Episode 2 - Idols
Episode 2 - Idols
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Welcome to the Guard Vale podcast where I don't know anything about anything, but God is definitely doing something and we're here to talk about it. I’m Rachel
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And I'm Fa.
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All right, take 3.
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Welcome, welcome back.
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Can I say your names?
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Yeah, some like secret.
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Secret messaging people.
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No, we are OK.
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Uh, welcome back to.
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Fun radio, radio, whatever we're called.
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The podcast.
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Why don't you give a little recap of what?
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We talked about.
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Last time I don't.
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Remember much?
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OK, well, I don't either, but.
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We talked about.
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Or trip to.
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Tennessee, yes.
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On the conference, we talked about the things that were happening when we came back and how God's been.
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Cleaning up our lives, removing idols, opening our eyes.
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Yeah, yeah, the movie Nidos is now.
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Well, no, it's.
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I guess so.
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Well, he did remove some iOS so.
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Yeah, for sure.
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It's a part of the process.
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It's a process thing.
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It was actually.
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We did talk about that because we talked about the alcohol.
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And we did.
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We talked about that.
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Yeah, that's true.
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Yeah, you're not incorrect and I didn't do anything, but yeah, so we left off with me talking about God healing us of our blindness, blind eyes.
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So don't nod your head at it.
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No more blind eyes, so you can see stuff.
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So when you start to see stuff you actually start to like, see stuff and it's kind of incredible.
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Because things that you were living with and you know OK with, uh, all of us.
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And you're like, oh, wait, that's not we're not supposed to be doing that or that's not right or Oh my God.
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Like, there's important things I've been missing this whole time, including people that we've been ignoring and like.
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You know.
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Not ministering to when they were like right in front of us, basically asking us to Minister to them, right.
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That's kind of what we talked about last.
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Time. But uhm.
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It's kind of funny.
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So like when you're starting to see things now in God's bringing things.
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Well, here's the thing.
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Like, you're blind, but like, then you could see.
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And now you wanna see.
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So like, you're in.
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In the secret places with God more, and he starts to speak to you more.
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So the more you want, the more.
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You get the more you get, the more you want, so it's kind of like a a cycle is what I'm I'm experiencing.
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I think, right?
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So here's the thing.
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Like you and I, we just kind of like stepped into ministry, which I don't know if we talked about that.
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Or not we didn't podcast.
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I was just thinking about that when we're going to talk about the meetings.
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Maybe you should mention it, yeah.
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Go ahead. So.
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Uh, a bit after we came back from Tennessee.
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Our old passers, like we should.
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You guys should start a Home group or whatever.
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And we did.
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And we ask God who shall come, and God's been showing us who to invite, right?
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Ah, not only that.
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Every time someone comes, there's like we see a lot of things about the person or.
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Whatever or.
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Not bad things.
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Just, you know, good things that things that guy wants to deal with and we.
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Minister to them. Which?
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I guess what my point is.
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UM.
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It's been easy because God shows you and it's been good because, you know just God gives you everything.
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That you need to measure so we don't have to work so hard.
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It's just it's just been so good.
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If you catch what I'm saying, you know, I mean.
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Yeah, yeah.
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Well, yeah, I don't know.
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I think about, I think, about Gino all the time from last meeting.
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He was.
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That was so good.
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It's OK.
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People don't know.
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Who do you know it it?
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They do, I don't know.
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Yeah, no.
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So we started, like, doing these Home group, whatever they're called.
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I don't know what it.
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Is but like we share what God's.
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Been talking to.
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Us for that week and like we do some worship and then we just pray for people and it's been.
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And what people have been saying to us is like, oh, you know, now you're stepping into this ministry role, make sure you're, like on your guard because the enemy likes to come after you.
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And you know, now you've been like a target basically is on your back.
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And so like we've been.
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You know.
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I mean praying about that and different things.
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But so like that kind of led to me feeling sort of like, uh, like, worried because up until this point, the way I viewed my life was in different segregated like boxes type of thing so.
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Yeah, that word.
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Like work was work OK, we're doing these home churches, whatever type of vibe meeting, that's that.
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And then like, families, family.
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Like I don't know.
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I was like not that.
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Not that I like everything kind of intertwines.
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But you know, you have categories so like work was a category I didn't like consider work ministry right.
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Right, right. Yeah, so.
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Uhm, here's the thing.
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I was starting to get worried.
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I guess that, like maybe the enemy would attack me at work, like maybe now I've put myself in a vulnerable position at work, which I think if you're, if you're someone that like, I don't know.
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Doesn't have the same kind of job I do.
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Maybe you wouldn't think like that automatically, but I'm a nurse.
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Right, yeah.
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And so like, I literally deal with life and death daily and the decisions that I make could put someone into, you know, threatening situations with their life.
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You know, like, if I choose.
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To you know, I don't know.
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There's so many things.
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I mean, there's the things that nurses do.
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People don't really understand unless you are actually a nurse.
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But the stress level, the weight of that that you carry and the responsibility is not like anything else unless you're in the medical field, you don't know.
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And so, like, I don't want to put myself in vulnerable positions with the enemy.
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That work, right?
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So my automatically my mind goes to like Oh my God, like, you know, hopefully doesn't attack me, like at work.
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Because like it's so stressful there already.
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Like, I don't need any other.
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Problems, you know.
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So I like.
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I guess I started.
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Praying into that.
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And I remember like that week, there was that one song from, like, what are they called?
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Maverick city.
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Like, wait on you.
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That song that they sang it in church that Sunday and.
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Up at this point, I was like praying about work and like, you know.
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God being with me at work and stuff like that as like a fear.
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Prayer like a A.
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Prayer based in fear, where it's kind of like, oh, you know, like make sure and everyone's stable today.
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God, you know, like make sure it's a fair assignment.
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So it's not just horrible, you know, hopefully no one dies, that kind of thing.
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Give me wisdom so.
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I kept he like singing that song all week and hearing that song wait on you and I was.
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Like, where is that even from?
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Uh, so I like Googled it as I do all of these things because apparently I don't know the Bible.
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Well enough to.
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It's not what stuff is, but it's in Isaiah, right Isaiah 40.
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I think like like 3031 something like that.
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About waiting on God and.
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You know, he'll renew your strength and I don't think that I really understood what waiting on God really meant.
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But anyway, I kept hearing that song and thinking about it and what I've learned through all of this is that sometimes the Holy Spirit gives you these little threads and you need to pull on them, you know, and like, I've really like.
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Right.
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Done a better job now at paying attention to these threads that I need to pull on because like I have this song in my head.
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Maybe it's there for a reason.
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Maybe I need to like kind of investigate a little bit more than just kind of brushing it.
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But anyway, that verse like so 40 Isaiah 40 you got like 28 through 31 is like do you not know have you not heard the Lord is the everlasting God the creator of the ends of the earth.
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He will not grow tired or weary, and his understanding no one can fathom.
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He gives strength to the weary, increases the power of the weak.
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Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall.
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But those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength.
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They will soar on wings like Eagles.
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They will run and not go weary.
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They will walk and not be faint.
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UM, so I remember reading that and be like I don't. I don't get it, you know, like, OK, hope on the Lord.
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You hope?
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What does that mean to hope in the Lord?
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OK, I like.
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OK, I hope that God like shows up today.
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I don't.
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I don't know what that means.
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You know, like hoping God alone.
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So, yeah, I hope in God like but to me, like, up until this point.
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Just a word.
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Like OK, I hope in God.
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I hope God, you know, gives me.
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You know, extra money this week.
