repent it's and it's not like that even if it is a corrective sort of word.

00:26:21 Fa

I yeah, I don't need. Yeah.

00:26:28 Rachel

You wouldn't even know it. I'm.

00:26:29 Rachel

Like, Oh my God, I.

00:26:30 Rachel

Think that was like a.

00:26:30 Rachel

Corrective thing, but you wouldn't know it because it's in his kindness.

00:26:34 Rachel

He's not doing it to make you feel like crap about yourself. He's.

00:26:37 Rachel

Doing it because.

00:26:38 Rachel

He actually wants.

00:26:38 Rachel

You feel good to repent? You know it's a healthy choice.

00:26:43 Fa

Well, yeah, the way he he sees it is like you're.

00:26:47 Fa

Sending or you doing this thing you're it causes your suffer. He doesn't want you to suffer. He doesn't want you to suffer. And he's like, let me get this in off of you because I want.

00:26:51 Rachel

Yeah. Yeah, it's true, right?

00:26:57 Fa

You to feel.

00:26:58 Fa

Good. Yeah, I.

00:27:00 Fa

Yeah, his whole thing is like I died for you. So you know, I don't. I don't.

00:27:03 Fa

Want you to.

00:27:04 Fa

Live this way. Yeah. And get the shame off of you. Let me get this depression off of you. This.

00:27:08 Fa

All these things.

00:27:09 Fa

Are not from me, right? Like he didn't die.

00:27:11 Fa

For you to feel that way.

00:27:13 Fa

Yeah, you're actually negating his work on the cross when you walk around feeling.

00:27:20 Fa

Ashamed or burdened? And this and that. You just eat.

00:27:24 Fa

Anytime he's just feeling, he just waiting for you to make a decision. So you could, you know, get rid.

00:27:28 Fa

Of all that crap that's on you.

00:27:30 Rachel

Yeah, it's true.

00:27:32 Fa

It makes you wonder about people who.

00:27:37 Fa

And Brazilian and we have a lot of prophets.

00:27:41 Fa

You didn't mean.

00:27:41 Fa

Like our church is all about the prophets.

00:27:43 Fa

You know like.

00:27:44 Fa

Yeah, churches. I grew up with.

00:27:46 Fa

And you know, people have to go see a prophet like, say, a bunch of crap about other people. You didn't mean, like, can't you know those really, really bad words and those revelations from God or whatever? And it's like, I've just. I've seen so many people.

00:27:54 Rachel

That's it, yeah.

00:27:59 Fa

Say so many nasty things about people that are just in this service or whatever.

00:28:04 Fa

It's like, oh, God sees you doing this and that you.

00:28:04 Rachel

Yeah, that's that's terrifying.

00:28:06 Fa

You gotta stop.

00:28:07 Fa

People like.

00:28:09 Rachel

Oh my God.

00:28:09 Fa

Like where is that now you know.

00:28:12 Fa

As a God, I don't know, but now seeing how you know.

00:28:17 Fa

Watching like the way God deals with people like I don't think those God, you know what I mean? Like you could have a spirit on to you that will reveal things that you know people are doing in behind closed doors or whatever. But I.

00:28:28 Fa

Don't think that comes from God? It doesn't. Yeah, I don't think it.

00:28:31 Rachel

Does. That's interesting. Yeah. I don't know. I do think if you hold.

00:28:37 Rachel

I mean, I don't know. We all been taught whatever. And the Bible talks about different stuff with this. But like, you know, I mean, you look at the prophets in the old.

00:28:43 Rachel

Testament, it's.

00:28:44 Rachel

Like they weren't saying nice things or popular things to the Israelis.

00:28:49 Rachel

So I think if you hold the House of the Prophet.

00:28:52 Rachel

Like you're like a prophet like.

00:28:54 Rachel

It's legit or something. I don't know who decides it but.

00:28:57 Fa

Like I told you today, like I told you today, this is exactly why I married you. Because.

00:28:57

That's a prophet.

00:29:00 Rachel

You get away with that.

00:29:03 Fa

You think good.