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You know.
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What does it mean?
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I don't know.
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It's just a word to me, you know?
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So I was actually praying about that cause I really did feel like God was trying to tell me something in this.
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UM, but.
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You know, I haven't got anything for a while.
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Until I feel like the Holy Spirit was telling me, said like it's not.
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Is so much hope use a different word.
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What else is hope more like?
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What are your?
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Expectations like I think I Googled, what hope really means and one of the other words for it was like expectations.
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So what are your expectations like my expectations are in God, so help me kind of process that word a little bit better and what it meant.
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But it's more or less.
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Else, are you putting your expectations in?
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So it's like, yeah, I hope in God, I expect God to do things like, yeah, he's he's good.
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Oh yeah.
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But what else am I putting my hope in?
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What else am I putting my expectations in?
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That is causing the problem, actually.
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And UM.
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It's funny because the verse it says so like if you put your hoping God you will soar on wings like Eagles.
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You're running, not grow weary.
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You'll walk and not be faint.
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So when you put your expectations in other things that can't possibly be the case, right.
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And God, like you know, reminded me of the verse and proverbs.
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Uh, probably 1312 UM of course. Now I'm not.
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Going to be able to like remember what it is, but.
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Uh, it's like hope deferred.
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Makes the heart sick, right? And UM.
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Like like a hope fulfilled is a tree of life.
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So both of these things kind of equate to.
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Like feeling awesome.
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You know when your hope is in God, when your hope is in the right place or your expectations are in the right place.
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UM.
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You grow a tree of life inside you or you you run and not grow weary.
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You know you soar on like eels, wings and stuff like, yeah, I want to see some Eagles and I want to ride on the backs.
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Of Eagles like.
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You know, so, but this is the point though, is what I'm trying to say is like, OK, when you're hoping your expectation is in God, these things happen.
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The problem is is what else is your hope and your expectation in and I think God started showing me that my my expectations were in work, so like I was looking to work for some kind of fulfillment.
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And so that's why I immediately I became worried that like, oh, no, like if I step into ministry, like I'm gonna become a target and like, is anything making sense.
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I don't know.
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I'm going to become like a target at work, but if you're worshipping work, then yeah, you're going to have a problem because it's going to say that, like, your hope will be deferred.
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Because the only the only place that you can put your hope in and you can find safety in that is in God.
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You know what, I.
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Right.
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So if your hope and your expectations aren't things that are not God, then you're going to be disappointed.
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The verse tells you you like, expect your heart to be sick because it's not going to fulfill you, and it's not going to fulfill your expectations.
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So for me, I think I was putting a lot of stock and a lot of hope and.
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Expectations in work.
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To be.
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Somehow fulfilling of something.
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So when I shifted my expectations from work and I realized that no, I don't worship work.
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I worship God.
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That's when things started changing for me at work and I started to not be afraid of consequences at work of my ministry.
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Does that make sense?
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It does.
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You're afraid the devil would.
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Your work to hurt you because you're doing ministry, but you put your expectations on God.
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Things get changed, right?
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You don't.
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Walk around in fear anymore as the year.
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It doesn't really matter because I don't worship work anymore.
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Yeah, it doesn't matter.
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Like that's the thing.
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If you put your expectations and God and means you're taking your expectations off of something else.
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And so if you're not putting any hope or anything in and work in the 1st place, you don't really have anything to lose.
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It doesn't really matter.
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I'm going to be sitting on my Eagles riding on their backs while you know the enemy tries to shoot arrows at me.
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Doesn't matter.
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I'm on the freaking eagle, you know, like I'm soaring right now.
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It doesn't matter because my hope, my expectation.
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My worship is going towards one God, not two gods, you know, and I mean, the Bible is pretty clear about that.
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And like you not to worship any other gods and we don't realize what is an idol in our lives sometimes.
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Yes, I yeah, today I had this.
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Conversation with myself last spring and that you don't expect things to be an.
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Idle, but they are.
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When you think about idols, you immediately go to I.
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You know, people would worship other gods back in the day, like they would make a golden calf for this and that.
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Right.
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But our idols today are different, like your idol could be your phone, your idol could be your child or your work.
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Or whatever, yeah.
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And you know, as long as you have two gods.
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It's kind of tricky because.
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You think you're safe or whatever, but you're not, yeah.
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Here, here's the thing like you know.
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God told me.
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This a while ago.
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Like I used to lead worship.
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At a church.
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You know, for the last nine years will last.
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Well, not these recent years, but like it was like 9 years.
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I mean, no, I've been leading worship in church since I.
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Was 17, so it's been more than.
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That, but as a steady role of like I went to church every Sunday and I.
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Did this as.
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A city.
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This is what I did there.
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I was a worship leader.
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God told me back then this was years ago, but I clearly didn't like totally catch on until like now.
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But there was a point there where, like, I didn't want to.
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Go to church.
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For church or like to be there for the right reasons, I wanted to go to church, to lead worship like I loved it.
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I loved learning leading worship.
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I I still do.
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I love worshipping God, but at some point there was some transition from like worshipping God to just worshiping the act of worshiping like that's kind of where it went for me.
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And there was a lot of like, I don't know, it was hard.
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Like when your focus is all messed up and you're all messed up, it's harder, obviously.
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So there was like a lot of problems on the worship team.
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It just wasn't right.
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Something was, it was clearly off balance in me.
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I was off balance and God showed me he was like well.
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He's like when you worship idols and you worship something that's not God, you're always going to have a bad time.
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It's always going to be bad for you and it's because all their idols, you're always going to have to be proving your worth to it because you just are.
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You're always going to be striving when you're worshipping other things.
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Other gods, other idols other than the hammer, you are always going to struggle and you're always going to have to strive for its approval and you're never going to get it.
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Yeah, they're performance based.
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That's why you have to keep striving, because you're not going to get its approval because it's not a God.
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But when you worship God our God, the one true God.
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He's the one that declares you worthy, so you don't have to struggle.
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You don't have to put up that fight because God's already done the work for you has already declared you worthy.
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And that's the difference.
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That's the difference between your heart being sick or when you have a freaking tree of life inside you.
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Right.
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Or when you're soaring on wings of Eagles or when you're, you know, worshiping these like, you know.
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Baseless gods as like the Babylonians is Isaiah is talking to Israel because they they're in captivity.
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Right, yeah.
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I mean, they're under the Babylonian rule or whatever, and these these gods were the Babylonian gods were like like people pretty much that they fought with each other and they try to trick each other all the time.
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They would one up each other when he's talking about like, oh, you know, like our God doesn't grow tired or weary.
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Like he's referencing that because they're gods did and they had to like, eat and like, you know, rest and stuff.
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And he's like, yo, these gods aren't the real deal, but when you're worshipping these gods, you're going to have a bad time.
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But when you're worshipping our God, here's the difference.
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You're on a, you know, on the on the evils soaring.
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High in the sky.
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You know what I'm saying?
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Right, yeah.
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So I mean the point of all this.
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Was that God was showing?
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Me that my heart was divided.
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You know, I was worshipping work, which mentally I didn't think that I was, but I didn't realize that my hope, my expectation, was in what work could tell me about.
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Myself, you know.
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Like oh, if I'm successful at work, then I feel successful.
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The same person?
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That's not.
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That's not right.
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That's off.
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That's off the hinges right there.
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That the only one that should make me feel worthy is God the father because he's declared me worthy.
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Right.
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Idols will always attack your identity.
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Yeah, but they always make you.
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Prove yourself of what you are when God just tells you who you are, yeah.