00:29:06 Fa

You could live.

00:29:06 Rachel

And smart.

00:29:08 Fa

You could Live Today.

00:29:11 Fa

In the Old Testament, if you want to, you know, be like, some people choose to live that way. Some people choose to live under.

00:29:20 Fa

The law or whatever, and, you know, prophets are like back then. They're they're nasty, you know, like.

00:29:27 Fa

They were well.

00:29:28 Fa

Not everybody, but you know.

00:29:29 Rachel

Yeah, I mean, what I was trying to say about that though, is like, OK, you're.

00:29:33 Rachel

But from what we have as an example is like if you hold the House of a prophet right, then you're going to get words that are unfavorable for the population. So like you know, you have the, it's almost like condemning words or whatever, I don't know. I mean, I've not studied this and there are people who know more than I do.

00:29:48 Fa

All right.

00:29:54 Rachel

Got it. But you know, whatever it's like. Oh, then it's like it's OK. Like, if you're, like a legit a prophet.

00:30:00 Rachel

Then OK then it's.

00:30:01 Rachel

Maybe it's not going to be all.

00:30:03 Rachel

Rainbows and kittens.

00:30:04 Rachel

Or whatever. You know what I mean?

00:30:08 Rachel

Again, I don't know enough to really speak about that, but what I've been told is that you have people who are prophets and then you have prophetic words and prophetic utterances. And that's like, you know, should be according to the word.

00:30:22 Rachel

Exhortation, encouragement, edification. These things should be if you're going to get a prophetic word for somebody.

00:30:28 Rachel

There should be those things edifying.

00:30:30 Rachel

Sorting and encouragement. If it's not, then you're going to have to go ask God if you should be telling that to that person because it could be more damage than good, you know.

00:30:36 Fa

Yeah, because some people. Yeah. Some people just pick the first one. Exhortation, you know?

00:30:41 Rachel

What I mean, yeah, I I don't know. Here's my my thing on it. And I'm not saying I I'm not. I don't know what you want to call it. You can call it whatever you want to. If I pray for somebody, I at first ask the Holy Spirit, Holy Spirit. What are you trying to say here? And then I see stuff and I repeat it.

00:30:57 Rachel

And I hope and pray and faith that I was seeing what God was telling me, and it's it's all that's that's it.

00:31:02 Rachel

And so if you want to call that.

00:31:03 Fa

Well, have you ever been wrong? Do you think that you. Ever.

00:31:07 Rachel

I don't know. Maybe there are times I don't.

00:31:08 Fa

No, no, no. I can tell you that like you haven't you know, I mean like if you pray that way, like Holy Spirit, show me, Holy Spirit, what do you wanna say about? It's never wrong. It's never wrong.

00:31:09 Rachel

Understand it.

00:31:19 Rachel

Well, I mean, there is a human.

00:31:20 Rachel

Factor in it.

00:31:21 Fa

There is, yeah, but you know like.

00:31:24 Rachel

I think still, even with the human factor, maybe I misunderstand you.

00:31:27 Fa

Yeah, but you we have to remember, it's like you have the Holy Spirit talking to you and he's saying, you know, he's showing you things. But the Holy Spirit is also talking to the other person, you know, I mean there there's like a.

00:31:39 Fa

There is a work of the Holy Spirit being done in both parties. You know what I mean? Like what you may get wrong. The Holy Spirit on the other person.

00:31:50 Fa

Corrects it it's.

00:31:51 Rachel

That's true. That's true. And actually like I've had, I've prayed for somebody where I saw them. I I didn't know what it meant. I was not given an explanation. I was like, I just see you standing on a mountain like enjoying.

00:32:02 Rachel

The views, yeah.

00:32:04 Rachel

I don't know.

00:32:05 Rachel

What that means, you know? And I'm like, kind of like poking around and like, God, you know, show him new things, you know, blah, blah blah.