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Right.
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And that's why like you know.
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We put our hope in idles, our hope, gets deferred and our heart gets sick.
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Right, yeah.
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And it's pretty like self-explanatory, but you know, when I made that, I made a conscious decision like, OK, you know what?
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I don't work.
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To work and I worship God, so I need to just divert my hope.
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My expectations back on God where it belongs, and he's my only God, and he's the only one I'm going to worship that started changing things for me and especially at work.
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And it's funny, because even the way I viewed.
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Work and how I?
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Felt about it completely changed too.
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God started showing me like so.
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Like one thing happened at work and.
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I won't go into.
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Details because it's like against the law.
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But you know.
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There was, there was a patient there that was very ill and I I felt that.
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What was being done was not enough.
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And it wasn't like it was very, very.
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Far from being enough for this.
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Poor patient, who was very, very sick and on the brink of death.
00:19:52 Fa
Right.
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And so I'm advocating for my patient.
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I'm trying to get the doctor involved more involved, I should say.
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And like, you know, this and that right, doing everything I can.
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I was in that room for hours.
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Trying to stabilize this patient, which I don't work in the Ed, so that shouldn't have been like they should have already been stable by the time they came to.
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Me they weren't.
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Right.
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So it it took a lot of.
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My time and energy, right?
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Of course, like I work overnights, so like I don't usually see management.
00:20:24 Rachel
But for whatever reason, management decided to show up like 6:00 AM when I was still there.
00:20:30 Fa
Right.
00:20:30 Rachel
Walk in that room and see that I didn't update my name on.
00:20:34 Rachel
The the whiteboard.
00:20:35 Rachel
And I didn't update anything because I was so far behind with all my other six patients that I that was like the last of my priorities on my priority list.
00:20:46 Rachel
And as a nurse, if you're a nurse, you know you have your priorities and what you need to get done 1st.
00:20:51 Rachel
And it just wasn't on that and that could care less about it and UM.
00:20:55 Rachel
So anyway, she comes, you know, on a war path, basically trying to find me because I'm some kind of like, you know, in her mind, I don't know whatever bad nurses are to managers and don't white do their white boards.
00:21:10 Rachel
But anyway, I had this other nurse who was trying to help me.
00:21:13 Rachel
She was actually doing resource that night.
00:21:15 Rachel
Charge and she defended me.
00:21:19 Rachel
She like you know, she actually was.
00:21:22 Rachel
She told me she was very like.
00:21:26 Rachel
Abrupt with the manager because you know everyone had enough at that point.
00:21:30 Rachel
Like, it's ridiculous.
00:21:31 Rachel
Like she's like.
00:21:31 Fa
So the manager came over to yell at you because you didn't put something on the board.
00:21:34 Rachel
The manager tried to look for me.
00:21:35 Rachel
He couldn't find me and then she tried to go find because I was busy.
00:21:39 Rachel
I was trying to medicate my other.
00:21:40 Rachel
Patients so that I couldn't get.
00:21:41 Rachel
To you in those.
00:21:42 Rachel
Hours and she couldn't find me because I was in the room, probably in a COVID room or.
00:21:47 Rachel
And so she went after the charge and told her that the charge had to like, you know, make sure that I was doing was supposed to do and like, I need to be educated as what she said.
00:21:57 Rachel
And so that nurse, the charge nurse, like, let her have it. She's like, Rachel's been in this room for three.
00:22:02 Rachel
Hours, blah, blah blah blah, you know, like went.
00:22:04 Fa
Trying to save this person.
00:22:04 Rachel
After, yeah, like.
00:22:06 Rachel
Trying to do what no one else would do for this poor patient and UM, you know the manager backed off and realized that, OK, you.
00:22:13 Rachel
Know you know, whatever, right?
00:22:18 Rachel
I was praying like days later about work and whatever and he was like God spoke to me.
00:22:25 Rachel
He was like, you know.
00:22:26 Rachel
You don't really need.
00:22:29 Rachel
You, you know, you're charging her, so I won't say her name to defend you at work.
00:22:33 Rachel
I can defend you because I'll go with you, you know.
00:22:37 Fa
Right. Awesome.
00:22:38 Rachel
And I was like, oh wait, God will go with me at work, even though it's like not church or like ministry and and he was like.
00:22:46 Rachel
Your work is your ministry.
00:22:48 Rachel
It's not separate.
00:22:49 Rachel
And I'm with you wherever you go.
00:22:53 Rachel
So at work, I'm your defender and you know all those nurses.
00:22:57 Rachel
There are all fed up with everything because every nurse, everywhere, in every hospital.
00:23:03 Rachel
On the earth is fed up with everything.
00:23:06 Rachel
So like naturally, everyone's fed up and they're just wishing for it to get better.
00:23:11 Rachel
And he was like, you're the answer to their prayers because I'm with you.
00:23:17 Rachel
It's like you're going to go to these hospitals and you're going to go in there and you're going to be the hope that these people are praying for, you're going to be, you know, their peace, and you're going to change the atmosphere.
00:23:28 Rachel
Because I'm with you.
00:23:29 Rachel
Because you finally don't worship where you worship me and I'm the one that's going with you into these places.
00:23:35 Rachel
Work is your ministry now.
00:23:37 Rachel
Being a nurse, as your ministry and it totally changed my attitude about it because for me up at that point like like I said, everyone's fed up, everyone's sick of it and being abused to every possible degree.
00:23:48 Rachel
As a nurse, you know everyone's sick of that and you know, I remember, like saying, like, I don't know how long I'll.
00:23:54 Rachel
Be a nurse.
00:23:55 Rachel
Blah blah blah. But.
00:23:57 Rachel
Like God was showing me, he's like, no, this is this is your ministry.
00:24:02 Rachel
You know, this is what I've called you to for this time.
00:24:05 Rachel
You know, why are you praying that you can just survive it?
00:24:08 Rachel
Instead, pray that like this is the most incredible.
00:24:11 Rachel
Like, you know.
00:24:13 Rachel
Like harvest reaping field, you have, like pray that it's more powerful than this.
00:24:18 Rachel
They pray that it's more effective than you're just trying to survive these shifts.
00:24:21 Rachel
Pray that you go in changing lives, you know, being the hope that they're asking for being the change in the atmosphere because you carry my presence with you.
00:24:30 Rachel
You're changing the atmosphere because God's presence changes atmospheres.
00:24:33 Rachel
It's like starting to change the way I feel about work and as a nurse and and not that I see, you know, nursing as like a paycheck anymore.
00:24:41 Rachel
Like because you you get so beat down as a nurse, eventually you're just like, OK, I'm doing it because like it's too late to go be a hairdresser.
00:24:48 Rachel
You know what?
00:24:49 Rachel
I mean.
00:24:49 Rachel
Like so, but like, you know, just having my, like my love.
00:24:53 Rachel
The people and may need to help people revived again because God is the one doing that inside, you know.
00:24:59 Fa
Yeah, yeah.
00:25:00 Rachel
So up until this point, I've kept things segregated, but God's like. No, no, no.
00:25:04 Rachel
It's it's all your ministry.
00:25:05 Rachel
Because I'm going with you everywhere that you are and God showed me that he.
00:25:09 Rachel
To me, not just me being at work with like him being at work with me, but also like I'm at home and I'm doing the dishes.
00:25:17 Rachel
He's right there doing the dishes with me.
00:25:19 Rachel
Like when you start to see without blind eyes, you actually start to see you start to see what's actually happening and what God really intends for your life.