00:32:11 Rachel

And I didn't really. I didn't feel like I was on point with that. But later on I learned that, like, God spoke to him, what he needed to hear. And it wasn't really about me, you know, and what I was interpreting of it, he got the right interpretation because the whole spirit was speaking to his heart. So I saw that the Holy Spirit was speaking to him. So no worries that I didn't maybe get it right or.

00:32:22 Fa

Exactly, yeah.

00:32:31 Rachel

Whatever it was, I'm not sure what happened there. It. But you know, when you were relying on the Holy Spirit and you're asking for his will, not yours, then you're going to get it. You're going to get his.

00:32:40 Rachel

Will and that's what you ultimately.

00:32:42 Rachel

One, but you know I I don't know. I mean, there's this is the thing with the prophetic words for people and stuff. It's like OK, say you are a prophet and God is telling you some like wild things about somebody maybe you.

00:32:55 Rachel

Know I've had.

00:32:56 Rachel

I've seen people been like not receiving encouraging words, but they were right.

00:33:02 Rachel

Like you're doing this, you're doing that.

00:33:03 Rachel

You know, it's like this guy's like, Oh my.

00:33:06 Rachel

You know, as we say in Christendom, reading their mail, you know it's.

00:33:11 Rachel

Like that guy?

00:33:12 Rachel

Read that dude mail. You know what?

00:33:13 Rachel

I mean, like he knew what?

00:33:15 Rachel

He was doing in the secret of bad secret stuff, you know? And he said it and and then and.

00:33:22 Rachel

Then like it was right?

00:33:24 Rachel

But was it?

00:33:26 Rachel

An appropriate time to just like, read this dude's mail in front of the whole congregation and make in like, embarrass him. I don't know.

00:33:35 Rachel

So like there's a.

00:33:36 Rachel

Whole aspect of like hey, you may know something, but should you say it right now? I don't know. So maybe that's part of what you were experiencing in Brazil.

00:33:43 Fa

I yeah, I certainly and I know this like God knows me.

00:33:45 Rachel

It's kind of like well.

00:33:49 Fa

UM.

00:33:51 Fa

Don't show me something you don't want me to say. Hear me? Because.

00:33:53 Rachel

Ah well.

00:33:54 Fa

I will say it.

00:33:55 Fa

I have like, I'm not going to say I have no filter. I'm going to say that.

00:33:59 Fa

You know I.

00:34:01 Fa

I'm a little dumb sometimes, you know, mean like don't show me some stuff that you don't want me.

00:34:05 Rachel

I think.

00:34:05 Fa

To say because I will say it.

00:34:07 Rachel

So not to be saying you're dumb, but I think that's part of it. Like you'll say something and then later like ohh.

00:34:13 Rachel

That's what. OK. Maybe I shouldn't have said. It's like you say it without thinking. I guess that's probably what that means. No filter. But it's like you see something from God and then it's.

00:34:19 Fa

Yeah, I it's.

00:34:21 Rachel

Like, oh wait.

00:34:22 Rachel

A minute I've.

00:34:23 Fa

Had this conversation with God, I was like, don't.

00:34:24

Just like.

00:34:26 Rachel

Don't show me.

00:34:27 Rachel

Stuff that you don't want me to say.

00:34:27 Fa

Show me some.

00:34:28 Fa

Yeah, because it it it. It was funny. And I I felt that God said I won't. You need to be like because he because he knows you because he knows you. Can I say that thing I said the other day?

00:34:37 Rachel

Yeah, know what?

00:34:44 Fa

No, it's not nothing bad. But remember last meeting we had, I was telling everybody that, you know, I was in the shower and God was talking to me about.

00:34:51 Fa

Him knowing what I'm like, you know what I mean?

00:34:54 Rachel

Ohh yeah, go ahead.

00:34:56 Fa

Because so. So I was in the shower and two Fridays ago I was getting ready for our meeting. Where or whatever. And I.

00:35:09 Fa

So that day I had like, a really good prayer time in my car. Once I dropped the girls off from to like, I dropped them off at school and I, you know, I drove home. Whatever. So I'm in the car and I'm like, I have 40 minutes before I have to work. So I'm going to pray now. And I did. And the prayer time was really, really good.