00:25:28 Rachel
I'm like doing the dishes and God and Jesus is doing the dishes with me.
00:25:31 Rachel
Or like we're outside and I'm trying to plan my garden.
00:25:34 Rachel
Jesus out there trying to help me plan my garden.
00:25:36 Rachel
You know, I'm in my car trying to pick up the girls from school.
00:25:36 Fa
Right.
00:25:39 Rachel
He's in the car with me.
00:25:41 Rachel
You know, from beginning to the end, there was never there was never.
00:25:43 Rachel
He was never intended our lives to be segregated where it's like, OK Jesus is.
00:25:50 Rachel
I'm gonna have 45 minutes with Jesus that night, and then I'm gonna watch TV after and that's it.
00:25:56 Rachel
Right.
00:25:56 Rachel
And then like in the morning, I do this and that and that and this.
00:25:59 Rachel
And I go to church on Sundays, that's.
00:26:01 Rachel
This time, like it was never meant to be segregated or separate.
00:26:05 Rachel
Jesus is intended to be with us throughout our whole day, in every aspect of our day, like our lives, our ministry, every matter is a spiritual matter.
00:26:13 Fa
Yes, yes.
00:26:14 Rachel
And so when your eyes are open and you see.
00:26:17 Rachel
Uh, your life has changed and it's like the way I feel about work now is completely different than how I felt about it.
00:26:23 Rachel
You know, three months ago and and I.
00:26:26 Fa
For four years, every time you went to work, you were scared.
00:26:29 Fa
A little bit.
00:26:30 Rachel
Well, yeah, but that's.
00:26:31 Fa
Like having a bad night and this and.
00:26:33 Rachel
That, yeah, I mean.
00:26:36 Rachel
You know, that's part of some of it, but I mean, you gotta be.
00:26:40 Rachel
I mean, there's a lot of things that could happen.
00:26:42 Rachel
You gotta be careful, but.
00:26:43 Rachel
I always pray that like.
00:26:45 Rachel
You know, I have a good night, even.
00:26:47 Rachel
Even though Jesus is with.
00:26:48 Rachel
Now you know I'm saying.
00:26:49 Rachel
Yeah, but.
00:26:52 Rachel
I'll say this like in the last month, I've gotten more uh, like compliments from my patients than I have in less.
00:27:01 Rachel
I mean, I've always had compliments from.
00:27:03 Rachel
My patients cause.
00:27:03 Rachel
I'm nice to people.
00:27:04 Rachel
Why would I?
00:27:04 Rachel
Be mean to.
00:27:05 Rachel
Them, you know, but it's just even like after this, after I've made a a chosen decision.
00:27:12 Rachel
Like, of course it's a chosen decision, but I mean like it's an, it's a deliberate decision that I'm not going to put my hope and my expectation and work anymore and I'm putting it in God that like work is far better for me now.
00:27:24 Rachel
It's like I mean work is crappy, you know, in the in the sense that.
00:27:27 Rachel
Like it's it is what?
00:27:28 Rachel
It is but.
00:27:31 Rachel
It's far more like I don't even know, fulfilling in a way or or more like effective like I've had patients like crying, thanking me for being their nurse, you know, like like, I'm just saying it's been kicked up in high gear now it's like, Oh my gosh.
00:27:49 Rachel
Like every every patients like complimented me on my nursing skills like thank you.
00:27:54 Rachel
Let me know what it is.
00:27:55 Rachel
It's like, see.
00:27:56 Rachel
Jesus with me.
00:27:57 Fa
Yes, I was about to say that, yeah.
00:27:57 Rachel
And that's the difference.
00:27:58 Rachel
That's the difference.
00:27:59 Rachel
Because God's with me and I'm allowing him to be with me and I'm allowing him to influence my work.
00:28:04 Rachel
It's all about what we're allowing God to do in our lives like God wants to do it.
00:28:08 Rachel
But are you, like looking for it?
00:28:10 Rachel
Are you asking for it?
00:28:11 Rachel
Are you letting it happen?
00:28:14 Rachel
And once I made that decision to let God be a part of my work life, that's when my work life blossomed.
00:28:20 Rachel
It's blossoming.
00:28:21 Rachel
Now is what I can say and that's what I prayed too.
00:28:23 Rachel
It's like, stop praying that you just survive.
00:28:25 Rachel
Things you know, pray that you thrived in them, you know, like I'm thriving now and it's because I'm not worshiping work.
00:28:26 Fa
Right.
00:28:34 Rachel
I'm worshiping God.
00:28:35 Rachel
I'm on the on the freaking Eagles up in that hospital.
00:28:38 Rachel
You know, we're just riding them through the halls, you know?
00:28:43 Fa
Yeah, it's a very different.
00:28:48 Fa
Perspective of you know when you're.
00:28:52 Fa
On the corner, afraid of everything in your, you know, just praying that you survived the night versus.
00:28:58 Fa
You're seeing everything from.
00:29:01 Fa
Up above and you know.
00:29:03 Fa
That's just helping you.
00:29:04 Fa
Jesus is just.
00:29:05 Fa
Helping you with everything.
00:29:06 Rachel
Yeah, I think that, I mean, the enemy is very deliberate.
00:29:10 Rachel
In keeping things.
00:29:13 Rachel
Hidden from us, you know, like it's no no coincidence that we were blind.
00:29:18 Rachel
You know what I mean.
00:29:18 Rachel
And we could just kind of like then we just kind of did whatever and, like, made you believe.
00:29:22 Rachel
You know about stuff like oh.
00:29:25 Rachel
Like I was believing that, like, if I really surrender my my life to God and and really just completely, actively engage in the in the ministry that we're all called to by.
00:29:35 Rachel
The way that like things would get really crappy for me and and like people will say that though like they'll be like, oh, you'll get attacked.
00:29:42 Rachel
But yeah, of course.
00:29:43 Rachel
But also we have a defender, you know, like we have the Holy Spirit.
00:29:47 Rachel
We also have prayer and angels and these things all are to combat the enemy who is always been there, who's always had us in traps and snares.
00:29:57 Rachel
Made our lives difficult, you know that's not new.
00:30:00 Rachel
The enemy will, like, try to, like, make you think that like.
00:30:05 Rachel
I don't even know like things that really aren't big deals or big deals or like they just have no misbelief all the time about your own life.
00:30:12 Rachel
It's kind of weird.
00:30:14 Rachel
How they'll make for you?
00:30:14 Fa
Like an illusionist will tell you to look at something.
00:30:18 Fa
And then do something else, yeah.
00:30:20 Rachel
It's like, what's that?
00:30:21 Rachel
Movie The Wizard of Oz where like the.
00:30:24 Fa
They'll look behind them.
00:30:25 Rachel
Yeah, don't look behind the curtain.
00:30:26 Rachel
Yeah, it's always that it's always like, oh, yeah, that's actually not that.
00:30:29 Fa
One thing I see repeatedly when I pray is little angels covering us with their wings, like when we're praying or whatever.
00:30:39 Fa
When we ministry where I see you sitting in your chair in our living room, playing and and your angels just covering you like nothing can tell you nothing.
00:30:48 Fa
And touch you.
00:30:50 Fa
Uh, yeah.
00:30:53 Rachel
It's true.
00:30:53 Fa
Another thing too is I I.
00:30:58 Fa
I don't know that I agree with people that you know your administrator.
00:31:00 Fa
You're going to be attacked like you're Christian.
00:31:02 Fa
You will be attacked, but it may not be as intense because you know, if you're just sitting.
00:31:10 Fa
You know, in a church seat every Sunday, whatever the Devil's not too.
00:31:15 Fa
Interested with you, but.
00:31:17 Fa
Of course, if you are in ministry, he's gonna, you know, try and stop.
00:31:22 Fa
But there's also the fact that if you don't.
00:31:26 Fa
Step out into your destiny.
00:31:29 Fa
Right.
00:31:30 Fa
You're going to lead a crappy life.
00:31:32 Fa
So which would you rather have?
00:31:34 Fa
Like you?
00:31:34 Fa
Would you rather have, like, a vibrant ministry where, you know people are going to tell you that the devil's going to come after you?
00:31:41 Fa
Or would you rather be deceived and?
00:31:44 Fa
Just sit in the church.
00:31:46 Fa
He would not do anything either demean.
00:31:47 Rachel
Right.
00:31:48 Rachel
I mean either way, the enemy is already like.
00:31:51 Fa
Yeah, you know, it's a different fight, but it's not.
00:31:51 Rachel
It's attached.
00:31:54 Fa
It doesn't mean it's.
00:31:54 Rachel
Worse, and it's not like the I don't know.
00:31:57 Rachel
I guess the enemy would have you believe that, like, OK, you know, newer, I hear people say that all time like.
00:32:02 Rachel
Newer levels, you know.
00:32:03 Fa
New devils?
00:32:05 Rachel
Like, OK, but like, you're not alone.
00:32:07 Rachel
Like the like.
00:32:08 Rachel
God doesn't just.
00:32:08 Rachel
Set you up to fail.
00:32:11 Fa
Don't they?
00:32:11 Fa
Here's what I've been trying to say for a long.
00:32:13 Fa
But I I just couldn't you?
00:32:19 Fa
I don't. I don't think the devil ever holds back from trying to destroy you. Ohh yeah, I don't think he is at 30%.
00:32:29 Fa
Attacking you just because.
00:32:31 Fa
You go to church and you sit there and you don't do anything but all of a sudden you're preaching. He's attacking you at 100%. He wants to destroy you.
00:32:40 Fa
Anytime, anytime, because he knows that.
00:32:47 Fa
I don't know a message or.
00:32:50 Fa
A friend or something?
00:32:53 Fa
Or a word from God could completely change your life or whatever.
00:32:57 Fa
And then you go from just being there to being like a powerful person in the presence of God.
00:33:03 Fa
So he's going to try.
00:33:04 Fa
To get you.
00:33:06 Fa
Before that happens, I think he's always trying to look to destroy us.
00:33:11 Rachel
Yeah, I think that's probably true.
00:33:14 Rachel
I mean, it is true.
00:33:14 Rachel
I know that that's true.
00:33:16 Rachel
I mean, there's plenty of people who are not.
00:33:17 Rachel
Saved who?
00:33:18 Rachel
Are very oppressed.
00:33:20 Rachel
And yeah, under like the enemies snares and whatever else.
00:33:25 Rachel
And it's kind of like, I don't know if I should share it or not.
00:33:27 Rachel
I guess I probably can.
00:33:28 Rachel
I guess it doesn't really.
00:33:29 Rachel
It's not like a part of a timeline type of thing.
00:33:31 Rachel
But UM.
00:33:35 Rachel
The God showed me the other day.
00:33:37 Rachel
Well, I still like 2 weeks ago now, but God showed me like I was outside walking.
00:33:44 Rachel
And I was like going to feed the chickens or something like that.
00:33:48 Rachel
I don't know.
00:33:48 Rachel
I was doing.
00:33:49 Rachel
But like in what I was seeing in my mind was like a very, like, creepy.
00:33:56 Rachel
Outside backyard look, it was like.
00:33:59 Rachel
This the sky was filled with like creatures and like flying creatures you know and like what I presume are demons.
00:34:09 Rachel
Like there was filled like the the sky was so filled with demons, like flying ones that it looked like it was dark outside, like, but it wasn't.
00:34:16 Rachel
It was the middle of the day and they were just like flying around.
00:34:20 Rachel
Pooping all over the place, looking for somebody to attack?
00:34:23 Rachel
Basically and.
00:34:26 Rachel
I like saw myself walking.
00:34:31 Rachel
And UM.
00:34:32 Rachel
But, and I wasn't attacked because I had, like, an Angel with me and he was like a big Angel with, like, you know, he had weapons on him.
00:34:40 Rachel
And then like the air above my head and like around me, it was like a bubble almost where these things couldn't attack my head.
00:34:46 Rachel
And this is what they were doing, like people were walking and doing like normal stuff in life.
00:34:51 Rachel
And these creatures were just like.
00:34:53 Rachel
Pecking the crap out of their head and like pulling their hair and like tormenting people and like, you know, latching onto their backs and like scraping their backs and, like, just harassing people and but like, I wasn't being harassed because I was.
00:35:07 Rachel
Protected and I also saw, like my German shepherd, which eventually I'll I'll talk about that, but I don't actually have a German shepherd, but.
00:35:16 Rachel
In Spirit world, I do.
00:35:18 Fa
Stay tuned.
00:35:19 Fa
Stay tuned for that.
00:35:20 Fa
Yeah, but I.
00:35:22 Rachel
Saw my dog.
00:35:23 Rachel
And like one of these demons were like following me because it was like waiting for its moment.
00:35:27 Rachel
Like, that's what they do.
00:35:28 Rachel
They wait for their moments, you know, and it got too close.
00:35:31 Rachel
And my dog, like, just ripped it up and eat it, you know?
00:35:35 Rachel
And so anyway.
00:35:36 Rachel
Like I was.
00:35:37 Rachel
I mean, like, people are on air attack all the time.
00:35:39 Rachel
Like you can't survive this earth like when.
00:35:41 Rachel
You see that kind of stuff.
00:35:43 Rachel
UM, you realize that you cannot.
00:35:46 Rachel
You can't survive this world without the Holy Spirit, without protection, without prayer, without covering.
00:35:52 Rachel
Without the angels surrounding you because they're everywhere and they're looking for anybody, they can get their hands on for sure.
00:35:53 Fa
Right.
00:35:59 Rachel
Like they're opportunistic and they're everywhere.
00:36:02 Fa
Right, yeah.
00:36:02 Rachel
Like legit?
00:36:03 Rachel
It looked like something from the apocalypse, which incidentally I can say apocalypse, but I can't say apocalyptic.
00:36:10 Rachel
Yeah, for whatever reason, I can't say that word.
00:36:13 Rachel
I can say apocalypse.
00:36:17 Rachel
So like, it's like people are on pills.
00:36:18 Rachel
And whatever else.
00:36:19 Rachel
And this is a.
00:36:19 Rachel
Bold statement.
00:36:20 Rachel
You know it's not.
00:36:22 Rachel
I'm not trying to generalize things, but I would.
00:36:24 Rachel
Say people are on pills.
00:36:24 Fa
Take your pills if you're ever.
00:36:26 Rachel
To numb that crap, to try to drown it out.
00:36:29 Rachel
If you don't have God, what else do you have but your pills?
00:36:32 Rachel
You know, to drown out that you don't have any protection.
00:36:35 Rachel
You're totally vulnerable.
00:36:36 Rachel
And that's what I saw.
00:36:37 Rachel
You know, like people were vulnerable.
00:36:38 Rachel
So I don't think that they're like looking specifically for certain people.
00:36:42 Rachel
They're looking for anybody to destroy.
00:36:44 Fa
Right, right.
00:36:46 Fa
Like I said, I don't.