00:35:29 Fa

Inside the car for 40 minutes.

00:35:32 Fa

The rest of that week, my prayer time wasn't great.

00:35:36 Fa

Because, you know, sometimes you pray you see a lot of stuff, sometimes you you pray and it's just like work, you know, I mean, yeah, but that prayer time was really good in the car, so I think.

00:35:48 Fa

Had he's he's sleep talking, I think what I got from that week was like.

00:35:54 Fa

I'm gonna pray in the morning because in the morning I'm fresh and I'm not tired cause I've been praying at night and at night, just like I'm tired.

00:36:00 Fa

You know it's.

00:36:01 Fa

Not as good of a prayer.

00:36:03 Fa

But you know, I was like that day of this. I was like.

00:36:05 Fa

I'm just gonna pray in the mornings.

00:36:07 Fa

And that's going to be good.

00:36:10 Fa

So I'm in the shower that afternoon.

00:36:13 Fa

And, you know, just God just starts talking.

00:36:15 Fa

To me, yeah.

00:36:17 Fa

And he was like, oh, you, we had the impressions. Like, I really like your plan here. Like, you know, pray in the morning.

00:36:25 Fa

You feel better or whatever.

00:36:27 Fa

And I'm like, OK.

00:36:29 Fa

So I felt like God said pray during the week, take the weekends off.

00:36:34 Fa

And I'm like.

00:36:36 Fa

I'm like, OK.

00:36:38 Fa

So some like, OK, OK, good, I'll do that.

00:36:44 Fa

But The thing is.

00:36:47 Fa

Me right, I like.

00:36:50 Fa

I like like.

00:36:51 Fa

I like making lists and I like checking things off the list in my mind, right? Like I gotta get this, this, this, this done before I pray and then I can have a.

00:37:02 Fa

Good time praying.

00:37:04 Fa

And then the enemy is like ohh you.

00:37:06 Fa

Know you don't.

00:37:07 Fa

That's not right. The enemy is like you, not. That's not right. I just felt like the enemy. Say, say that to me. It's like that's not right. You can't.

00:37:13 Fa

Do that to.

00:37:14 Fa

God, you can't just do your things first and then come to God and whatever you know, I mean, and then have your birth time.

00:37:21 Fa

And then God told me he's like, no, that's exactly who you are. It's like you. You like doing that. Like, that's how your mind works. You. You like taking care of things, and then you do the good things last. You know what I mean?

00:37:36 Fa

And I was like, man, God's like you could cause when you have kids, right? You can observe what your kids are like and you gotta treat them differently because they're different. You know, they're different people that have.

00:37:49 Fa

Their own, yeah.

00:37:50 Fa

Identity or God show me that in that moment, like I accept you.

00:37:55 Fa

Doing what you want to do this way because it's who you are and that's how it made you. It's like God's like God telling me these things in the shower. I'm not even praise. Like, that's that's how I made you. If you want to check a couple of things off your list before you come and pray with me and be with me, it's I accept that. It's completely fine. You don't have to follow other people's rules.

00:38:16 Fa

About things you know me like you do your own thing, you do your, you know.

00:38:22 Fa

You kind of like you, follow your nature and that's pleasing to God, like you, you.

00:38:30 Fa

You know your your personality and how God made you instead of following some somebody else's list of things, you gotta check out whatever it's pleasing to God. He loves you. That way. You know, I mean, like he.

00:38:45 Rachel

He delights in that. Yeah. Yeah, it it's it's crazy about that because I could tell you a half a dozen pastors I've heard in my life tell me that.

00:38:55 Rachel

You have to wake up and pray right away.

00:38:58 Rachel

You have to give your first fruits to him.

00:39:00 Rachel

And give it everything you.

00:39:01 Rachel

You know, and that and that really not that that's wrong per say, but like every relationship is different. So like what works in our marriage doesn't work in someone else's marriage. And why is that wrong to look different and to do what is right with your relationship with God you know? And like, yeah. Like it's kind of like I quit how you are. It's almost like if you.