00:36:47 Fa
I don't think it's ever.
00:36:49 Fa
You know he the devil's not going through throttle, you know, I mean, like he wants to destroy anyone.
00:36:52 Rachel
Mm-hmm. Yeah.
00:36:55 Fa
Anything can be destroyed.
00:36:58 Fa
You know, if you're a God's creation, which is everything he's looking to destroy.
00:37:06 Rachel
It's true.
00:37:08 Rachel
Yeah, I agree with that.
00:37:09 Fa
Where else are we going?
00:37:10 Fa
What else happened?
00:37:15 Rachel
You tell me what God's showing you.
00:37:18 Fa
UM.
00:37:20 Fa
He put me on the spot.
00:37:21 Fa
Now I don't remember that far back because we're.
00:37:25 Fa
Going back lots of weeks.
00:37:30 Fa
Will mostly God shows me is.
00:37:34 Fa
People that are coming and when we're here and we're praying.
00:37:39 Fa
God is God will show me something about a person.
00:37:42 Fa
Give him a word or.
00:37:43 Fa
Whatever he isn't giving me revelations like he's giving you, at least not stuff that is that I could tell.
00:37:54 Fa
He did show things about my life, like the whole story that I told you.
00:38:01 Rachel
Why don't you share that?
00:38:04 Fa
I did see because I wanted.
00:38:07 Fa
I wanted to get on the same path as you, right?
00:38:11 Fa
You know, start hearing from God and start, you know, being closer to Jesus.
00:38:15 Fa
I just don't think I put as much time into it as you do.
00:38:19 Fa
You know what?
00:38:20 Fa
Mean because whatever free time you have, you're you're praying and you're doing this.
00:38:25 Fa
And I need to start doing that.
00:38:27 Rachel
Yeah, here's the thing.
00:38:28 Rachel
Like, if you want more revelation from God, if you want more of God, you have to spend time with God.
00:38:34 Rachel
You know it has to be like a deliberate decision.
00:38:37 Rachel
Like that's I don't want anything else anymore in my life.
00:38:40 Rachel
I don't want.
00:38:40 Rachel
I'm so I don't want to go back to being complacent and indifferent to the point where I'm running full force.
00:38:47 Rachel
The head towards God, like I can't settle for anything less at this.
00:38:53 Rachel
My goal is to get as close to God in Jesus as as humanly possible on this earth, like you know.
00:39:00 Fa
I was listening to passer Alex Sealy today.
00:39:06 Fa
The new TV Co podcast, did you listen to it?
00:39:10 Fa
She was saying that God won't share intimate things with acquaintances.
00:39:14 Fa
You just you you gotta be his friend.
00:39:15 Rachel
Yeah, she's still dead.
00:39:17 Fa
She's so good.
00:39:17 Rachel
Yeah, it's.
00:39:18 Fa
Her message is so good.
00:39:20 Rachel
Of course it.
00:39:21 Fa
I want I should.
00:39:22 Fa
We should listen to it again.
00:39:25 Fa
She also like it's we should preach it.
00:39:27 Fa
So what's been happening to us?
00:39:29 Fa
She was like.
00:39:31 Fa
Ohh, people come up to me and say Pastor, can you pray for me?
00:39:34 Fa
Can you give me your word and this?
00:39:35 Fa
And that's just like, no, like you go pray you.
00:39:37 Fa
Go find a word you know.
00:39:38 Rachel
Yes, that's right.
00:39:39 Fa
I mean, like if she was saying also to how?
00:39:43 Fa
If we knew how much prayer changes things, we would pray all the time.
00:39:46 Fa
Yeah, is her message is all you right now.
00:39:49 Fa
It's like it's insane.
00:39:52 Rachel
Yeah, it's kind of wild.
00:39:54 Rachel
UM.
00:39:56 Rachel
Man, I mean.
00:39:57 Rachel
Yeah, that's it.
00:39:57 Rachel
That's it.
00:39:58 Rachel
I mean, that's the key.
00:39:59 Rachel
What you want transformation in your life?
00:40:00 Rachel
Freaking go spend.
00:40:01 Rachel
Time with God.
00:40:02 Rachel
You you want, you know, to hear.
00:40:04 Rachel
From God, you.
00:40:05 Rachel
Go spend time with God, you know.
00:40:07 Rachel
I really he doesn't make it complicated.
00:40:09 Rachel
You just have to.
00:40:10 Rachel
Look at Jesus.
00:40:10 Fa
That's what I've been figuring.
00:40:12 Fa
It's like it's not hard what's happening.
00:40:16 Fa
You know, I mean like it's complicated because I grew you and I grew.
00:40:21 Fa
Up in church.
00:40:23 Fa
And I would see people.
00:40:26 Fa
Coming in from like you know.
00:40:28 Fa
Of the countries or states are not to preach and you could see that that person's like real close to God and.
00:40:36 Fa
You know, have crazy gifts or whatever.
00:40:38 Fa
God shows them things.
00:40:39 Fa
They heal people.
00:40:40 Fa
They do this and that, but no one ever talks about how they get there, you know, I mean, like, they don't talk about it.
00:40:48 Fa
But maybe they did and you just don't.
00:40:50 Fa
Didn't listen.
00:40:51 Fa
You know, you just you have to spend time with.
00:40:53 Fa
God, you have to listen to what you know what God's saying and.
00:40:58 Fa
When he wants to deal with something in your heart, you gotta let him deal with.
00:41:02 Fa
It you know, I mean like there's.
00:41:04 Fa
You know your whole story how God came in and.
00:41:07 Fa
Deal with dealt with what was in your heart and he made room in your heart and there's all the rooms in your heart and you know now God's filled all the rooms and.
00:41:18 Fa
Now he talks to you all the time because you know you just you let him be there.
00:41:22 Fa
It's not.
00:41:22 Fa
It's just like.
00:41:24 Fa
You put him on the Sunday room.
00:41:27 Fa
You know, to me like where you just talked to him on the Sunday and then the rest of the week.
00:41:32 Fa
You're gone.
00:41:33 Fa
You know, I mean, like, he's not talking to you, but when you just let him be there all the time, it's just different.
00:41:40 Rachel
It's true.
00:41:40 Rachel
I mean, if I have to like put into steps in order to get revelation from God and to be close to God, it would be first to give up the things that are taking your vision away.
00:41:51 Rachel
So if that's distraction, if you're.
00:41:53 Rachel
Connected and you're not focused on God.
00:41:56 Rachel
So this is the thing.
00:41:57 Rachel
Like, you don't even know half the time.
00:41:59 Rachel
You know, if you're distracted.
00:42:01 Rachel
So like, that's the blindness there is like you don't know what you.
00:42:04 Rachel
Don't know.
00:42:05 Rachel
So I would start with asking God.
00:42:07 Rachel
To take away.
00:42:08 Rachel
That you're blind let you see.
00:42:10 Rachel
You know if you're deaf.
00:42:11 Rachel
Let you hear.
00:42:12 Rachel
If you're me, let you speak.
00:42:13 Rachel
You know, Jesus is more than.
00:42:14 Rachel
Happy to do that.
00:42:15 Rachel
It's just.
00:42:16 Rachel
Like he's not going.
00:42:17 Rachel
To force himself on you, you have to.
00:42:18 Rachel
For it, you know, like you have to make that effort to to, to be sensitive enough to ask and and.
00:42:24 Rachel
And The thing is too is like the Holy Spirit we're playing, we're we're praying the wrong things.
00:42:29 Rachel
I think I'm convinced most of the time and that's why we need the Holy Spirit.