00:39:23 Rachel

You know, you put a nice juicy steak and then.

00:39:27 Rachel

Brussels sprouts and then like mashed potatoes? Well, for me, I would eat the Brussels sprouts first. I enjoy that least. And then I would take my time with the mashed potatoes and I would eat the steak last because that's the best part. And it's the same thing with you.

00:39:36 Fa

Exactly. Exactly. Yeah.

00:39:41 Fa

As I was saying that I thought that's one of the things that came to my.

00:39:45 Fa

Mind like.

00:39:45 Fa

When I eat, I go around my plate eating the worst 1st and save.

00:39:50 Fa

The best for last.

00:39:51 Rachel

Yeah, and guess what? It's OK, that's OK.

00:39:54

Like God's not gonna like you.

00:39:56 Fa

Wretched soul. What does this sound like when people are like you have to pray like that? You have to do it sound like.

00:40:03 Fa

Religion. Yeah, well, that's.

00:40:04 Fa

And you, you know what are the religions out there where people are like, you know, four times a day? You gotta pray for. You gotta do this, you know, I mean like.

00:40:12 Fa

When the bell rings, you gotta, you know, perform. You gotta pray you.

00:40:15 Fa

Gotta do that all.

00:40:15 Rachel

That's right. Yeah, it's us religion, it's religion and you know.

00:40:20 Rachel

Yeah, I mean it's religion and like I went, I went to.

00:40:25 Rachel

I went to the factory where religious people are made and in my time there.

00:40:31 Rachel

I learned that like that's what you do. You wake up and you give your first morning moments with Jesus, and then you sacrifice all day long. I remember, like, going to Chapel one day and listening to.

00:40:46 Rachel

Some guy talk about, like how you shouldn't watch TV anymore and like, you can't watch movies and this and that, which incidentally, now I don't do that, but not because I was told I have to do it. It was a choice I made because I want.

00:41:01 Rachel

To and not that it's wrong to watch TV or movies. It's not. And I remember at the.

00:41:07 Rachel

Time I was like, what the?

00:41:09 Rachel

What the crap is this? You know, it's like I can't even have any enjoyment now. Like I can't watch anything. I can't do anything to relax. I can't. You know this and that.

00:41:19 Rachel

It is the thing religion will tell you what you have to do. Jesus will ask you, what do you want to do here? You know, like the relationship is about you and him. So you have to go to Jesus.

00:41:28 Rachel

Be like what works for us.

00:41:31 Rachel

Now what? What works for Rachel and you and.

00:41:34 Rachel

What works for?

00:41:35 Rachel

FAI and you? Jesus. What works for you and I. What do you want to see happen here? What? How does our marriage work? How does our relationship work? And that's OK. And and that's healthy because like I have not met a husband and wife.

00:41:51 Rachel

That have boasted of a successful marriage, copying the marriage of their friend and his wife. Yeah, it it doesn't work. They're different people. It's a different relationship.

00:42:00 Fa

Some things say true, but yeah, there's you.

00:42:03 Fa

Know the details, Stan.

00:42:03 Rachel

I mean, there's fundamental truths like hey.

00:42:07

Yeah, there's fundamental.

00:42:08 Rachel

Truths in all marriage and relationships like OK, you're going to be married. Don't cheat on that person. You know, like love them this and that, you know, be committed. Same thing with God. Like the others fundamental truths here that don't really change as far as relationships go. It's like, yeah, love the Lord your God with all your heart, soul and.

00:42:24 Rachel

Mind lean not on your own understanding. That's a fundamental thing. Like don't have any other gods.

00:42:29 Rachel

Before him. Yep, and commandments all day long. Don't deviate from that.

00:42:33 Fa

Yeah, let's not be crazy here, guys. Not going to ask you or allow you to do something that's clear.

00:42:38 Rachel

Yeah, yeah, not contrary to his word. Please refer to.

00:42:41 Rachel

The Bible if you're.

00:42:43 Rachel

Used. Yeah, like God's not gonna be like, hey, it's OK for you to go shoot that person. They deserve it, you know?