00:42:32 Rachel
That's why Jesus sent the Holy Spirit after he was gone.
00:42:35 Rachel
It's like I'm gonna send someone that's gonna help you decipher truth here.
00:42:38 Rachel
And the Holy Spirit.
00:42:39 Rachel
Does that so it's like, OK, you feel a certain way you can be praying into it, but it's.
00:42:43 Rachel
Not the right prayer.
00:42:44 Rachel
Ask the right prayers.
00:42:45 Rachel
Ask the Holy Spirit to tell you what the.
00:42:47 Rachel
Right prayers are and he will.
00:42:49 Rachel
And you know, in your blindness, you'll see the idols.
00:42:53 Rachel
And I'm telling you right now, I think that's like a crucial point is that God is not going to contend with idolaters, you know, like we're not.
00:43:00 Rachel
He doesn't contend with other idols.
00:43:02 Rachel
He he makes it very clear no other gods before me get rid of your other gods.
00:43:06 Rachel
And I think that's when things really start to open up is when you're like, OK, no, I'm committed to you.
00:43:11 Rachel
Jesus, I'm committed to you.
00:43:12 Rachel
God alone.
00:43:12 Rachel
You're alone.
00:43:13 Rachel
I'm God.
00:43:16 Rachel
Here's the thing, you gotta be able to see because you won't be able to see your idols 100%.
00:43:21 Rachel
You don't even.
00:43:22 Rachel
Know their idols.
00:43:22 Fa
Right, right.
00:43:23 Rachel
You have to be able to see so.
00:43:24 Rachel
You need to ask for vision.
00:43:26 Fa
I asked God today to show me some idols.
00:43:28 Rachel
Yeah, yeah.
00:43:28 Fa
Yeah, yeah.
00:43:29 Rachel
You gotta you gotta be able to see the things that you can't see.
00:43:32 Rachel
And it's like, man, it it, I don't know, the Israelites were.
00:43:37 Rachel
Kind of blato.
00:43:38 Rachel
With it, but I don't think that they were so blatant in how they got into their idolatry.
00:43:43 Rachel
You know what I mean?
00:43:44 Rachel
That was just like quick and easy swoop right down in.
00:43:47 Rachel
You know, it's obvious they had idol like they had literally, like, freaking golden calves and stuff.
00:43:53 Rachel
Like visually, there was I, you know, here.
00:43:56 Rachel
Now I think that we don't.
00:43:58 Rachel
Visually, see the and the idols, but we certainly have them and they're sneaky that way, you know?
00:44:05 Rachel
So I think like that's where the blindness goes.
00:44:09 Rachel
Hand in hand with idolatry is like you don't really even realize you're worshiping things you shouldn't worship or your hope, and it's really that simple.
00:44:17 Rachel
It's like we say, oh, we don't worship those things.
00:44:19 Rachel
Yeah, you do.
00:44:20 Rachel
If your expectation is in your job or in your kids to fulfill you your hope, your whatever word you want to use for it.
00:44:27 Rachel
But it's your hope, it's your hope, your expectation.
00:44:30 Rachel
Your desire, if it's in your job, it's in your things.
00:44:34 Rachel
It's in your spouse.
00:44:35 Rachel
It's in.
00:44:37 Rachel
That's an idol.
00:44:38 Rachel
That's what that is, you know.
00:44:40 Fa
Well, you always think of worship as like oh, you know, we we sing, right.
00:44:44 Rachel
Yeah, right.
00:44:44 Fa
Worship is sing.
00:44:45 Fa
But worship is more than that.
00:44:46 Fa
It's like your heart the way like you adore things the way you.
00:44:51 Rachel
He's serving.
00:44:52 Fa
It's what you serve.
00:44:54 Rachel
What do you make provisions for in your?
00:44:56 Fa
Life that what do you make space for?
00:44:58 Rachel
Yeah, it's the space thing that's really.
00:44:58 Fa
What do you make time for?
00:45:02 Rachel
OK.
00:45:05 Fa
Well, God was shallow me today.
00:45:06 Fa
It's like people carried their idols nowaday, put them in the pocket, stare at it all day.
00:45:12 Fa
You know what I mean?
00:45:13 Fa
Like, God was telling me, like, the idle your idol was your phone.
00:45:17 Fa
Like you don't go anywhere without it.
00:45:19 Fa
You're always looking at it, you know.
00:45:21 Fa
And I open up in the apps and.
00:45:24 Fa
Look at this screen time and it's like.
00:45:27 Fa
I know I gave up scrolling on.
00:45:28 Fa
Facebook and Instagram.
00:45:30 Fa
All time, but you know every other day.
00:45:32 Fa
I'm still, like on Facebook for an hour on Instagram for an hour.
00:45:36 Fa
You know what I mean?
00:45:37 Fa
So it's like, how do you, how come you want more of me, but you're still.
00:45:42 Fa
Giving Instagram more time than me, you know, because I come home in the morning and I got 30 minutes to pray and I pray and I have a good time praying and you know, God shows me stuff and this and that but.
00:45:52 Fa
It's not deep like you because I'm not.
00:45:56 Fa
In as deep as you, I'm not giving as much time to God like you are, you know, I mean, like I don't.
00:46:03 Fa
I'm not doing.
00:46:05 Fa
I'm not.
00:46:05 Fa
I'm just not pursuing God as much as.
00:46:07 Fa
You are? Mm-hmm.
00:46:09 Fa
So God's, just like you know.
00:46:12 Fa
Fillmore, me.
00:46:14 Fa
You gotta be with me more.
00:46:15 Fa
You know what I mean?
00:46:17 Fa
Is very clear to me today.
00:46:20 Fa
It was funny.
00:46:21 Fa
I didn't think about that all day long until I started talking to you about.
00:46:25 Rachel
It just now.
00:46:26 Fa
Sometimes God will show me something and I'll forget it.
00:46:29 Fa
And then I start talking to you about it.
00:46:31 Fa
It's like.
00:46:31 Fa
Oh yeah, yeah.
00:46:33 Fa
That happened today.
00:46:37 Rachel
I mean that.
00:46:40 Rachel
You know I'm not.
00:46:42 Rachel
I don't know.
00:46:44 Rachel
I'm not God and I'm not here to tell you what to do.
00:46:46 Rachel
You know what I mean?
00:46:47 Rachel
But if you have to ask me, I would say yeah, like, give all that other stuff up.
00:46:52 Rachel
Just give it up is not worth it and this, this this time, this visions, these things I see from God.
00:46:59 Rachel
Even just to know that he talks to me and on like a daily basis, it's like every day he's showing me something or it's every day I'm in his presence like it's worth it.
00:47:09 Rachel
That's worth it.
00:47:09 Rachel
It's a high.
00:47:10 Rachel
It is a high cost, you know.
00:47:12 Rachel
And there are definitely times where I'm like, well, so just watch a movie and, like, not even worry about it.
00:47:17 Rachel
But like, good Lord, I can't watch any movies, because what if I had the chance that, like God wanted to show me something and I'm distracted over here watching something that's going to fill my mind with anything but God's truth in Word?
00:47:30 Rachel
You know, like it's not worth it to me.
00:47:31 Rachel
I just, I cannot go back.
00:47:33 Rachel
I can't go back into.
00:47:34 Rachel
Slumber. I want to dwell in the House of the Lord. You know better. Is one day in his course than 1000 elsewhere.
00:47:41 Rachel
Like I mean that with everything inside me like ah, I'll freaking be a A doorkeeper in the House of the Lord 100% if I could just be.