00:42:49 Rachel

Like, no, not like.

00:42:50 Rachel

That that's not what we're.

00:42:50 Fa

That's not the words of God. You need medication.

00:42:52 Rachel

Saying yeah, that's the devil.

00:42:57 Fa

It's such a good dog. I love this.

00:42:59 Rachel

Yeah, I don't know how we ended up over here in this topic from burdens, but.

00:43:07 Rachel

No later please.

00:43:07 Fa

It's so good. Come on.

00:43:08 Fa

He goes with this so well.

00:43:12 Rachel

UM.

00:43:15 Rachel

I feel like I did.

00:43:15 Fa

Talk about that already. I'd do it again.

00:43:19 Rachel

Well, OK. Well, it kind of goes into a different subject matter as far as my visions.

00:43:24 Fa

Go well. Just tell the honey.

00:43:26 Rachel

Part. All right. And then I guess I'll reference it next podcast. But yeah, so.

00:43:34 Rachel

I I don't know. I was praying and I was like, God, I just. I want as much of you as I can humanly have on this earth. That is what I want. Take me from glory to glory. Like I want all that I can have here of you. As close as I humanly can be to you. That is what I want. And as I was doing that and my hands were lifted and I was like crying.

00:43:55 Rachel

So I was like, it was like a.

00:43:57 Rachel

In his presence and moment, you know.

00:43:59 Rachel

And I'm smelling.

00:44:00 Rachel

His presence and what I saw was him.

00:44:02 Rachel

Like reaching down from.

00:44:04 Rachel

Heaven and slobbing like thick.

00:44:08 Rachel

Substance on my hands and my palms on my hands. Yeah. And I realized it was honey. It was like look like honey. It was dripping from my hands. And it was just like the cover coated my hands with honey from heaven.

00:44:19 Rachel

And I was.

00:44:19 Rachel

Like, whoa, that's interesting. And I'm praying like I'm seeing this and I don't know what it means. And I I I start to see myself like trying to get in my house.

00:44:29 Rachel

With honey.

00:44:29 Rachel

Hands and I. So I opened the door and like obviously I have to touch the handle of the door to open up the door to my house. I touch it and I get honey all over the doorknob and everything. And I go inside and I'm like, you know, leaning on the couch and I get honey all over the couch. And then my daughter comes up to me and and wants to hug me. So I hug her. I get honey all over her back, and I get it on their hair because I started touching her.

00:44:49 Rachel

Hair just as like a motherly thing. Like you touch their hair and then she got angry at me because I got honey all over hair and messed up her hair like.

00:44:56 Rachel

Nodded everything and.

00:44:58 Rachel

Then I go over to the cabinets of my in my kitchen and I'm trying to get in the cabinet. So I touched the cabinet knobs and there's just honey, every it's sticky, it's everywhere. And I'm like, what is happening? What does this mean?

00:45:08 Rachel

And as I looked down.

00:45:08 Rachel

At my hands, there was like.

00:45:11 Rachel

Hair and the honey and like dirt, you know, because I had touched my kids hair and doorknobs and everything else. I picked up stuff. Because honey is sticky and so I was like, oh, I kind of. I went away from that like.

00:45:23 Rachel

Not feeling great because I'm like, geez, I contaminated the honey and I saw, like, our meetings too. And I saw myself going over to, like, somebody's leg who had, like, a wound in it. And I touched the wound and put honey on the wound because, you know, honey has heat.

00:45:38 Rachel

Properties and so I'm like, I don't know what this means. Like I don't want to contaminate. I went away the whole week feeling bad because I was like, I don't want to contaminate this good gift that you've given me. God like what? I don't want to dirty this gift.

00:45:51 Rachel

And like screw it.

00:45:52 Rachel

Up like I want to screw up what you're doing.

00:45:54 Rachel

You know, and so.

00:45:57 Rachel

I'm. I'm praying about this and and I and this is a different vision for a different day. But you know, he takes me to this place and we're talking. And so I asked him, like God, what was the honey? What is the honey represent? And he was like the honey is a.

00:46:12 Rachel

Gift and like what is? He's like these revelations, you know, it's revelations it's it's the visions. It's it's a gift. It's just a gift. I'm giving you a gift.

00:46:21 Rachel

And I was like, OK, like, what am I supposed to do with it?

00:46:25 Rachel

And and he's like, whatever you want. I was like, what do you mean? Whatever I want. He's like, it's a gift. Do you give gifts?

00:46:32 Rachel

And tell people what to do with them.

00:46:35 Rachel

And I was like, no, he's like I.

00:46:36 Rachel

Don't either like.

00:46:37 Rachel

I just give you gifts because I want to.

00:46:38 Rachel

Give you good gifts. Yeah, like I just enjoy you enjoying.

00:46:42 Rachel

The Hon.

00:46:44 Rachel

He's like you can do whatever you want with it. He's like you want to.

00:46:46 Rachel

Put it on.

00:46:46 Rachel

Wounds and heal.

00:46:47 Rachel

Wounds with it.

00:46:48 Rachel

Sure you want.

00:46:49 Rachel

To eat.

00:46:49 Rachel

It for yourself. Fine. Do you want to share it? Fine. You want to sell it? Put it in a bottle and sell it. Do it. It's your gift. It's your free to do whatever you want with the gifts I give you.

00:47:00 Rachel

And I was like, that's a wild concept to me.

00:47:04 Fa

What? Where do we learn the opposite? Like, why? Why? Why is our the default the opposite?

00:47:08 Rachel

Church religion like you gotta.

00:47:10 Fa

There it is.

00:47:13 Rachel

You better go out and.

00:47:14 Rachel

Tell everybody about this, honey, you.

00:47:15 Rachel

Know whatever when God's like. No, it's cool. Like it's a gift and you and you told me that there's many more gifts. It's like you want more. Honey. I'll give you money.

00:47:23 Rachel

And I was like, OK, and then I was like.

00:47:24 Rachel

Wait. God like what?

00:47:26 Rachel

About the hair and the the dirt and the honey. Like I screwed up the honey. I made it gross and like I contaminate it with like my humanity, you know? Yeah. That hair in it. It's aspects of me and my kid and my family in my house. I was touching things with it. I don't want to ruin what you've given me.

00:47:42 Rachel

I don't want to make it worse or contaminate it.

00:47:46 Rachel

And he was like.

00:47:47

He's like.

00:47:48 Rachel

I'm not threatened when you're wrong.

00:47:52 Rachel

He's like.

00:47:54 Rachel

You know, if you get it wrong.

00:47:57 Rachel

It's not a big deal.

00:47:59 Rachel

He's like, do you, do you make a big deal out of? I have the perfect example for this now. So, Lily, well, first I'll finish with that. He's like, do you get upset with your daughter if she comes to you with this idea that isn't quite right, but, you know, she's a little wrong, but.

00:48:17 Rachel

You don't need to correct everything that they're wrong in. They'll figure it out on their own. Yeah. Is it? It would be a problem if she stays like that and doesn't learn or grow. But you know that naturally, she will grow and mature and she'll find out the real truth. And that's OK to let that happen without you correcting everything. Some things aren't worth being corrected.

00:48:25 Fa

Yeah. Hmm.

00:48:38 Rachel

Right. And he was like, same with me. He's like I'm.

00:48:40 Rachel

Not threatened when you get it a little wrong.

00:48:42 Rachel

And he said the problem is is when you refuse to grow or when you refuse to learn, that's a problem. But he said that's not your case. You'll grow and you'll learn. And what you knew yesterday, tomorrow you might be like, well, I was kind of right, but now I didn't understand. It's actually this. And like that is OK because it's a part of a growing process. It's healthy.

00:49:01 Fa

That's healthy.

00:49:02 Rachel

Growth and and I have a perfect example for that because Lily was like she comes to me and she's like Mommy. When I grow up, I'm going to be a babysitter because they make a lot of money.