00:47:50 Fa
Right.
00:47:50 Rachel
In the house.
00:47:51 Rachel
You know, then a thousand of those, right.
00:47:52 Fa
I know Benny him, said one time that.
00:47:56 Fa
I think it's in this book.
00:47:57 Fa
Good morning, Holy Spirit, where he he has this experience where God, that you're going through now like.
00:48:05 Fa
He meets the Holy Spirit or whatever.
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And you know.
00:48:10 Fa
He sprained in his room while the spirit comes, and you know he has, like, a crazy experience with God.
00:48:16 Fa
The next day, when he wakes up, the first thing out of his mouth is good morning, Holy Spirit.
00:48:21 Fa
So he spends the day with the Holy Spirit.
00:48:22 Fa
You know, you know, doesn't have time for other things.
00:48:25 Fa
Just spends time.
00:48:26 Fa
With God.
00:48:27 Fa
But what happened is, like, way down the road he's preaching.
00:48:31 Fa
And he.
00:48:34 Fa
He's at a church. Whatever.
00:48:37 Fa
And the power of God just comes down in the church and people are doing, you know, the crazy things like rolling on the floor or ever being healed this and that.
00:48:45 Fa
The next day.
00:48:47 Fa
He was going to preach at that church again.
00:48:49 Fa
Or maybe a different church?
00:48:51 Fa
I don't know.
00:48:51 Fa
But during the day he was having lunch with his friends, and then the Holy Spirit said it's time to go pray.
00:48:58 Fa
You know, it's like you have to leave now and go pray and spend time with me.
00:49:02 Fa
And then he said, I'll do it later or whatever and forgot when he preached that night.
00:49:08 Fa
The Holy Spirit didn't come down in the church, you know, I mean like, because he denied the Holy Spirit that time that he had asked.
00:49:17 Fa
That service was like a boring service. You know what I mean? Like it wasn't. So he learned that way when the Holy Spirit's like you gotta.
00:49:25 Fa
You know, he gives you that clue.
00:49:26 Fa
Time to pray.
00:49:28 Fa
You gotta go pray you.
00:49:29 Fa
Gotta go spend time with him because.
00:49:32 Fa
You know, otherwise he's just.
00:49:34 Fa
Not going to show up.
00:49:36 Rachel
Yeah, it's legit.
00:49:37 Rachel
It's funny cause I think.
00:49:41 Rachel
We don't really know the Holy Spirit.
00:49:44 Fa
Well, yeah.
00:49:45 Rachel
As a.
00:49:47 Rachel
Body of believers Christians don't really understand the Holy Spirit, and there's just like what I'm learning or I'm starting to learn today, at least what God's showing me today is that there.
00:49:49 Fa
Yeah, true.
00:49:58 Rachel
Is a whole.
00:50:02 Rachel
We don't even know. We don't even know, like, what's happening. Yeah, I'm like, my mind's blown today. And what the things he's been telling me, and I can't tell him yet.
00:50:04 Fa
I know you're talking about.
00:50:10 Fa
But we could tease a little bit.
00:50:14 Rachel
I mean, I don't know.
00:50:15 Fa
You had.
00:50:15 Rachel
I I don't have a full picture yet because I do need to spend time.
00:50:19 Fa
Well, well.
00:50:20 Fa
But you know, there's two major visions you had that we didn't talk about.
00:50:26 Rachel
But that's for another.
00:50:26 Fa
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00:50:30 Fa
I've always wanted to say that were those.
00:50:33 Rachel
Who are people now?
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00:50:41 Rachel
Oh God, that would become.
00:50:44 Fa
We tell this to people and that's just.
00:50:46 Fa
Well, you told it to be and it blew my mind about the prayer and the.
00:50:51 Fa
Dog Oh yeah.
00:50:54 Fa
That there's the Disneyland and you know the church or whatever revelation.
00:50:55 Rachel
Was talking about but.
00:51:00 Fa
Yeah, that was even bigger than the prayer and the dog for me.
00:51:03 Fa
And then the one.
00:51:04 Fa
You said today that was like.
00:51:07 Fa
Too much to handle I.
00:51:08 Rachel
Think, isn't it crazy?
00:51:12 Rachel
And by the way, like the Holy Spirit speaking to me, not when I was like in my Bible and praying I was in the shower like, that's the point, like of the whole, like, well, not the whole point, but that's the point.
00:51:22 Rachel
Like God's with us everywhere.
00:51:23 Rachel
And he's speaking to us everywhere.
00:51:24 Rachel
It's not like we have to.
00:51:25 Rachel
Have segregated places for you.
00:51:26 Rachel
I was in the shower.
00:51:29 Rachel
And God was like, boom.
00:51:30 Rachel
Dropping bombs.
00:51:31 Rachel
You know what I'm saying?
00:51:33 Fa
Well, amaze.
00:51:38 Fa
Next episode we'll talk about.
00:51:40 Rachel
It maybe.
00:51:41 Rachel
I feel like we have a lot.
00:51:42 Rachel
More, we got to say.
00:51:43 Rachel
Before we get to that point, is there?
00:51:44 Fa
Anything else we?
00:51:45 Fa
Want to say?
00:51:45 Fa
Today, today I don't know.
00:51:46 Fa
It's been an hour already.
00:51:48 Rachel
I think it's probably we can close it here.
00:51:50 Fa
OK.
00:51:51 Fa
OK. Do you wanna pray?
00:51:52 Rachel
No, I don't want to.
00:51:53 Rachel
Pray you pray.
00:51:55 Fa
OK, Dear Jesus, we thank you for everything you've done for us.
00:52:00 Fa
Every time I pray, I just.
00:52:02 Fa
I'm so thankful of how much you changed our lives recently, Father and.
00:52:08 Fa
How good you've been to us, I pray that.
00:52:12 Fa
If there is anybody listening to this and they want to get close to you, I pray that you show them the way.
00:52:16 Fa
I pray that the Holy Spirit will show them how to get close to you, Jesus, and how to get close to the father.
00:52:24 Fa
We just declared that in the name of Jesus to everybody that's listening, father, that they would just have a hunger and that third thirst for you father.
00:52:37 Fa
In the name of Jesus IP.
00:52:38 Fa
OK, just like Rachel saw the vision of the ground bubbling up in water coming up, I'm seeing that right now.
00:52:47 Fa
I just spray.
00:52:48 Fa
Got that you would just bring up that water to quench the thirst thirst of people that are.
00:52:56 Fa
That want to be with you, God, that you know, maybe them and Christian all their lives.
00:53:00 Fa
Maybe not.
00:53:01 Fa
I don't care.
00:53:04 Fa
Preach right now, Father.
00:53:06 Fa
We ask right now that you would just.
00:53:08 Fa
Come and stir up that hunger and that there's for you, father.
00:53:12 Fa
I remember so many times I've prayed for this and it's now out here.
00:53:16 Fa
Father will just want the survival from from you.
00:53:19 Fa
You wanna get to know your father in the name of Jesus, I ask you that you make it happen, that you make a way, father, just like you've done for Rachel do for us.
00:53:29 Fa
And do for the people that are listening and father in the name of Jesus I pray.
00:53:34 Fa
Do you wanna break?
00:53:34 Fa
Too or.
00:53:35 Fa
No, no.
00:53:35 Rachel
That's good.
00:53:35 Fa
OK, good.
00:53:38 Fa
Alright guys, I'll see you next time.
00:53:40 Rachel
Bye guys.
00:53:41 Fa
Bye guys.