00:49:11 Rachel

And it's a really fun job. Like, that's what I want to do when I grow up.

00:49:15 Rachel

And I was like, really like, yeah, they make a lot.

00:49:18 Rachel

Of money. And I was like.

00:49:19 Rachel

OK. Like we all know, babysitters don't make money. Like, come on.

00:49:24

What am I?

00:49:24 Rachel

Going to say that to her? No.

00:49:25 Rachel

Why? Because she's going to learn.

00:49:28 Rachel

She'll learn and figure out.

00:49:29 Rachel

The babysitters make like $9 an hour.

00:49:32 Rachel

So you live in.

00:49:33 Rachel

A rich area of town, you.

00:49:34 Rachel

Make it more you know, but.

00:49:37 Rachel

So it's kind of like that, right?

00:49:39 Rachel

And so he was like.

00:49:41 Rachel

I'm not threatened by the hair and I'm not threatened by the dirt, and he's like, I'm not threatened by your humanity. He's like those things make you human. And he's like, I actually really like humans.

00:49:52 Rachel

I created you and like if.

00:49:54 Rachel

You forget in the garden, I said it was good. I created Adam and Eve. I breathe life into them. I said this is good.

00:50:01 Rachel

He's like humanity is good. He's like your flesh in sin nature.

00:50:05 Rachel

That's bad, but he said you have freedom from the flesh. Now I have died on the cross, so you may have freedom from your sinful flesh, so you may have to deal with the flesh and tell it where to go. Which.

00:50:17 Rachel

And starve it.

00:50:19 Rachel

But that is not who you are anymore. Your humanity is and always will be good. And so I'm not threatened by dirt or hair, dirt and hair. And the honey. And he's.

00:50:28 Rachel

Like a little.

00:50:29 Rachel

Dirt, a little hair and never hurt anybody. If you ate that, it wouldn't hurt.

00:50:33 Rachel

Honey still tastes sweet.

00:50:35 Rachel

So that kind of blew my mind.

00:50:37 Fa

This is beautiful.

00:50:37 Rachel

Just because of so.

00:50:39 Rachel

Many things I've been taught in the past about how well you know, you have to make sure you're perfect and make sure you know like you have it all set you know.

00:50:49 Fa

Pretend everything's fine.

00:50:51 Rachel

God knows where we're going to.

00:50:52 Rachel

Get things wrong, you know, maybe you know.

00:50:55 Rachel

Five years from now, I'm gonna listen to this podcast. Be like she didn't know she was talking.

00:50:58 Rachel

About, you know, and that's.

00:50:59 Rachel

OK, because it's a process. And if God's patient with me.

00:51:02 Rachel

I can be patient with me too.

00:51:06 Rachel

And that just goes into our how God views us and how his relationship with us is not condemning. It's not harsh. It's not like how we've been told it has been or how the enemy will lie to us about. That's the thing. The enemy is always there to reinforce.

00:51:20 Rachel

All of the bad.

00:51:22 Rachel

Thoughts and perceptions we have. Oh, he'll lie to you all day.

00:51:24 Fa

Ohh yeah, this favorite thing.

00:51:27 Rachel

Long about Jesus.

00:51:28 Rachel

And about God so.

00:51:31 Rachel

You know, it's it's kind of how how this goes, but God's not threatened by, you know, things that you make make us unique in our humanity and and. And you know, if we get things wrong. Yeah. I don't remember why you wanted me to talk about.

00:51:43 Rachel

This now I feel like we went down.

00:51:44 Fa

Because that goes well with.

00:51:46 Fa

You know what God told me in the shower that you know he appreciate it. You gotta go because the battery is like at 3.

00:51:49 Rachel

Oh yeah, like unique.

00:51:52 Rachel

Percent. Alright. Thanks for listening. Yeah, TuneIn next.

00:51:54 Fa

I'm scared, everyone.

00:51:57 Rachel

Week. Yeah. Have a good week. Bye.

00:51:59 Fa

Thanks. Thanks for listening. This was awesome. This episode was awesome. Bye, everybody.